Abyssia Infernus
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Hello,
Sorry if i kinda came/joined at what may seem like a "random appearance" (for lack a better words), but anyways what im about to write below has been happening in more recent times on my end (i think this week+ much of the last week, not sure sorry). Ive been doing the more recent reverse ritual written on the main site (ritual 2, cursing 72 names of "god" i think its called, but its the latest one far as ive seen, i try to check back frequent for my own reasons), and for at least a week or two ive of course been doing it every day, only these weeks im feeling a bit different than i did when i first switched over from a older ritual to this one.
Now, just something i know i should say first... the feeling/emotion i felt that im about to speak of is very difficult for me describe perfectly, as its a mixture of a number of things in a so called "blend" thats very difficult to describe perfectly, but i will try my best as i do with everything in my life as a Satanist and what i call myself Hardcore Warrior (i call myself this because of the devotion i have towards ending this war and eliminating the carnage the enemy works towards and advocates, im to the point in meditation where i cant look at things without seeing through the shadows so to speak, one example is a crazy story i saw on crime watch daily about some critically insane lunatic who called himself a "prophet of god" and killed all of these people he knew, again this is obviously yet another work of carnage done by the enemy and im very sure the bible is used for things like this based on my many observations and research (all personal study) he claimed he was doing what all those bewildered/deceived xians call "god's will" and that was his sole excuse. Im sure we all know this whole fiasco here is yet another work of carnage by the enemy). Anyways, back on subject, the emotion im about to describe is a mixture of hatred, a feeling of pure power within myself (i feel this a lot, i have a knowing/awareness of my personal spiritual power and this feeling of pure power is something i feel in my everyday life so this on its own is common for me), and what it all felt like altogether was a mysterious kind of pleasure i felt that (during my second reverse torah ritual today) caused me to smile and make a solar hand sign+ i giggled briefly and softly as well here. After i had my so called release (but of course it was not complete nor was i fully satisfied yet) i purposefully relaxed myself and proceeded with the ritual like normal. After the ritual, i of course closed with a hail Satan as always and then i smiled and sort of glanced to the side of where i was standing (i did not turn my head, i moved my eyes in this direction), then again i smiled and giggled briefly, and then said the following towards the enemy in my mind while feeling the emotion i described above: "you can attack me and hit me all you like, but your attempts are only filling for my hatred and satisfaction. You cant win, because i wont let you. I will destroy you forever--with no chance or possibility of return. And theres nothing you can do about it."
After that, i just sat down on my bed and tuned into Father Satan, embracing and feeling my deep love and devotion towards him (i also do this very frequently, this is also common for me).
As for the enemy attacking me, its been rather rare anything has had a considerably major impact on me, the worst ones were nasty dreams that seemed very real and upon awakening of course i was very spooked, but as i always do even with the most heavy hits they get on me, i sat up and slowly got out of bed, then made my expression of what might look like both determination and confidence in a fiery look, and then i said aloud "Is that all youve got?" Of course, i was still pretty spooked deep down, but i forced it aside as best i could. Then after breathing a bit from the shock, still maintaining my hardened expression, i set aside my fear and forced my full confidence and toughness and said with that very emotion "You'll need more than bluster to defeat me! A lot more!" Of course, i went back to bed after a bit and woke up fine later on. This was the most heavy recent attack id gotten, but even this seems to have happened weeks ago from now. I focus a lot on my meditation and magic practice so i dont keep track of things like that, thus i might have the time stamp wrong there, im too busy timing my magic and meditating, plus i also attack with reverse torah rituals so its hard for me to remember exact dates with petty nightmares and so forth. Ive been doing the protection meditation for quite some time now so that also helps, aside from my strong aura+ overall energy field which of course also determines my ability to prevent psychic attacks from getting too far (if that made sense). The most recent one was a spirit sent by the enemy, which of course im getting rid of by banishment mantras + workings, its been a course of i believe 3-4 days so far and its already taking quite a toll which is good.
Im very sorry this was a seriously long message, i tried to explain everything with my satanic activity as best i could and wanted to be thorough as well, plus i kinda just joined so i also wanted to give a basic idea of how strong i am just so people know whats going on (if thats the right word).
