not to be reincarnated

[SiriuS666]

No matter how bitter or sweet life is. No matter what I have, I don't want to exist. I always carry the pain of existing inside me. Now I want to end my life and wait for my soul to disappear when I die.

I have read many articles about suicide and I have seen the advice you have given to other members, but I am not helpless and I see it as a choice.

Is life really for everyone? No matter what one has, doesn't one still want to die? If I am going to be reincarnated, there is no point in committing suicide. I want to disappear completely.

 

[AFODO]

Life is for everyone who is alive. You complete your mission or be a loser. The fact that you are here tells the opposite of you being helpless or worthless. If you need help specify your problem, maybe we can help you. In anyway, contact the Gods, do their rituals and ask for their help.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

No matter how bitter or sweet life is. No matter what I have, I don't want to exist. I always carry the pain of existing inside me. Now I want to end my life and wait for my soul to disappear when I die.

I have read many articles about suicide and I have seen the advice you have given to other members, but I am not helpless and I see it as a choice.

Is life really for everyone? No matter what one has, doesn't one still want to die? If I am going to be reincarnated, there is no point in committing suicide. I want to disappear completely.

Yes, life is for everyone. It is not fair or right for you to have to undergo the suffering which has resulted in your current mindset, but that doesn't define the entirety of life. Some hope is needed here, as well as understanding that we are building a more positive reality for ourselves.

Look at your Sun sign to see what makes you happy and fulfilled, and look at your Moon to see what makes you feel comfortable. Further, you should seek therapy or other treatment, as this exists to care for people who may struggle, like yourself. You are not the only one who has gone through suffering. The field of therapy exists for us to learn from those who did go through that and rebuilt themselves in spite of what they suffered in the past. Here they can show you how to move past what may hold you back.

 

[Mergethor]

Well I know from own experience how it feels like getting to a point were suicide is a viable option. But in my case it was an accident which resulted in an completely damaged body and it was a rational conclusion to exit this incarnation because the vehicle for the soul is broken and a new one could be good.

The disappearing of your soul and the stopping of your existence? Thats another level, can you please explain what leads you to such views?

And always keep in mind there is lots of interesting stuff out there which is worth existing for. Space travel, the Astral, the other side, existing in higher dimensions etc. And if you don't know you should learn what goes on there, then your non-existence stuff should be solved.

Although the others may slap me for linking such but I think this will help you when my assumption regarding your mindset is correct. Watch it!!!!!
Mod Edit: Link was to the movie "Lucy"

 

[Maelstorm]

Okay, now imagine that all these problems are gone for a moment and you are left to enjoy the beauty of life.

Wouldn't you then be really grateful to yourself for not ending your life? Believe me, you would. The tremendous pain you suffer right now and the fact that you want to get rid of it all prevents you from thinking about it. But don't you know deep down inside that all can be solved, all can be healed, every wound can be closed?

Brother, to destroy, to end, to escape, these are the easiest things. But do you want to be remembered for that? Or do you want to overcome all of it, to set your life right, to be regarded with proud eyes by Satan and the Gods? So that they can see what you have achieved and they can be proud of you. Wouldn't that be a more desirable path? Isn't it better to let your salvation be a hope for other brothers and sisters in our family who are in the same predicament?

Stand up. Do it somehow, but make sure you stand up. Hold on to something. To the beauty of the journey, not the destination. To the hope, not the torturing fears. So that in the future you can breathe, your beautiful existence lives on and you have a story to be told.

 

[Hellenic SS]

You have been ruined by christianity, which is nihilism with a fake "god". I recommend doing the following meditations and rituals. Try to introduce these to your daily routine, as they are to be done for your whole life, except for the Foundation Meditation which is for beginners and new members. Don't worry, they're short and make you feel better. Give them a try and see for yourself.

