lamieleigh
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I am in such awe of the significance of today.
To really express myself correctly I need to share some more personal intimate details about my life.
I was consumed by the evil energy of the xtian beliefs, I was born without knowledge of the Real Truth. The evil I have seen with my own eyes in the churches my parents attended while I was growing up. Deep down I knew something was off, that xtian spirituality was not pure and not true, nothing like I have experienced since simply praying to Lucifer directly sharing with him my inner chaos about the situation.
While I was living with my family who was continuously pushing their xtian beliefs on me, It was impossible to ever know the truth in such an evil uncomfortable exsistance.
I grew up not able to understand why I felt so emotional & yet some how connected to something beyond myself. My first thoughts were that something was wrong with me, These were the feelings I got through my own Family. Oct. 17th 2008 My mother told me to pack up my things and get out, "If you can't find someone to get you I can drop you off at walmart". I was homeless for awhile, couch surfing, sleeping around just so I had a bed to sleep in for the night, justifying actions of men who only lusted when I needed unconditional love. It took me several months before I found some stability. I began to forget formed religions and searched myself, found myself a decent living space, regular income, yet still I knew spiritually I was in need of answers, or some kind of confirmation what the truth really was.
I became happier with myself, I began to love myself, and that is when I met my Soul Mate. He came to me & When we met, I felt as if I had known him. In this life I have never met him, we both knew something magnificent was going to grow. We shared some indescribable moments, full of purity, burning for the truth, keeping an open mind. After a heated conversation on the phone yesterday about Spiritual Satanism I was feeling so conflicted, tears flowed from me. I kept asking how he could believe in someone that represented such "negative energy" He told me to look at Joy of Satan. I hung up, confused, feeling chaos, I told myself to sleep on it. I had a dream, I don't remember all the details but it was very vivid and showed My life with my Soul Mate on earth, I woke up and started to read information on JoS, I started to cry as I realized the horrible truth that everything was kept secret in order to maintain order in society; controlling the people. After several hours of research I called My Soul Mate and I told him I was going to perform the Dedication today. We rejoiced, Today is also our one month together, but I feel as if we have been together so much longer.
As I walked to the store to get some candles for the ritual I prayed to Lucifer. I told him that I was so thankful for Him to bring my Soul Mate into my life, because if it wasn't for him right now I would have been blind, I truly feel like Father Lucifer sent him to save me, to awaken me to the truth. I wouldn't have known the truth otherwise, I asked that Lucifer would bless my Soul Mate. (I found out later he ended up getting money for no reason within a few hours of my prayer & after my ritual) I told Lucifer about my fear, to help me find peace. Immediately I felt a difference, an extremely positive change. I got home and prepared.
I took my time in doing the ritual, Though I came to a personal conflict when it came to pricking my finger I use to be be into cutting and so this was a tempting situation. I could feel chaos trying to stray me away, I prayed Lucifer give me inner peace, help me see, I am ready, I want to know what you have in store for my life. Instantly after my prayer I felt an energy fill the room, I felt such energy around my neck someone was massaging it, I felt elevated. Slowly I came back and was able to prick myself to write my signature. Due to my own living arrangements I read it in my mind, I folded it, let it burn to ashes and afterwards while I meditated I experienced what I believe is the first of many new changes for myself.
It was a small challenge for me to not be looking for any certain thing, so I asked that Lucifer would provide me with Wisdom, Courage, Strength, Humor, Peace, & Bless my life. I wrote down on the paper "Who's here?" I went into a trance and I felt my hand moving along the paper, there was a marking left on the page I believe it is a drawing of a demon; at least the beginning of one but I don't think its finished. Then I felt someone hold my hands.
I believe I awakened my third eye, With all of my research I KNOW I felt the presence of Beelzebub. A gold aura appeared to me, it grew and grew, into a shadow of a very tall Man. I felt connected to the flame looked deeper and deeper I feel that I met many Demons today but whom I am still unsure. I remember rooms and rooms it was as if we were floating we were moving so fast I only caught glimpses of doorways & hallways. It was a grey/purple walls with gold torches along the walls. There was so much energy as if I was surrounded by love, truth, & I felt my own responsibility to the responsible.
After I came out of this meditation it had been about an hour or so, I was about to move the ashes into a bottle to save. I laughed and stood in completely AWE. Where I had written Lucifer in my dedication was sitting there in the ashes clean as ever. I laughed and thanked Father Lucifer for his humor & for showing me the truth.
I am so excited, and ready for what is going to come. My Soul Mate & I are planning our life together based on our spiritualism. I have never felt more right about anything in my life, looking back at my past so many things make sense to me now. I was given the answers I so desperately seeked for years with the xtian churches. Father, I thank you for awakening my soul and bringing me back to where I know I belong.
I would love to make new friends and connections, please feel free to add me to your yahoo messengers! or email me!
