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[Nimhrys]

Hello,

I haven't been here for a while because I was lost. I wanted to write this post just to vent somewhere, because recently I have lost trust even in my closest friends.

I dedicated myself in 2020 when I was 15 years old. I didn't understand many things then, the seriousness of dedication, I considered almost everything I read to be true. I meditated, opened my chakras, but then after about a year suddenly I stopped. I started to move away from Satanism, I focused on the wrong side of spirituality and I lived too much in my fantasy world. Since I was a child I wanted something more, when I found Satanism I was happy, for the first time in a long time. Then i found shifting, starting watching too much tiktoks and neglected the practice. And then I started to have no strength for anything, I just wanted to lie down and do nothing, or just fall asleep. Sometime last week. I deleted tiktok, limited social media and did what I had been thinking about for a long time. I started reading pdf about Spiritual Satanism again. The more I read, the more I remembered why I dedicated myself, even though I had my doubts at first.
Nevertheless, during that time off, i learned a lot about myself, reading between the lines and not trusting everything, just thinking in my own way.

Now I want to start meditating again and I know that instead of trying to rely on my friends I should turn then to Father Satan for help.
I just have doubts as to what Satan thinks about it...
I just feel like I let myself down too.

Thanks for reading.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Hello

A lot of new members leave for a while, and then come back in full seriousness. The Gods understand, we are not raised on this path so it can take an adjustment to become more dedicated. Our Gods are very wise and knowledgeable of how we are.

You made the right move in decreasing social media. Just spend some time reading the JoS as you mentioned you are, read any posts you feel drawn to in these forums, and meditate on Satan's sigil. I find this helps to give inner strength and guidance.

Best wishes for your journey of advancement

 

[Henu the Great]

Welcome. There are many resources for beginners in the forum signatures above and below this post.

 

[Xerath666]

Hello,

I haven't been here for a while because I was lost. I wanted to write this post just to vent somewhere, because recently I have lost trust even in my closest friends.

I dedicated myself in 2020 when I was 15 years old. I didn't understand many things then, the seriousness of dedication, I considered almost everything I read to be true. I meditated, opened my chakras, but then after about a year suddenly I stopped. I started to move away from Satanism, I focused on the wrong side of spirituality and I lived too much in my fantasy world. Since I was a child I wanted something more, when I found Satanism I was happy, for the first time in a long time. Then i found shifting, starting watching too much tiktoks and neglected the practice. And then I started to have no strength for anything, I just wanted to lie down and do nothing, or just fall asleep. Sometime last week. I deleted tiktok, limited social media and did what I had been thinking about for a long time. I started reading pdf about Spiritual Satanism again. The more I read, the more I remembered why I dedicated myself, even though I had my doubts at first.
Nevertheless, during that time off, i learned a lot about myself, reading between the lines and not trusting everything, just thinking in my own way.

Now I want to start meditating again and I know that instead of trying to rely on my friends I should turn then to Father Satan for help.
I just have doubts as to what Satan thinks about it...
I just feel like I let myself down too.

Thanks for reading.

Since I dedicated myself 2 and a half years ago I started meditating every day, I only stopped for a short period because I had literally fried myself with meditations that were too advanced.
But slowly, by rebalancing my routine, I started again and from there I never stopped. I noticed how lazy I was in the beginning, and it was hard to overcome that and be consistent.

The environment we come from is also an important factor to consider, friendships, most of the time useless, which waste our time and bring nothing constructive. By remaining firm on the path, the dry branches will cut themselves, at least that's what happened to me.

It is understandable that as soon as you start practicing meditation you believe that it is not having an effect or that you are doing something wrong, so that you give up before you begin to understand.

Walking away is a mistake that penalizes you a lot, but it helped you to have greater awareness, and now you are here again and that's what's important, it's part of your journey.

Imagine that there are people who need to waste more and more lives before they understand that smoking is bad for you and it's time to stop.

In conclusion, I define meditation as the only way to "hear" the truth, the only way is to practice it consistently at a level that suits you to understand what I mean here.

 

[Ĥl·lĥæ]

Just go back to meditating; there's no secret.
Create a fixed meditation routine based on your free time.

 

[Nimhrys]

Thank you all. I meditated on the sigil of Satan today in my spot in the meadow and a few ravens surrounded me in the air, making a circle and then flying away, I am so grateful.