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I want to share something with you that is deeply inside me despite the fact that I was never lead to believe in xian bulshit by my family. We are atheists, although my grandma was a bit xian, she for sure said her prayers from time to time.
I want to share with you the fact, that despite all the interesting, overwhelming facts I came across while browsing through JoS website, this group and the e-forum, I am scared as fuck that if I dedicate my soul, I will burn in hell or something terrible will happen to me or something will get a control over me.
I don't know where this fear comes from and I have no idea how to fight it.... there is a just little voice somewhere in my mind that keep saying "this spiritual satanism seems to be too good to be true, what if it's just another jewish trick to bring a misery into your life???"
My fear is holding me back and I understand that this is the decision I have to made by myself.... I am just reluctant.
I want to share with you the fact, that despite all the interesting, overwhelming facts I came across while browsing through JoS website, this group and the e-forum, I am scared as fuck that if I dedicate my soul, I will burn in hell or something terrible will happen to me or something will get a control over me.
I don't know where this fear comes from and I have no idea how to fight it.... there is a just little voice somewhere in my mind that keep saying "this spiritual satanism seems to be too good to be true, what if it's just another jewish trick to bring a misery into your life???"
My fear is holding me back and I understand that this is the decision I have to made by myself.... I am just reluctant.