Hail Lucifer, The One & Only God.
To really express myself correctly I need to share some more personal intimate details about my life.
I was consumed by the evil energy of the xtian beliefs, I was born without knowledge of the Real Truth. The evil I have seen with my own eyes in the churches my parents attended while I was growing up. Deep down I knew something was off, that xtian spirituality was not pure and not true, nothing like I have experienced since simply praying to Lucifer directly sharing with him my inner chaos about the situation.
While I was living with my family who was continuously pushing their xtian beliefs on me, It was impossible to ever know the truth in such an evil uncomfortable exsistance.
I grew up not able to understand why I felt so emotional & yet some how connected to something beyond myself. My first thoughts were that something was wrong with me, These were the feelings I got through my own Family. Oct. 17th 2008 My mother told me to pack up my things and get out, "If you can't find someone to get you I can drop you off at walmart". I was homeless for awhile, couch surfing, sleeping around just so I had a bed to sleep in for the night, justifying actions of men who only lusted when I needed unconditional love. It took me several months before I found some stability. I began to forget formed religions and searched myself, found myself a decent living space, regular income, yet still I knew spiritually I was in need of answers, or some kind of confirmation what the truth really was.
I became happier with myself, I began to love myself, and that is when I met my Soul Mate. He came to me & When we met, I felt as if I had known him. In this life I have never met him, we both knew something magnificent was going to grow. We shared some indescribable moments, full of purity, burning for the truth, keeping an open mind. After a heated conversation on the phone yesterday about Spiritual Satanism I was feeling so conflicted, tears flowed from me. I kept asking how he could believe in someone that represented such "negative energy" He told me to look at Joy of Satan. I hung up, confused, feeling chaos, I told myself to sleep on it. I had a dream, I don't remember all the details but it was very vivid and showed My life with my Soul Mate on earth, I woke up and started to read information on JoS, I started to cry as I realized the horrible truth that everything was kept secret in order to maintain order in society; controlling the people. After several hours of research I called My Soul Mate and I told him I was going to perform the Dedication today. We rejoiced, Today is also our one month together, but I feel as if we have been together so much longer.
As I walked to the store to get some candles for the ritual I prayed to Lucifer. I told him that I was so thankful for Him to bring my Soul Mate into my life, because if it wasn't for him right now I would have been blind, I truly feel like Father Lucifer sent him to save me, to awaken me to the truth. I wouldn't have known the truth otherwise, I asked that Lucifer would bless my Soul Mate. (I found out later he ended up getting money for no reason within a few hours of my prayer & after my ritual) I told Lucifer about my fear, to help me find peace. Immediately I felt a difference, an extremely positive change. I got home and prepared.
I took my time in doing the ritual, Though I came to a personal conflict when it came to pricking my finger I use to be be into cutting and so this was a tempting situation. I could feel chaos trying to stray me away, I prayed Lucifer give me inner peace, help me see, I am ready, I want to know what you have in store for my life. Instantly after my prayer I felt an energy fill the room, I felt such energy around my neck someone was massaging it, I felt elevated. Slowly I came back and was able to prick myself to write my signature. Due to my own living arrangements I read it in my mind, I folded it, let it burn to ashes and afterwards while I meditated I experienced what I believe is the first of many new changes for myself.
It was a small challenge for me to not be looking for any certain thing, so I asked that Lucifer would provide me with Wisdom, Courage, Strength, Humor, Peace, & Bless my life. I wrote down on the paper "Who's here?" I went into a trance and I felt my hand moving along the paper, there was a marking left on the page I believe it is a drawing of a demon; at least the beginning of one but I don't think its finished. Then I felt someone hold my hands.
I believe I awakened my third eye, With all of my research I KNOW I felt the presence of Beelzebub. A gold aura appeared to me, it grew and grew, into a shadow of a very tall Man. I felt connected to the flame looked deeper and deeper I feel that I met many Demons today but whom I am still unsure. I remember rooms and rooms it was as if we were floating we were moving so fast I only caught glimpses of doorways & hallways. It was a grey/purple walls with gold torches along the walls. There was so much energy as if I was surrounded by love, truth, & I felt my own responsibility to the responsible.
After I came out of this meditation it had been about an hour or so, I was about to move the ashes into a bottle to save. I laughed and stood in completely AWE. Where I had written Lucifer in my dedication was sitting there in the ashes clean as ever. I laughed and thanked Father Lucifer for his humor & for showing me the truth.
I am so excited, and ready for what is going to come. My Soul Mate & I are planning our life together based on our spiritualism. I have never felt more right about anything in my life, looking back at my past so many things make sense to me now. I was given the answers I so desperately seeked for years with the xtian churches. Father, I thank you for awakening my soul and bringing me back to where I know I belong.
I would love to make new friends and connections, please feel free to add me to your yahoo messengers! or email me!
Hail Lucifer, The One & Only God.
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