kieithnightmare0
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I've just suddenly lost all will to live.. i feel like i haven't gotten anywhere since the first day i dedicated if it was even valid/accepted) i even build an aura of protection 3 times a day!! 108 with a Satanic rosary and everything.. the deflection working,the most recent on in the sermon, and one where i just inhale white gold energy and affirm "I am breathing powerful protective energy and affirm "I am breathing in powerful protective energy...etc and i still feel this way. Its a reoccurring pattern where when i feel like i'm actually getting somewhere spiritually, something happens and then i'm back to square 1 over and over again!!
I have no one to talk to (no friends at all), I feel like I can't go to Satan or the Gods for help, as i know i wont receive any help (I've tried in the past.. also i don't want to bother them with my problems cause i know they're very busy. i feel like i can't even meditate on Satan's sigil cause i feel like i would be bothering him somehow) but i'm just completely lost now. My life is so damn empty and i just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so worthless in every aspect..i'm just a nobody with no special talent or strength.. I don't even know what i want to do in life or how to even set goals!! I'm a mess and its all leading me to self-loath
Sorry i just need to vent right now...
Can anyone give me some advice? I know the consequences of suicide, and its highly unlikely i'll do anything for the time being, but i just really want to feel better about everything and see what i can possibly do to improve my situation..
on a different note, i also want to know what else can be done to help with Spiritual warfare other than yahoo answers (getting banned and i don't even know if i'm reaching people there) I would send energy to Satan more often but i don't even know if its even accepted most of the time. I also put tracts in places, but i rarely leave the house.
I have no one to talk to (no friends at all), I feel like I can't go to Satan or the Gods for help, as i know i wont receive any help (I've tried in the past.. also i don't want to bother them with my problems cause i know they're very busy. i feel like i can't even meditate on Satan's sigil cause i feel like i would be bothering him somehow) but i'm just completely lost now. My life is so damn empty and i just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so worthless in every aspect..i'm just a nobody with no special talent or strength.. I don't even know what i want to do in life or how to even set goals!! I'm a mess and its all leading me to self-loath
Sorry i just need to vent right now...
Can anyone give me some advice? I know the consequences of suicide, and its highly unlikely i'll do anything for the time being, but i just really want to feel better about everything and see what i can possibly do to improve my situation..
on a different note, i also want to know what else can be done to help with Spiritual warfare other than yahoo answers (getting banned and i don't even know if i'm reaching people there) I would send energy to Satan more often but i don't even know if its even accepted most of the time. I also put tracts in places, but i rarely leave the house.