On 8/19/09, chalchiuhnenetzin <
jaguarcat2002@... wrote:
I hesitated to post this because, not only is it somewhat private, I don't
like to give the unintended impression that I'm setting myself `above' my
brothers and sisters in Satan, and therefore inadvertently causing problems,
especially to newbies and the newly dedicated, where someone might think
either, "I'll never be able to do that!" or, conversely, "That's nothing;
look what I did!", and so starts an unprofitable pissing contest ...
ALL credit ultimately belongs to Satan in the final analysis, no matter
what.
Anyway, this `bio' is illustrative of the fact that Satan chooses his
people, sometimes a long time before they even have an inkling that they
have been selected to become of His Own.
This barely scratches the surface, but here's an abbreviated version:
First, I didn't initiate contact with the Gods (at least not consciously);
it was the other way around and the story began about 33 years ago.
Sometime after midnight on what, in retrospect, was one of the most pivotal
days in my life, I drove to the countryside, deliberately seeking aloneness
and the quiet of what passed for `wilderness' which was accessible by car. I
had just purchased an ouija board and brought it with me. As it turned out,
that was only time I successfully used a planchette; after that I used a
pendulum, but I digress. On a deserted road I pulled over, shut off the car,
rolled down the window so I could hear the night sounds and began to
meditate, for want of a better word. (This was 1976 and the word "meditate"
still conjured visions of unwashed hippies!)
Before long I felt a strong presence. I was definitely not alone and had, in
fact, felt that presence briefly at work earlier. I have had so-called
`supernatural' experiences since I was a small child, so to me none of this
was frightening, but I sensed it was important. I put the ouija board on my
lap, not knowing what would happen, but in a few moments, something did. At
first I thought it was "me" speaking, i.e., my own sub-conscious mind
bubbling forth and asked if that were true. "No", the planchette pointed out
rather forcefully. "I am Xanthippe. You would know me as a demon." (I
believe those were the exact words.) The word `demon' can strike terror into
a xtian, but I was already well past that, and he obviously knew it.
Remember, at that time, the demons were still bound at the soul level by
their more numerous enemies, but that is not to say they were entirely
helpless. (Of course back then we didn't even know anything about this!) My
experiences over the next three decades cause me to think of this binding
more in terms of "restraint" but because I'm a writer and editor it may be
just semantics. Xanthippe spoke to me occasionally, but not often, over the
years as I found myself embroiled, not only in a personal morass of many
layers, but also dealing with alien greys and other hostiles.
Fast forward to about a year after my formal dedication to Satan in November
of 2004 when the demon Xanthippe begin seriously counseling and guiding me.
The Gods were now free and the enemy be damned! One night, just under a year
after that, I realized he had not come alone. There was another God present
as well, this one powerful beyond words. It almost felt like the very walls
were vibrating! It was the Anubis. (I had been in communication with Aztec
and Assyrian gods at various times during the 1980's, and early 90's and
they `blew me away' so to speak, but the power of Anubis made that seem like
a gentle breeze compared to a hurricane, but not with the danger or fear
accompanying a hurricane.)
That was the turning point. It was time for Anubis to `take over' my
training, instruction, and guidance. Xanthippe serves under him. He still
says `hello' occasionally but his job, as it relates to me, is basically
over.
Anubis is extremely patient with me, firm when necessary, likes to tease a
little and has a wonderful, childlike (not childish!) sense of humor, and
even when firm, is always kind. I have also been privileged to speak with
Satan himself as well.
As for tips on contacting a guardian demon, I can only say that perhaps one
may have better success by not picking a name from a list, so to speak, but
instead focus on "a" guardian demon coming forward, as more or less happened
with me.
Also, if you aren't familiar with the demon's name, don't despair. I had no
idea who Xanthippe was; I'd never heard the name before but I knew he spoke
truth. That's because there are hundreds of thousands of "lesser" gods
serving under higher-ranked gods. Look at the lists of the top-echelon gods
on the JoS site and you will see that "X is in charge of (insert number)
legions of demons".
I know I harp on this a lot, but it always bears repeating: always, always,
always, without fail, do your protection exercises before attempting such
contact – do them as part of your routine anyway, whether or not you're
trying to contact a demon. That way, it is unlikely an impostor or angel
will gain a foothold. If Xanthippe, for instance, was not the "real deal",
he wouldn't have had the audacity to appear AFTER I had been dedicated for
nearly a year! And even less so in the company of Anubis.
People have a tendency to "pick" from the list, I think, because they are
more familiar with the god names that are household words. That is not
wrong; all I'm saying is that we need to be open ...
On the other side of that coin, however, is the fact that we are often
attracted, for reasons we can't always articulate, to a certain God. In that
case, definitely pursue that attraction and if it is incorrect, I'm sure you
will be told and perhaps even pointed in the `right' direction.
I hope this helps and encourages ...
--- In
[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Allison P <apocalypseofjon@... wrote:
Okay, I gotta ask...any tips you could give me on finding my guardian?
How did you find yours, if I may ask? I'm leaning toward either Lady
Astaroth or Lord Thoth at the moment. So, should I just forget about
it and concentrate on empowering myself? I have received no overt
signs, but I feel very connected to the Lady Astaroth, and just
recently, to Thoth, so...I don't know. Advice would be most
appreciated!
On 8/19/09, chalchiuhnenetzin <jaguarcat2002@... wrote:
I have to echo Allison's post. Don't give up.
I've been doing this for years and I still have 'dry spells' and they're
very, very discouraging. Also, although I do just fine in some areas,
others
require considerable growth, which can seem very slow in coming. All you
can
do is keep going. Often it is at the time when you wonder if anything
will
happen that shortly afterward something does.
Don't try to do everything at once though or you spread yourself too
thin.
Concentrate on your meditations as job 1 and possibly connecting with
your
guardian demon. If that contact is made, you will be able to get some
personalized advice especially geared to you and your individual
situation.
--- In
[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Allison P <apocalypseofjon@
wrote:
Do not give up! I'd say, just keep doing what you're doing. We all
develop at different stages, some just take longer than others to
spiritually advance. Do not worry about it. Your powers shall manifest
in their own way and at their own speed.
On 8/18/09, toto_emenefus_tribal <toto_emenefus_tribal@ wrote:
I don't really know how to begin, but I will say that the reason I'm
posting
right now is because I really need help...
I dedicated to Spiritual Satanism a little bit over a year ago, and
since
then I've tried many things, many kinds of meditations...but so far,
I'm
not
getting any results.
I've tried so many things, from void meditation to opening chakra's
and
I
just can't seem to find any results...I don't know if there's
something
wrong with me, but yesterday I had this sudden realisation that I
wasn't
going anywhere, and I'm beginning to lose hope...
I don't know what I should be doing, I've even tried summoning demons
but...I've never seen one, the only explanation I can think of is
that
I'm
not psychically open enough to see or hear them, but that's just the
issue
I'm having...it's the fact that I'm not psychically open enough that
I
want
to communicate with them, so I can learn how to be...
Nothing seems to be working for me, I don't know what else to say.
I am in desperate need of help, I dedicated to father Enki because I
was
serious about spiritually advancing and becoming a god, but I don't
know
how
to go about it anymore.
So I'm asking someone, please help me.
