darkmonkey666
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Pedophilia is like a death sentence for kids and for what some sick persons momentary pleasure. There have been a lot of things in the news recently about schools promoting pedophilia related material or the Jews pushing to promote this.
Well basically it's a death sentence for a person. It messes up their entire life at least until they are able to get over it which for the average person may not ever happen. I wanted to say I was mostly ok there cause I was not sure I want to talk about it but I do so I wrote this.
I saw the article on the top I wanted to speak on this a little more. I thought I was mostly ok. But it's always been something that has eaten me inside. This incident that happened even though it did not involve my family is why I was so angry at my family. Childhood didn't fully exist for me and I didn't know why until the last few years. This is why I say maybe it doesn't exist at all and is just a social construct. I had spent many years being really angry wishing that this stuff with the Xtian church would just go away and I could live life. Why me why was this stuff forced upon me.
This was only one incident in my entire life that was really bad (that unfortunately lead to some other incidents later I will go on to explain) the energies from all this and the xtian stuff and the feelings I had also caused some inner conflict within my soul that literally lead to a mental break down several times and having to be taken to the hospital when I was about 19 to 26. I did not know what was wrong fully I was kind of a loner anyways I ended up not having people to talk to even online for awhile. This lead to alcohol abuse to try to get rid of these feelings and yeah I had dedicated to Satan but the enemy was having a field day with me I really wasn't able to advance cause of the kinds of energies that were in me and stuff this bought to the surface. I had this huge knot in my heart charka. I wish I had thought to ask on the groups about more of this stuff or try to find someone actually serious about Satanism to email and ask about it or talk too.
I have recently started a working to heal this and I can see it was a huge wound for me and a lot of bad energy. I am not like most people even on here are. Most the things in life dealing with modern world I wouldn't care about even without this I know that cause I remember my past life I at least am not that much of a different person that is one thing I pride myself on but it still bought a lot of struggle that was unneeded in my life.
So yes this and the xtian energies in my soul from childhood are what closed me off to the spiritual and made this so hard for me to advance. Made me feel like I was separate from the Gods or they abandon me.
Without this happening I would not be angry so much about my childhood and I am 33 still haven't fully gotten over all this stuff.
We should fight to put an end to this not normalize it. I know personally it is a very bad thing. The thing that made this hard for me even more so was my dad was a pastor of an xtian church and a priest did this to me. Was the same thing in my mind or at least how I interpreted it at the time it happened.
Also please if Pluto is going to go over something major in your child's chart take extra care to watch them male sure nothing like this is going on. If something does happen show them love and support listen to them. For one I kind of didn't remember what happened when I was younger or for awhile and for two I hinted that something bad did and no one believed me like for example no one believed I was over at that house. There was a little tunnel to the church basement from it that was kind of hidden in a room off to the side as this was the priests home. When they were selling the house I insisted on showing them I was there. I pointed out the layout and where that tunnel (more like a walk way if I remember right) was. They thought that was super strange like how could I know about it but still denied I was ever there. This is where one of the rape incidents happened to me.
I was only like about 2 or 3 at the time I don't even think I was able fully to walk on my own.
I feel like this working brings up a lot of bad energy and feelings of pain and sadness about the whole thing.
Now if you want to see some honest representation of the kind of feelings this can cause people here. I came across this years ago.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQZodBV39F4&feature=share
So yeah we need to fight this and seek to support more people it happened too be more understanding.
Well basically it's a death sentence for a person. It messes up their entire life at least until they are able to get over it which for the average person may not ever happen. I wanted to say I was mostly ok there cause I was not sure I want to talk about it but I do so I wrote this.
I saw the article on the top I wanted to speak on this a little more. I thought I was mostly ok. But it's always been something that has eaten me inside. This incident that happened even though it did not involve my family is why I was so angry at my family. Childhood didn't fully exist for me and I didn't know why until the last few years. This is why I say maybe it doesn't exist at all and is just a social construct. I had spent many years being really angry wishing that this stuff with the Xtian church would just go away and I could live life. Why me why was this stuff forced upon me.
This was only one incident in my entire life that was really bad (that unfortunately lead to some other incidents later I will go on to explain) the energies from all this and the xtian stuff and the feelings I had also caused some inner conflict within my soul that literally lead to a mental break down several times and having to be taken to the hospital when I was about 19 to 26. I did not know what was wrong fully I was kind of a loner anyways I ended up not having people to talk to even online for awhile. This lead to alcohol abuse to try to get rid of these feelings and yeah I had dedicated to Satan but the enemy was having a field day with me I really wasn't able to advance cause of the kinds of energies that were in me and stuff this bought to the surface. I had this huge knot in my heart charka. I wish I had thought to ask on the groups about more of this stuff or try to find someone actually serious about Satanism to email and ask about it or talk too.
I have recently started a working to heal this and I can see it was a huge wound for me and a lot of bad energy. I am not like most people even on here are. Most the things in life dealing with modern world I wouldn't care about even without this I know that cause I remember my past life I at least am not that much of a different person that is one thing I pride myself on but it still bought a lot of struggle that was unneeded in my life.
So yes this and the xtian energies in my soul from childhood are what closed me off to the spiritual and made this so hard for me to advance. Made me feel like I was separate from the Gods or they abandon me.
Without this happening I would not be angry so much about my childhood and I am 33 still haven't fully gotten over all this stuff.
We should fight to put an end to this not normalize it. I know personally it is a very bad thing. The thing that made this hard for me even more so was my dad was a pastor of an xtian church and a priest did this to me. Was the same thing in my mind or at least how I interpreted it at the time it happened.
Also please if Pluto is going to go over something major in your child's chart take extra care to watch them male sure nothing like this is going on. If something does happen show them love and support listen to them. For one I kind of didn't remember what happened when I was younger or for awhile and for two I hinted that something bad did and no one believed me like for example no one believed I was over at that house. There was a little tunnel to the church basement from it that was kind of hidden in a room off to the side as this was the priests home. When they were selling the house I insisted on showing them I was there. I pointed out the layout and where that tunnel (more like a walk way if I remember right) was. They thought that was super strange like how could I know about it but still denied I was ever there. This is where one of the rape incidents happened to me.
I was only like about 2 or 3 at the time I don't even think I was able fully to walk on my own.
I feel like this working brings up a lot of bad energy and feelings of pain and sadness about the whole thing.
Now if you want to see some honest representation of the kind of feelings this can cause people here. I came across this years ago.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQZodBV39F4&feature=share
So yeah we need to fight this and seek to support more people it happened too be more understanding.