Azorm said:
Gear, I saw you lately a lot on those forums. To me you just seems like really lonely person, who has potential to be more open to some things than others.
Quite so indeed in real life. But it's not a problem I'm fine with it. It's the way life is can't do anything about that. BTW YOU'D think I have potential and perhaps I do but not at all genuinely not at all.
Azorm said:
Enemy plays with those people as you, they play so easily and they are enjoying it so fucking much.
Whoa hold on here this is way too easy of a mention by people. I really highly doubt this is the case 99.9/100, in fact the paranoia is worse than the attack and even then I highly doubt people want to get psychically raped by Ayylmaos. In fact some people do have their own delusions or issues. Never had an issue with the enemy. Even years ago when I did MerKaba without any aura of protection or anything. I did the meditation it worked it worked, it didn't work it didn't work. I do know H.P. Cobra's 2006 sermon about MerKaBa and the flash up on the radar of the astral. If it did something well guess it light me up. What can I do I mean basically I'm a completely blind, deaf, and dumb person to the astral how am I supposed to know if the enemy does something to me.
Azrom said:
So, you are open and creative, but you lack understanding about what is happening with you and around you. Also, your mental and emotional body is full of self-hating and some reptilian dross, which enemy is using against you as well.
Open and creative....yeah lets not really state things that aren't true. It's nice compliment but seems to me like that would imply I do have a talent and I don't.
Hmm self-hatred, well I do have self-hatred it's been part of me for a long time. It's not really self-hatred more like I just don't care about myself. Which could be derived from self-hatred. But it's not a problem just a part of my mental make up I mean gotta waste my time thinking about something. Don't have anything better to do.
Azrom said:
I think that you have strong Neptune infuence on you that can be dangerous from time to time. You need to figure out what do you want in life. It seems like right now you are just gathering attention, and in that way that most of the people think of you as a fool and a crybaby. Is that your goal? You want attention? Well you recieved it too much. What now? Did it made your life easier, some of your problems are gone?
I can't say anything astrological or H.P. Cobra will just delete but yes prominent Neptunian position and aspects. Let's just say Chameleon and Masks are the name of the game. In other words despite being me it's more like I can change my identity it's fluid. So what is the true self? is there such a thing as true self?
Basically with the Neptunian astrological aspect and the other aspects related to my main self it's both multi-layered and multi-faceted personality in fact an utter mystery more than other people know. There is also the other aspects that relate to one such website I read upon astrological information as multi-layered/multi-faceted in other aspects.
Azrom said:
Just talk in private about those things, find a friend from here, don't let enemies to use your private informations against you. You need to stop puting yourself in such a dangerous situations. Also, make better protection and in time you will be fine. Don't blame Satan and dedication for your problems, your main problem is dirt in your soul and bad thoughtforms in your head that you need to take care of soon. Fight against enemy that is in you, find the light in you and willpower, don't just whine. Fight ffs....
Oh I never blamed Satan and the dedication just a possibility that perhaps delving into the truth may have caused issues perhaps an unrealistic mentality to living.
I don't think these things are thoughtforms or anything. In fact I don't even know what a thoughtform is. According to what I know it's a mass of condensed packet of energy that absorbs energies to increase in power not necessarily size can be molded into anything from a simple sphere most common to a say a dollar bill for financial boost as some sort of visual force multiple. Is told simple commands "Bring me money" or "Bring money to me" under 5 and operates without limits or constraints. Can attach to anything or anyone for better or worse and does require maintenance both in cleaning and in empowering, particularly us Satanist should employ clean thoughtforms and SHOULD cleanse even with a few vibrations of Surya/Raum.
Kinda delves into advanced thoughtform magic like say building an aura of protection around it. Or commanding it only to absorb clean fresh energy from say the Sun. Or really what are the limits of command and activities to thoughtforms just how "free" should they be. What CAN or CAN'T be programmed into it. Kinda even begs the same for advanced or elemental thoughtforms and even creations of souls far in the future if such activity is taught by the Gods at a proper point.
Funny I theorized a long time ago after reading a thread on someone doing MerKaBa and the British Gent said the little bugger popped out of his stomach area. A MerKaBa thoughtform you perform MKB and you pull out the internal pelvic/ribcage solar ball and use that as a thoughtform. Could go further and even compress the entire MerKaBa energy field into the body solar ball pull it out and pop it out into a thoughtform.
It's funny the guy mentioned his solar ball popped out. I mean I simply went further with his personal conundrum. Found it interesting especially having a thoughtform vibrating at the speed of light begs the question what kind of effects it performs on the desire you want. Higher vibration in physics = more results in physics.
But all of this sounds interesting and whatnot but it's simply a mental theory. I'm in no way, shape, or form open to the astral to see such things. Kinda begs the question how far the Gods go with research and development into books and information on thoughtforms.