On 6/2/10, Masquerade <
mas6que6rade6@... wrote:
Hi to all.
Listen,
we say that a Satanist should not fear anything, in fact I fear many things.
I am not able to talk to Satan or demons, I do not know other Satanists.
I do not speak a lot and almost have no friends. I have chronic depression
for a long time.
I
have social phobia and generalized anxiety disorder for the past six
years, and I ruined her life, this has deprived me of everything.
I can not live among people, I can not go to school and I left.
I mood disorders, personality disorders. Insomnia, eating disorders.
Smoke a lot. I can not do the exercises or meditations because all these
problems do not allow me to be. I do not know exactly how you feel or what
happened but you understand me if I say that I was very bad too. And I've
got all these problems yet. But a few months I started to borrow it and now
every day I try to do my best to resolve, a little by little, all of this.
I
dedicated myself to Satan just over a year ago, needless to say that I
was never able to talk to HIM or to receive concrete messages or I could
understand. So do not think He have cured me or solved my problems. But
that's okay. I chose to go forward and be optimistic. I chose to try and
groped until able to resolve this horrible situation so I can finally be
able to do the exercises well. And finally one day be able to talk to him. I
hope. What
I tell you, and that in a situation like yours you have two choices:
leave everything and eventually "kill" or continue to resist, go ahead
and eventually win.
Can not choose for you. However, I can tell you as I choose. I told myself
that although I feel worthless, even if it's all horrible, death does not
solve things. I told myself that even if everything is crap, sooner or
later, what I want and the happiness and freedom will come. Even if you
sucks all he created you, has chosen you and called you letting you know
that you must reach HIM.
Even if you sucks all he created you, has chosen you and called you letting
you know that you reach it. As
for me I have said that even if he does not help, even if I had the
biggest burdens on the shoulders of these would try anyway and with all
my strength to reach HIM before I die.I chose that death is not an option. I
chose to continue and I chose life, no matter how long it takes. Can I put a
year, two, five, ten years. The important thing is that one day I am happy
that one day I manage to speak with him. Remember we're speaking of a God,
Satan our creator. 've Also chosen not to be with my death and apologizing
to him that I present him the first time.
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And I confess that lately I can also laugh a little. What
amazes me but even with all these problems and this sucks, the only
think that nothing lasts forever and that things will change it
makes me a little happy.
Let me clarify that I am not crazy and I am not invented everything. I'm
just aware that things change and I know that someday I can make them
change.
I hope this makes you see your momentary bad luck from another point of
view. I hope you'll choose to go forward until you see a light. I hope you
choose life.
As a
last thing I would tell you that even if I never hear Satan, even if I
can not hear his voice or his presence, I think he watch me. I
do not know why he called me, I do not know who I am and I do not know
what he is doing for me or what he want me to do for him. But I want to live
and get to meet him for an answer to these questions.
It is
likely that if you do not receive clear signals or if you feel he is
far away, because obviously he knows you will succeed very well!
He sees
far ahead and if he do not acts dramatically is because he knows that you
can do very well, which means that you are stronger than you think!
So be
happy and go to a better future.
And I'm not shooting melodramatic bullshit. I could not be more serious than
this.
Good luck and dark blessings. Life is full of amazing and wonderful things.
What purpose in life is nobler than groped to reach them?
p.s. Sorry for bad English.
AVE SATANA
-TU che tutto mi hai dato, riuscirò mai io a darti tanto in cambio-
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Da: Yoyo <
kung_fukistas@...
A:
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Inviato: Mer 2 giugno 2010, 21:26:13
Oggetto: [JoyofSatan666] Re: My Last Ritual
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "DiorDior" <citymouse_alleycat@...
wrote:
I know how you feel. Many of us have gone through (or are going through)
what you are feeling.
When I was younger, I was diagnosed with depression. I did a lot of stupid
things to end my life. Obviously, they did not work. There were also many
OTHER times in which I did not WISH to die, but almost did because of drug
overdoses. There is a reason for this, although I did not know it at the
time.
Father chose me, He made me, He wanted me to have the chance to come to
Him, to know Him, to have a relationship with Him, and to serve Him in
different ways, including being a part of His army.
He has a purpose for me. I've yet to find it out, but I know I will soon.
Don't you think it might be the same for you? Don't you know HE LOVES YOU?
Let's say you were successful in taking/ending your own life. Likely you
will meet Father. And what will you say to Him?
"Sorry, it got too tough to handle, I had to back out, I can't take
it?"!!!!
We are Father's SOLDIERS and WARRIORS. He is coming to walk among us soon.
He needs EVERYONE of us, INCLUDING YOU.
Listen, FATHER SATAN MADE YOU FOR A REASON. He MADE YOU. He formed you,
and chose you to follow Him. HE CHOSE YOU. And in the end, He let you
choose for yourself. You chose Him. Do you regret choosing Him? I hope
not.
We feel closer to Father when we pray to Him, when we do rituals.
Sometimes, school, work, and for those of us who have to run a household
and family... these take up time. When we don't talk to Father, or to our
GDs, we feel alone. Even five minutes during the day, when you have time
to yourself (we all do) helps us, and reminds us of what and who is
important.
You say that angels are attacking you. Have you done the protective
meditations, have you cleaned your auras and chakras, and removed any
etheric cords and foreign entities in your aura?
Please take the time to do this, preferably twice a day, in the morning
and before you go to bed.
Fuck the xtians, the muslims, the jews. Empower yourself. Don't waste your
thoughts on them, they are worthless. Think of empowering YOURSELF, and
making yourself strong.
Your brothers and sisters are HERE. If I may speak as thus, I am glad that
you reached out to us. We are here to help you.
Your powers never left you. They are YOUR powers, YOUR personal magick,
and NO ONE AND NOTHING can take them away from you. If anything or anyone
tells you that, THEY ARE LYING.
Like a muscle, we have to exercise our psychic awareness, our magick, our
mind and spiritual strength. We have to do this or they get lazy and seem
dormant. Get back in the habit of doing this everyday, a little at a time.
You say your powers were halfed? Use them. I know that if I don't use my
powers, and clean my auras and remove etheric cords from my bodies, I feel
the crap accumulated from people, places, and emotions from them in my
aura and bodies.
Don't feel sorry that you don't have a girlfriend. When the right girl
comes along, she will. Work on empowering yourself.
You are stronger then you think.
You are worth more then you know.
Prove it, to yourself. Right now.
Hail Satan!
Hail Andromalius!
Hail the True Gods!
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking
wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing
power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand
myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are
fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think
thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i
don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search
for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had
not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is
leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i
always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can
barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the
same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy
more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura
is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign
of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and
disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for
me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final
Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
I know.I got a purpose.I will fight on.
But guys this is the major doubt the has crippled my mind.And i wanna share
it with you...
I am in constant fear.The enemy has made me confused.I would like to clear
this up.
If Satan does come to earth,wouldn't that fullfill the prophecies of the
rotten messiah jesus fucking christ?
And if they are fullfilled,they will manifest,and we might lose another
celestial battle...What the fuck?
I want to be clear and just with our Father Satan.I won't try to be a hidden
traitor.
Seems like their prophecies are fullfilling.But,this is because of their
rotten energy.What are we going to do if these fucktards fullfill their
prophecies...
About the mark of the beast and such.We need to fight back.
I know that we are not anti-christians,but true Satanists,but i do know that
i have to ask my questions,or else i am under the snares of the enemy. ( I
am lied to)
I am not so advanced to speak with Satan.
I would like someone to ask him.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