Cleaning your Aura:

Your aura is a bioelectrical field around your body which can subconsciously affect you and others around you. Our world has many sources of spritiual decay and filth, so cleaning your aura consistently is vital. Link: https://satanisgod.org/Aura_Cleaning.html

Building your Aura of Protection:

Your aura must become stronger to endure more on both the physical and the spiritual realm. Curses, negative energy, and astral attacks will bounce off you and onto the people/entities who direct them at you. Link: https://satanisgod.org/Protection.html

Foundation Meditation:

The Foundation Meditation helps with controlling your breath, learning to use simple powers of the mind, as well as absorbing energy from nature and the Sun. Link: The Breath: The Basis of Magick, Energy Manipulation, and Mind Power (satanisgod.org)

Void Meditation:

Void Meditation helps with focus, self-control, seriousness, clarity, and discipline. Link: https://satanisgod.org/Satanic_Void_Meditation.html

God/Demon Rituals:

These rituals help establish a closer connection with our Gods/Demons. There are rituals for many Gods, but there are new ones added every few months. Link: Home - JoS Rituals

 

[Recycler1337]

You need a cleansing, a strengthening of your defenses. At the very least.

I also had the same thoughts, believe me, if you will be in this state long enough, your wish will come true, no one will FORCE you to live.

But believe me, at any moment it can change to joy and desire to live, to live forever, I wish you this change as soon as possible and in time

 

[Satans Son]

Your pain of existence and wish for the dissipation of soul are the very obstacles put forth for you to overcome in order to advance.
On the karmic ladder we are not all the same.
Some are going down, some are going up, some are at the bottom, some are at the top.
No one is doing this in one lifetime around here these days.
Thoth said in the Hermetica you could be sent down two or three times .
Life's lessons have become far more complex since his words.
Takes longer now.

Yes, life is really for everyone.
And so is death.
Without death, life is meaningless.
Without life is just,
Without.

 

[Epiphany]

No matter how bitter or sweet life is. No matter what I have, I don't want to exist. I always carry the pain of existing inside me. Now I want to end my life and wait for my soul to disappear when I die.

I have read many articles about suicide and I have seen the advice you have given to other members, but I am not helpless and I see it as a choice.

Is life really for everyone? No matter what one has, doesn't one still want to die? If I am going to be reincarnated, there is no point in committing suicide. I want to disappear completely.

There is no shortage of pain in life. I know. I also know the desire to disappear all too well. But life is all there is, and whatever this is that you are experiencing, is not all that life is. Life is everything and more.

Without life you can never experience the rest of the spectrum of sensations. Whether that's the smell of rain, the mysterious sight of fog rolling in the hills in the twilight, the feeling of the sun on your skin, or the relief when an illness or anxiety or grief passes, or the sensation of expansion that comes with overcoming one's self or one's mountain, or the temporal and almost naive/innocent feeling of wellness that comes with authentic connection with another being, or the comforting dreaminess of fantasy, of potentiality.

The pure nothingness of death is difficult to describe. I believe I had a taste of it and it is not what you think it is. There is no relief here. There is no potentiality, there is no is, there is no was, could, or will be. There are no more questions, but there will never be any answers either.

It is the smallest, most vacuous nothing that there is, even a vacuum is more substantial because a vacuum is still relative to a non-vacuum, the presence of something, the very concept of something, somewhere.

To choose final death would be to sacrifice literally everything, past, present and all possible futures, all for absolute nothing. The ultimate price paid for no quantifiable reward whatsoever. Pain is gone, sure, but so is everything that is good and pleasant, forever.

Nihilism is a disease and it always leads to death. You have the power to heal yourself from it. You can alter your outlook to approach life in a saturnine/capricorn way, accepting the reality of pains and limitations in life but pushing against it and seeking to climb the rocky mountainous path ahead of you, for the sake of building something more.

Climb your mountain in search of meaning, of insight, of new experiences and new perspectives. Climb for understanding and awareness and the sake of self-overcoming.

Reach the summit so that you can empower others to reach their summits, to show them that they, too, can reach new heights no matter how low their beginnings, and to share the lessons you lived and learned along the way.

Do it out of rebellion against the decaying, entropic forces of nature. Do it to prove that you are not fate's plaything, to prove that your destiny is in your hands, that you are not your programming and that you can choose life and shape it with your own two hands and enjoy it in spite of death's efforts to claim you before your time is up.

Do it because you want to be remembered fondly, because you would want people to mourn your loss and smile at your memory, and because you don't want to leave your people behind with guilt, confusion, and regret.