I apologize for the inconvenience regarding my lengthy message, i did my best though ;-;
Sorry if i kinda came/joined at what may seem like a "random appearance" (for lack a better words), but anyways what im about to write below has been happening in more recent times on my end (i think this week+ much of the last week, not sure sorry). Ive been doing the more recent reverse ritual written on the main site (ritual 2, cursing 72 names of "god" i think its called, but its the latest one far as ive seen, i try to check back frequent for my own reasons), and for at least a week or two ive of course been doing it every day, only these weeks im feeling a bit different than i did when i first switched over from a older ritual to this one.
Now, just something i know i should say first... the feeling/emotion i felt that im about to speak of is very difficult for me describe perfectly, as its a mixture of a number of things in a so called "blend" thats very difficult to describe perfectly, but i will try my best as i do with everything in my life as a Satanist and what i call myself Hardcore Warrior (i call myself this because of the devotion i have towards ending this war and eliminating the carnage the enemy works towards and advocates, im to the point in meditation where i cant look at things without seeing through the shadows so to speak, one example is a crazy story i saw on crime watch daily about some critically insane lunatic who called himself a "prophet of god" and killed all of these people he knew, again this is obviously yet another work of carnage done by the enemy and im very sure the bible is used for things like this based on my many observations and research (all personal study) he claimed he was doing what all those bewildered/deceived xians call "god's will" and that was his sole excuse. Im sure we all know this whole fiasco here is yet another work of carnage by the enemy). Anyways, back on subject, the emotion im about to describe is a mixture of hatred, a feeling of pure power within myself (i feel this a lot, i have a knowing/awareness of my personal spiritual power and this feeling of pure power is something i feel in my everyday life so this on its own is common for me), and what it all felt like altogether was a mysterious kind of pleasure i felt that (during my second reverse torah ritual today) caused me to smile and make a solar hand sign+ i giggled briefly and softly as well here. After i had my so called release (but of course it was not complete nor was i fully satisfied yet) i purposefully relaxed myself and proceeded with the ritual like normal. After the ritual, i of course closed with a hail Satan as always and then i smiled and sort of glanced to the side of where i was standing (i did not turn my head, i moved my eyes in this direction), then again i smiled and giggled briefly, and then said the following towards the enemy in my mind while feeling the emotion i described above: "you can attack me and hit me all you like, but your attempts are only filling for my hatred and satisfaction. You cant win, because i wont let you. I will destroy you forever--with no chance or possibility of return. And theres nothing you can do about it."
After that, i just sat down on my bed and tuned into Father Satan, embracing and feeling my deep love and devotion towards him (i also do this very frequently, this is also common for me).
As for the enemy attacking me, its been rather rare anything has had a considerably major impact on me, the worst ones were nasty dreams that seemed very real and upon awakening of course i was very spooked, but as i always do even with the most heavy hits they get on me, i sat up and slowly got out of bed, then made my expression of what might look like both determination and confidence in a fiery look, and then i said aloud "Is that all youve got?" Of course, i was still pretty spooked deep down, but i forced it aside as best i could. Then after breathing a bit from the shock, still maintaining my hardened expression, i set aside my fear and forced my full confidence and toughness and said with that very emotion "You'll need more than bluster to defeat me! A lot more!" Of course, i went back to bed after a bit and woke up fine later on. This was the most heavy recent attack id gotten, but even this seems to have happened weeks ago from now. I focus a lot on my meditation and magic practice so i dont keep track of things like that, thus i might have the time stamp wrong there, im too busy timing my magic and meditating, plus i also attack with reverse torah rituals so its hard for me to remember exact dates with petty nightmares and so forth. Ive been doing the protection meditation for quite some time now so that also helps, aside from my strong aura+ overall energy field which of course also determines my ability to prevent psychic attacks from getting too far (if that made sense). The most recent one was a spirit sent by the enemy, which of course im getting rid of by banishment mantras + workings, its been a course of i believe 3-4 days so far and its already taking quite a toll which is good.
Im very sorry this was a seriously long message, i tried to explain everything with my satanic activity as best i could and wanted to be thorough as well, plus i kinda just joined so i also wanted to give a basic idea of how strong i am just so people know whats going on (if thats the right word).
I apologize for the inconvenience regarding my lengthy message, i did my best though ;-;
