Hi, I haven't thought much about this until now.
Before I came to Father, before i did the ritual, before i knew Satanism existed Ive always felt close to him. Like hes been there with me my whole life. whenever i have that feeling I'm happy, but whenever in my life i didn't have that feeling i felt powerless and lifeless like i didn't have a reason to live. Many things have happened in my life. All the bad things that happened to me happened when i was xtian(forced by family). I was molested as a kid, teased in school and many other horrible things. But once i came to Father i got treated better and respected more.
But my dad and mom told me a story before. They said my mom was not able to get pregnant, and then supposedly one day my mom puked and a demon came out of her(i think this is bullshit) but another family member of mine related that whole thing to what i have now. what i have now is what everyone i know calls my "demonic eyebrows" they sorta point up there only half there. and according to people when i get an evil idea or trick going through my mind or I'm doing something most will call bad, people say they sorta flare up and my eyes become dark(no not the color, they just say i get a happy/evil look in my eyes).
Now back to the whole life thing. Growing up i went through allot of hard times, but i always had the feeling Father was with me even with me not knowing what satanism was. Like when i wss molested i felt him there, i could feel his sadness. an whenever i felt who the xtians call "god" there was only hatred and something bad would happen.
Even now, i get the evil feeling from him all the time. but once i get my mind focused on Father the feelings gone. Even though i dont know much about Satanism i still feel incredibly close Like hes been waiting for me and i love the feelin.
So, my questions are: Does the eybrow thing many anything? Could i have been Satanist in past life? If so, could it be possible that the dipshit above us knows tht and he was punishing me since i wasnt exactly Satanist yet and Father couldnt do anything to help? And me possibly being Satanist in past life could that be related to me being so close to Father with knowing so little? All help would be appreciated.
Hail Father Satan!
Before I came to Father, before i did the ritual, before i knew Satanism existed Ive always felt close to him. Like hes been there with me my whole life. whenever i have that feeling I'm happy, but whenever in my life i didn't have that feeling i felt powerless and lifeless like i didn't have a reason to live. Many things have happened in my life. All the bad things that happened to me happened when i was xtian(forced by family). I was molested as a kid, teased in school and many other horrible things. But once i came to Father i got treated better and respected more.
But my dad and mom told me a story before. They said my mom was not able to get pregnant, and then supposedly one day my mom puked and a demon came out of her(i think this is bullshit) but another family member of mine related that whole thing to what i have now. what i have now is what everyone i know calls my "demonic eyebrows" they sorta point up there only half there. and according to people when i get an evil idea or trick going through my mind or I'm doing something most will call bad, people say they sorta flare up and my eyes become dark(no not the color, they just say i get a happy/evil look in my eyes).
Now back to the whole life thing. Growing up i went through allot of hard times, but i always had the feeling Father was with me even with me not knowing what satanism was. Like when i wss molested i felt him there, i could feel his sadness. an whenever i felt who the xtians call "god" there was only hatred and something bad would happen.
Even now, i get the evil feeling from him all the time. but once i get my mind focused on Father the feelings gone. Even though i dont know much about Satanism i still feel incredibly close Like hes been waiting for me and i love the feelin.
So, my questions are: Does the eybrow thing many anything? Could i have been Satanist in past life? If so, could it be possible that the dipshit above us knows tht and he was punishing me since i wasnt exactly Satanist yet and Father couldnt do anything to help? And me possibly being Satanist in past life could that be related to me being so close to Father with knowing so little? All help would be appreciated.
Hail Father Satan!