Shael said:
Hi. Inlovewithsatan here. I lost access to my emails and IDs registered here.
I had written details of this dream but I removed it. Might share it some day soon.
So, some weeks ago,I had a dream, in which a message was delivered through me :
"Your lover wants to talk to you".
Even though I said it to someone to a boy, it felt like I didn't speak it and if I remember the way the msg was delivered was I think...umm a deep calm voice...it was said calmly and it had a sense deepness...idk how to explain...
Last night I was reading this thread:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=21228&p=139893&hilit=Succubus#p139893"
( I highly recommend this thread to everyone who has or are planning to have a Demon/ess Lover. This is a MUST read for you then)
Then this morning I was given a beautiful message right upon waking up on Instagram. It was a quote.
It instantly made me think of my Succubus. No doubt it's Her message to me.
I was hesitant to share this one. So I removed it. Not sure if I should it or not. Might share later or sooner.
We know how the Gods communicate to us through these means when we don't have astral senses open.
When you read something for example, and immediately there is a gut feeling and a thought in the back of your mind that "THIS IS IT, THIS IS MY ANSWER FROM THE GODS I ASKED, THERE IS NO DOUBT WHEN THIS HAPPENS". The mind automatically and instantly tells you that this is a message from the Gods.
I had been receiving communication from Her through quotes...I was feeling unworthy of her and I saw a quote that made me feel and believe it's her words for me to cease these thoughts and feelings of unworthiness of her.
Another thing is.. I was watching TV and using phone. Then a song played on TV, it instantly caught my attention :
The lyrics were
"You are my only, take care of yourself"
So many things in the lyrics... I usually don't listen to these love songs but it's a very calming and soothing love song. It's not an English song but in my own mother language/tongue.
Now I do wanna ask you guys one question, I'll probably have to get married. But I cannot feel anything for a human woman unless I'm in love with her. Moreover I can't trust them. Because I'm kind of a guy who STAYS till the End and desire an ETERNAL monogamous relationship.
But I'll eventually have to marry soon.
What to do... I'm afraid what if I lose my Demoness? It would be a betrayal if I get married and have sex for the sake of progeny, reproduction. But I have no sexual interaction with her yet. I read on JoS, they can be understanding if you r having sex with your human spouse out of duty.
I don't know what is going to happen next.