DarcDeimos
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- Nov 4, 2018
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Hi, i want to start with a background about myself. As many of you, i was raised in a christian family and i also attended a catholic school, i was never fond of the christian god and his son, why? He never answers your prayers. Fastforward to a bit more than a month ago, i started getting curious about demons, if they were real, and if i could summon them. I don't want to hide the truth, my first choice was a succubus, because hormones..(you don't say.) I tried the letter method and i failed, but ever since that attemp i researched them thoroughly and i can honestly say that they are amazing! Anyways that failure made me discover about power meditations(i still can't enter a trance state) and a channel on youtube called Spiritualsnism made me discover joyofsatan. I was captivated about the real story behind satanism and father Satan, for the first time in my life i felt DRAWN to a religion, i have read almost everything on the site, I've also listened to some of the sermons! And finally, yesterday i made a commitment to lord Satan by dedicating my soul to him. I know, some people may say that it was rushed, but then again, i was never drawn by something like this, it really feels powerful! But here comes my doubt.
I live with my aunt, so i can't risk being found out, you know what people think when they hear the word satanist right? That's no good, i have to play it smart. It was raining so i couldn't go buy candles, i only had dark brown ones, but i thought that because i was putting my heart and literally my blood in the ritual, father satan wouldn't care that much about the color of the candle. During the ritual i also kneeled and i said that it was out of respect to him, when i was meditating(before closing the ritual) i felt something brushing on my cheek twice, but that was it.
I wonder, did he accept me even though the color of the candle was wrong? Or did he feel insulted?
I asked him if he could send me a guardian demon to aid me on my meditation progress and in my path, i built a homemade ouija board, i already tried to see if he was here but i got no answers, I'll try again tonight.
All that i can say now is that i have faith in father, for the first time in my life i truly belive in someone.
Apologies for the long text.
I live with my aunt, so i can't risk being found out, you know what people think when they hear the word satanist right? That's no good, i have to play it smart. It was raining so i couldn't go buy candles, i only had dark brown ones, but i thought that because i was putting my heart and literally my blood in the ritual, father satan wouldn't care that much about the color of the candle. During the ritual i also kneeled and i said that it was out of respect to him, when i was meditating(before closing the ritual) i felt something brushing on my cheek twice, but that was it.
I wonder, did he accept me even though the color of the candle was wrong? Or did he feel insulted?
I asked him if he could send me a guardian demon to aid me on my meditation progress and in my path, i built a homemade ouija board, i already tried to see if he was here but i got no answers, I'll try again tonight.
All that i can say now is that i have faith in father, for the first time in my life i truly belive in someone.
Apologies for the long text.