Kramer said:
today my aunt yelled at me and crying, saying that she is tired of this life. That she abandoned everything to be with me and my younger brother. I really don't have anything to do. It's horrible to be welcomed and hear this from the person who welcomed you and you can't do anything to end this situation. It is obvious that my existence and my brother's existence only bring pain and trouble to others. Maybe we should just die? I can't even get a job to be able to take responsibility for him and even if I could I would live an unhappy life for having to forget all my dreams and just live for him. I'm really thinking it would be better if he and I died. But I'm not brave enough to do that. I'm desperate.
Look, i won't give you shit about your mental state, because I have been in it a few times in my life, last time like a month ago. I understand that feeling really well, but I also understand that if you want to live your dreams you have to keep walking forward.
If you keep walking forward, you will achive your dreams.
But you need to make a change, why don't you try looking for a job? It does not have to be your dream job. Im working for the last 2.5 years at a place that i despise, but i have grown as a person alot and learned alot of things about life in that time.
Im looking for something better now, as i became more stable in life.
I know its hard to try moving forward but when you make the first step(geting a job) you will see how things change for the better.
I wish you the best brother! Don't give up and keep going forward!