Hi! My name is Jessica and I have been reading about SS on JoS for almost a month now and, though I have not done the dedication ceremony yet(because one I have no money to get the things I need and two I have not read about it yet), I am definitly already filling the effects of our Father Enki. I have been trying to meditate, though its hard to do in a small house with 7 people and 3 dogs lol, and I feel better. I even think that he may have sent me a cat today because, my step dad has been after this thing for a week to shoot it, pissed me off when I found out, and it has been getting away from him. Then today me and my mom were driving into the parking spot after running in town and I see something under the other car and its this little bitty kitten. So I get out get it and it comes right to me. It is skin and bones so I ask my mom if I can give it a bolw of milk and then see if its one of the neighbors and she says yes. So I take it inside and give it the milk and it won't let me out of its sight. Its is sooo sweet and gentle and yet it was only that way with me. My mom went to hold it and just wanted down and away from her then my step dad( the one that's been shooting at it) came in the room and it would get real skidish and climb back in my arms so then he finishes eating and he is just laying in my arms as I take him to the neighbors that we know have cats and its none of theirs. So I just keep thinking I wish I could keep it but we can'tbecase of the dogs and my step dad. So we take it to a friend that takes in strays all the time and we sit it down and we leave. Welle we had to go up to a gas station to get some ice and then we go home. I get out and I am hearing a meow again. So I get down and the cat is climbing out of the under side of the car. It went the hole drive to the store and back and I am just thinking this is like a sign that I should keep it. But again I can't and so we take it back to our friends and we put it in a boat so it will stay and we go home. But I just can't but to feel bad because we just left it there and I had just read something last night on JoS about Father Enki sending us animals as familiars to help us out and to help protect us. I don't remember everything but could this have been from our Father Enki? Or was it just a cat that felt I would protect it and get it to a good home? I just need help with this...