As satanists we take a head on dive into the battle of life. We enter into a world of chaos in search of something greater than ourselves, and the ultimate pursuit of knowledge and truth. Self-knowledge and purification being the highest form of achievement a person can go to, all while continuing a life far removed from where it should be and how the Gods intend our planet to be. Educating ourselves every day on not just ideals but how to fill in a proper role as a Satanist here. It’s filled with not only mental chaos but physical chaos, and we grab a hold of this life and choose to live it despite any resistance. At times it’s one step forward two steps back, hell, even most of the time.
A person can choose to do this in any way they would like, but all true satanists have courage whether they wear it on their sleeve for the world to see or keep it inside and carry on in silence. A person can do this without isolating themselves from the outside world just as healthily as staying in the shadows. Even in places where the sun doesn’t shine much, there’s still something this world has to offer us and we can find our place in it. We are all interconnected in this war through consciousness whether we like it or not, and I’ve found that isolation for me doesn’t make a single bit of a difference. I don’t think any of us should be afraid of growing up and having friends and a career, it’s not a risk to your satanic values if you’re a real Satanist. We’re capable of understandings that the Gods carry and they work with people every day in any way they can, even if some they’re helping are not their personal favorites or friends or really much to them. I personally care heavily about other people, near or distant and I have to find ways to express that fully. Whether it be helping someone cross a street or being a shoulder to cry on. Or calling on child or animal abuse whenever I recognize it. Or planning something that could prevent suffering for a large number of people.
This road has been packed with a lot of humbling experiences and roadblocks but there really isn’t a single thing that can’t be worked past, and a part of living is the fight that comes with it.
After this last year of going to places in my mind I never imagined I’d reach or see, taking meditation to a level I didn’t realize I was capable of, the results have been worth every second. It took time (years) of perseverance, trust, and living in order to gather the rest of what I needed to safely reach these places - there are physical results that are undeniable.
I had been dealing with a condition that would’ve likely resulted in death eventually, not odds I wanted to gamble on, and it was inescapable for the most part. It was not leveling out and I was in a place where I truly thought this was just going to be a fate to accept and I even reached a certain point of acceptance of it. Facing that though gave me this immense push forward and a fearlessness that I needed. The condition has now leveled out entirely and has seemingly dissipated after just a year. Something unheard of coming from where it was. I made no dietary changes or changes to exercise aside from yoga. I had tried every diet before then. My actual tests are actually normal, I broke down when I got that test back recently. Pure happiness.
I dealt with extreme ocd and it was debilitating for years, since a year after my dedication. My mind was filled with total chaos and repetitive thoughts, sometimes spiritual. Mantras repeating through my head 24/7, but also filled with other strange abilities that set it apart from regular ocd like this obsessive urge to do math in my head. Sometimes equations would obsessively run through my head at lightning speed and it was total misery. I’d sometimes even be able to do calculus that I’d never been taught and I’d get the answers right, but it was utterly miserable. I obsessively wrote out pages of natural laws that I’d observed, only to find out they were Newton’s laws and were already there. That was kind of fun but strange. Overall it was miserable though. There was this obsessive urge to know everything in existence and it was just some weird thing my mind had to do and the more I tried to control it, it sank me under. So through years of just practicing letting go of all of this despite how tough it was it got to a bearable point, but was still there. I still counted out stupid pointless things, and had trouble settling thoughts down.
This is completely gone now. All of it. Every obsessive anxious thought I had, gone. My mind is no longer like a broken record in any way shape or form for the first time in 13 years. There’s now a mental clarity and peace constantly. And any second I’m not busy, like driving or listening to music, it’s even more peaceful. Everything just seems so alive.
I don’t feel insecure anymore and I understand all different parts of myself in a way that flows perfectly together. Life just makes sense now. All of that mental chaos and so many questions are just gone. I don’t even have any questions anymore, hardly ever even for the Gods. I use to ask them so many questions, just in passing. I received an answer for every single one of them and even when I didn’t realize it.
In short the most amazing thing is that I’m no longer looking at having a liver transplant in 5-7 years and that’s really something. That alone makes every bit of this path worth it. We have so much to live for.
On top of that my financial situation just improved greatly, on top of a massive work improvement right on Ostara. Perfect timing. We get to have it all as satanists, even through the wildest of storms, we get to come out on top. We don’t have to be sunken under, as long as we can understand patience perseverance and will. We truly CAN have it all. Wealth, health, family, passions, careers, and happiness. We can have it all in this life if we have the will to do so and make sacrifices for it. We don’t have to live in misery.