You think death would be your choice, but you would not be making a rational decision so much as passively giving into pain. Choose life.

 

[SiriuS666]

I don't know why the above article was approved and the topic was not deleted, but now that I am exposed, I can write here instead of "Ask the Devil".

Destroying everything with your own hands, destroying everything and being nothing more than that, have you ever been like that?

I've been told many times that I don't deserve anything and I've always come back empty handed. When my life is so boring I lose my excitement and enthusiasm to have other things. What I'm used to now is pain and I turn to it even when everything is fine. Sometimes I enjoy the pain and sorrow inside me.

I have already lost some of my feelings and if it goes any further I will no longer be human. I don't know what it feels like to exist. Every road I see ends in darkness and this road is getting wider and wider.


But don't look at me, let those who love life enjoy it.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I don't know why the above article was approved and the topic was not deleted, but now that I am exposed, I can write here instead of "Ask the Devil".

Destroying everything with your own hands, destroying everything and being nothing more than that, have you ever been like that?

I've been told many times that I don't deserve anything and I've always come back empty handed. When my life is so boring I lose my excitement and enthusiasm to have other things. What I'm used to now is pain and I turn to it even when everything is fine. Sometimes I enjoy the pain and sorrow inside me.

I have already lost some of my feelings and if it goes any further I will no longer be human. I don't know what it feels like to exist. Every road I see ends in darkness and this road is getting wider and wider.


But don't look at me, let those who love life enjoy it.

This can be treated, especially if you are spiritually capable, but even through conventional therapy and exercise. Such pain can come either from a past life or this life.

Speaking very generally, a loss of happiness or excitement is associated with a lack of the fire element. We know that solar energies are associated with faith in one's abilities, and the energies of Jupiter are associated with optimistic outlooks about expansion or the future.

You cite being told that you don't deserve anything, plus a lack of reward. This to me indicates a solar problem. If you had internalized these ideas about yourself, then it is very normal to become depressed, as receiving a reward for our actions is one of the main methods of fulfillment in life. That is why you may believe every road ends in darkness.

All of this can be fixed and you are not the only one who has ever gone through such feelings. Please google some success stories regarding depression or other feelings you may have and see how other people have resolved this problem. It will not happen over night, but it CAN happen, and here you should allow yourself some time to try out your options.

If you are meditating or have meditated, people can suggest spiritual solutions, so please let us know your experience. However, even a beginner can chant energies related to happiness, like Wunjo, and/or breath in solar energy and program it to improve one's mood. This should be done immediately so you have some relief.

 

[xlnt]

I sense low level of bio electricity.
Try yoga asanas, breath of fire and meditation asap if have not yet, and running outside.

I run before asanas to warm up and not get stiff.

After a while you will see the light at the end of that hopeless tunnel you describe now being in.

And later on you will be in the light.
Later on be full of light.

Please try.

 

[Veles]

I don't know why the above article was approved and the topic was not deleted, but now that I am exposed, I can write here instead of "Ask the Devil".

Destroying everything with your own hands, destroying everything and being nothing more than that, have you ever been like that?

I've been told many times that I don't deserve anything and I've always come back empty handed. When my life is so boring I lose my excitement and enthusiasm to have other things. What I'm used to now is pain and I turn to it even when everything is fine. Sometimes I enjoy the pain and sorrow inside me.

I have already lost some of my feelings and if it goes any further I will no longer be human. I don't know what it feels like to exist. Every road I see ends in darkness and this road is getting wider and wider.


But don't look at me, let those who love life enjoy it.

If life is not a joy for you and you are not interested in making it so, perhaps it is still worth continuing the path of meditation, what do you lose in this case?

You don't need life anyway, so if you're going to continue to exist like this, do meditation and follow this path, in the worst case, if nothing works out, you'll only lose the time of that life that you're not happy with, but what if it works out?

Of course, you can ignore the opportunity you have now and just watch things get worse, the choice is yours. But think about it, if there is reincarnation, then each new life you will live in the same way, do you want that?

You're risking nothing if you try it now, but there's always that, so what if it works?