manic_ragdoll
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ey guys.
my name is Bekka and i am 18 years old.
i was raised xtian, even forced to attend catholic school. i went through stages where i believed but it never really stayed and i always considered myself agnostic because basic xtian ideas didn't sit right with me.
eventually i became atheist.
only in the past few years i discovered satanism and it is perfect. it idealizes all the morals i had created for myself. i've only read into levayan but i am wondering if past experiences are indicating i belong with you, more spiritual,
when i was younger i had a terrible home life and i would spend alot of time back in the woods near my house wandering around and meditating. more then once i came into contact with a figure i could not identify that i would converse with. it told me that the world was split in a raging war few were aware of, a fight between the "light" and "dark" and that the dark was finally winning. we conversed for hours and i spent as much time as i could in the woods. i forget what i called this being, but it treated me like its child and i was never frightened of it. my parents caught on to the change in me and i tried to tell them all the conversations i had, everything i learned and they were horrified. they confined me to my room, took me to shrinks, and belittled me.
i grew close to a girl my age and she started experiencing the same thing i did. we both cut and drank eachothers blood and she almost died and we fell apart and i avoided the woods.
i want it back.
my name is Bekka and i am 18 years old.
i was raised xtian, even forced to attend catholic school. i went through stages where i believed but it never really stayed and i always considered myself agnostic because basic xtian ideas didn't sit right with me.
eventually i became atheist.
only in the past few years i discovered satanism and it is perfect. it idealizes all the morals i had created for myself. i've only read into levayan but i am wondering if past experiences are indicating i belong with you, more spiritual,
when i was younger i had a terrible home life and i would spend alot of time back in the woods near my house wandering around and meditating. more then once i came into contact with a figure i could not identify that i would converse with. it told me that the world was split in a raging war few were aware of, a fight between the "light" and "dark" and that the dark was finally winning. we conversed for hours and i spent as much time as i could in the woods. i forget what i called this being, but it treated me like its child and i was never frightened of it. my parents caught on to the change in me and i tried to tell them all the conversations i had, everything i learned and they were horrified. they confined me to my room, took me to shrinks, and belittled me.
i grew close to a girl my age and she started experiencing the same thing i did. we both cut and drank eachothers blood and she almost died and we fell apart and i avoided the woods.
i want it back.