Life is really good and it’s always a blessing to be living this life, especially in the hands of the Gods. We can come out of anything. As long as we always want to improve. Others can’t say the same.
Hail Satan and Happy Ostara! I hope everyone has a fulfilling holiday.
A person can choose to do this in any way they would like, but all true satanists have courage whether they wear it on their sleeve for the world to see or keep it inside and carry on in silence. A person can do this without isolating themselves from the outside world just as healthily as staying in the shadows. Even in places where the sun doesn’t shine much, there’s still something this world has to offer us and we can find our place in it. We are all interconnected in this war through consciousness whether we like it or not, and I’ve found that isolation for me doesn’t make a single bit of a difference. I don’t think any of us should be afraid of growing up and having friends and a career, it’s not a risk to your satanic values if you’re a real Satanist. We’re capable of understandings that the Gods carry and they work with people every day in any way they can, even if some they’re helping are not their personal favorites or friends or really much to them. I personally care heavily about other people, near or distant and I have to find ways to express that fully. Whether it be helping someone cross a street or being a shoulder to cry on. Or calling on child or animal abuse whenever I recognize it. Or planning something that could prevent suffering for a large number of people.
This road has been packed with a lot of humbling experiences and roadblocks but there really isn’t a single thing that can’t be worked past, and a part of living is the fight that comes with it.
After this last year of going to places in my mind I never imagined I’d reach or see, taking meditation to a level I didn’t realize I was capable of, the results have been worth every second. It took time (years) of perseverance, trust, and living in order to gather the rest of what I needed to safely reach these places - there are physical results that are undeniable.
I had been dealing with a condition that would’ve likely resulted in death eventually, not odds I wanted to gamble on, and it was inescapable for the most part. It was not leveling out and I was in a place where I truly thought this was just going to be a fate to accept and I even reached a certain point of acceptance of it. Facing that though gave me this immense push forward and a fearlessness that I needed. The condition has now leveled out entirely and has seemingly dissipated after just a year. Something unheard of coming from where it was. I made no dietary changes or changes to exercise aside from yoga. I had tried every diet before then. My actual tests are actually normal, I broke down when I got that test back recently. Pure happiness.
I dealt with extreme ocd and it was debilitating for years, since a year after my dedication. My mind was filled with total chaos and repetitive thoughts, sometimes spiritual. Mantras repeating through my head 24/7, but also filled with other strange abilities that set it apart from regular ocd like this obsessive urge to do math in my head. Sometimes equations would obsessively run through my head at lightning speed and it was total misery. I’d sometimes even be able to do calculus that I’d never been taught and I’d get the answers right, but it was utterly miserable. I obsessively wrote out pages of natural laws that I’d observed, only to find out they were Newton’s laws and were already there. That was kind of fun but strange. Overall it was miserable though. There was this obsessive urge to know everything in existence and it was just some weird thing my mind had to do and the more I tried to control it, it sank me under. So through years of just practicing letting go of all of this despite how tough it was it got to a bearable point, but was still there. I still counted out stupid pointless things, and had trouble settling thoughts down.
This is completely gone now. All of it. Every obsessive anxious thought I had, gone. My mind is no longer like a broken record in any way shape or form for the first time in 13 years. There’s now a mental clarity and peace constantly. And any second I’m not busy, like driving or listening to music, it’s even more peaceful. Everything just seems so alive.
I don’t feel insecure anymore and I understand all different parts of myself in a way that flows perfectly together. Life just makes sense now. All of that mental chaos and so many questions are just gone. I don’t even have any questions anymore, hardly ever even for the Gods. I use to ask them so many questions, just in passing. I received an answer for every single one of them and even when I didn’t realize it.
In short the most amazing thing is that I’m no longer looking at having a liver transplant in 5-7 years and that’s really something. That alone makes every bit of this path worth it. We have so much to live for.
On top of that my financial situation just improved greatly, on top of a massive work improvement right on Ostara. Perfect timing. We get to have it all as satanists, even through the wildest of storms, we get to come out on top. We don’t have to be sunken under, as long as we can understand patience perseverance and will. We truly CAN have it all. Wealth, health, family, passions, careers, and happiness. We can have it all in this life if we have the will to do so and make sacrifices for it. We don’t have to live in misery.
Life is really good and it’s always a blessing to be living this life, especially in the hands of the Gods. We can come out of anything. As long as we always want to improve. Others can’t say the same.
Hail Satan and Happy Ostara! I hope everyone has a fulfilling holiday.
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