Hyper-scout
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So I'm meditating, not on anything specific but actually trying to work on void meditation. I keep my eyes closed because I can still my mind more easily this way but I noticed something that I don't know how to describe but I'm going to try and all I'm asking is some explanation to the experience I sometimes have from time to time..
Small back story but I first discovered JoS years and years ago, I was a teen basically at the time and since I began power meditation I can see like.. small blobs of distant and faint light is the best way I can describe it.
Fast forward a little bit, life got hard and I had to stabilize myself, in the since of getting a job, buying a house, starting a family, yadda yadda... I quit power meditation at this point but from time to time (and I mean very rarely) when I'm alone I'll attempt meditation just to "feel energy and move it around, breathing it out and letting it go without affirmations, mantras, focusing on specific colors, just feeling it flow in and out. That way I never forgot the basics but I digress.
When I close my eyes I can still see this very dark light, very faint, I can almost move it around but it moves on its own. Mostly I will see this light come from the outside of my vision (eyes are still closed but from all sides) and comes to the middle just to fade away. And the light will do this in waves, almost like your traveling backwards in a tunnel and wall lights are moving away from you as you continue to travel backwards.
Not that I feel like I'm traveling backwards but the light makes this tunnel in my mind, that's mostly what I see but then I try to focus on keeping that light there. The, still very faint but, dark light I can almost hold onto it in the middle and I see a few things from time to time starting with the most common, it forms a small bright ball (not bright bright, but more so than the very faint light) and I either see an eye looking at or around me, a face looking slightly to my left like someone is lost in thought, or most recently a ... Umm fur ball? Little strings of.. lines in a curly, messy hair pattern or... This one is really hard to explain but fur ball with strings of hair sticking out of every angle is the closest I can get to describing it.
I want to know what this light is, what is this experience called, what it does, how to manipulate it or how to control it. I'm still just a beginner and I have my whole human experience to try and figure this out but for reasons I cannot explain other than the since of curiosity and compulsion I want to be able to see more then the small glimpses of an unrecognizable face (nothing specific other than when I see a pair of eyes, just the outline of the top part of the nose, didn't see a forehead, it was all to Dim..
What's really weird is that I feel like if I can see this face in a bright place but I can't actually see it if that makes since...
Overall if someone can please help me by explaining my experience
Small back story but I first discovered JoS years and years ago, I was a teen basically at the time and since I began power meditation I can see like.. small blobs of distant and faint light is the best way I can describe it.
Fast forward a little bit, life got hard and I had to stabilize myself, in the since of getting a job, buying a house, starting a family, yadda yadda... I quit power meditation at this point but from time to time (and I mean very rarely) when I'm alone I'll attempt meditation just to "feel energy and move it around, breathing it out and letting it go without affirmations, mantras, focusing on specific colors, just feeling it flow in and out. That way I never forgot the basics but I digress.
When I close my eyes I can still see this very dark light, very faint, I can almost move it around but it moves on its own. Mostly I will see this light come from the outside of my vision (eyes are still closed but from all sides) and comes to the middle just to fade away. And the light will do this in waves, almost like your traveling backwards in a tunnel and wall lights are moving away from you as you continue to travel backwards.
Not that I feel like I'm traveling backwards but the light makes this tunnel in my mind, that's mostly what I see but then I try to focus on keeping that light there. The, still very faint but, dark light I can almost hold onto it in the middle and I see a few things from time to time starting with the most common, it forms a small bright ball (not bright bright, but more so than the very faint light) and I either see an eye looking at or around me, a face looking slightly to my left like someone is lost in thought, or most recently a ... Umm fur ball? Little strings of.. lines in a curly, messy hair pattern or... This one is really hard to explain but fur ball with strings of hair sticking out of every angle is the closest I can get to describing it.
I want to know what this light is, what is this experience called, what it does, how to manipulate it or how to control it. I'm still just a beginner and I have my whole human experience to try and figure this out but for reasons I cannot explain other than the since of curiosity and compulsion I want to be able to see more then the small glimpses of an unrecognizable face (nothing specific other than when I see a pair of eyes, just the outline of the top part of the nose, didn't see a forehead, it was all to Dim..
What's really weird is that I feel like if I can see this face in a bright place but I can't actually see it if that makes since...
Overall if someone can please help me by explaining my experience
