sskyuu1111
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Greetings everyone!
First off all I'd like to mention that I'm no satanist (for now?). Still I respect very much its teachings and follow its point of views about life. Also English is not my first language as you might've noticed! =(
If it's okay for me to post here I'd like advice about how to deal with negative intrusive (and obsessive) thoughts. Everytime I start meditating or trying to do some magick work (or even when I'm enjoying some other activity) they start popping up and I get so frustrated to the point I even hold fear of myself sometimes. I don't even mean them sometimes, they just come up.
My theory is that these "negative thoughts" are a barrier trying to stop me ("protect" me?) from becoming more powerful and with it capable of affecting reality in a negative way or w/e. Like a subconscious deep fear and lack of self-confidence.
Even if they alone have no meaningful power since my will/desire is not there I become obsessed with 'what if' kinda thoughts. Soooo frustrating it gives me headaches...
The thing is I had had some success lately with magick so since then I became so scared about myself =( (I'm also new about all this so it hit me like a truck .<)
Any advice from knowledgeable people out here?
How can I control this?
Thanks!
First off all I'd like to mention that I'm no satanist (for now?). Still I respect very much its teachings and follow its point of views about life. Also English is not my first language as you might've noticed! =(
If it's okay for me to post here I'd like advice about how to deal with negative intrusive (and obsessive) thoughts. Everytime I start meditating or trying to do some magick work (or even when I'm enjoying some other activity) they start popping up and I get so frustrated to the point I even hold fear of myself sometimes. I don't even mean them sometimes, they just come up.
My theory is that these "negative thoughts" are a barrier trying to stop me ("protect" me?) from becoming more powerful and with it capable of affecting reality in a negative way or w/e. Like a subconscious deep fear and lack of self-confidence.
Even if they alone have no meaningful power since my will/desire is not there I become obsessed with 'what if' kinda thoughts. Soooo frustrating it gives me headaches...
The thing is I had had some success lately with magick so since then I became so scared about myself =( (I'm also new about all this so it hit me like a truck .<)
Any advice from knowledgeable people out here?
How can I control this?
Thanks!