I know Satanism is the path for me. I never fit into the Christian World, I never believed in their God and shit. One time in my life, under pressure, I tried to "accept God into my heart" at a camp. And well, absolutely nothing happened, and I never wanted to try something so stupid anyway, I was pressured into it by a camp counselor.
Not once did I ever enjoy church, or even try to participate. My family made me participate in things like choir and youth group; but it was always the same: no matter what, I always was an outcast, and felt vastly uncomfortable standing anywhere near a church, especially inside. I'd get dizzy and sick to my stomach as soon as I stepped into the doors. For 5th -8th grade, I was sent to a private Christian school; and again, I hated it there. I had no friends, and one day; be being young and ignorant, I asked a 'friend' what the word 'sexy' meant. And she ran to a teacher, and I got into serious trouble.
So in general, Christianity has always made me sick and uncomfortable, and I hated it. As a Satanist now, I feel much happier, much more at ease; and I know this is where I belong. But I have lagged behind in my meditation program though, I'll probably start over from day one soon to make up for what I lost. In any case, I know the Truth now, and I treasure it.
I've even spoken to my girlfriend about it, who always felt the same toward Christianity, was raised in a highly Christian household. When she came out to them as Lesbian, they started to treat her different, and judged her; she lived with her grandparents. She was never happy anymore. and they forced her to go to church even more often. One day, they were lecturing her about not following the Christian ways, tried to force Christianity on her; and she simply had enough and left. She stayed with a friend for a while, then moved into her mom's house, who follows no religion. Her mom is extremely supportive of me and her, and my precious baby girl is happy once again, I've missed her smile. She and I both dedicated to Satan right before X-mas; and we haven't regretted it.
But enough of my long ass story. XD Satanism is definitely the way for me and my girlfriend, and neither of use regret it.