Usthepeople666 said:HP. Hoodedcobra666 said:Usthepeople666 said:...
It's nice things are working out well for the people here and I wish everyone luck here on their spiritual paths. I am done here.
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Pain of not understanding reality as it is [which is what Christians do] leads false understanding in how one relates the Gods with for example, how something might occur that one doesn't like.
Thank You.
I was told this Karma thing back then too when focusing on the sigil.
Now that I think about it, I was stronger much more whenever my succubus helped me out. I thought about a life without her and honestly I would not be able to manage myself, let alone my family members who were in this with me.
Even during the firing thing, my succubus showed a very positive image a night before the job loss and I was more consfused than ever. I remember Satan mocking one of my seniors who forced this on to me. I guess the dealing with negativity of others posts ties into this too, back when I was spamming big numbers when the incident happened I was shook but not completely destroyed by these events, I even got a new job with virtually no downtime. I honestly thought about these things and dealing with many made me feel weaker and more broken.
Leave many personal details out, I guess I have to be much more stronger now. I have been going through periods of vicious attacks on me where I lose all grounding and then there is the feeling of achieving goals with spiritual gifts.
I wrote this after spamming many Rtrs and the attacks are mostly dealing with the death of the parent, again not going into details but these force a lot in focusing only on the negatives of a situation.
I have been scared for reasons I am not sure about to visit the forums. Even was scared in typing this out. After writing this here however I was amazed at the helpful responses by Naked Pluto or you for example, completely contrary to what I had starting beleiving I am not sure why.
Your succubus appears like they are trying to help you, and the Gods too. Yet, I have explained how these things go, in life. Astral relations with the Gods aren't as easy as it may look, they require diligence and practice. The same goes for understanding our lives. We are living into the material dimension and this dimension has it's rules. Certain transits, negativity or other planets need serious work to be offset.
I think the enemy is kind of trying to prey on these difficulties to affect you negatively, or maybe you are just under a lot of stress. That's nothing to be ashamed of. Loss of your parents is normal to have seriously affected you or making you feel weak. Time will make this better. Others have also given you careful and considerate replies. I truly wish you well, take care. Better times will come.