666darkness
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i dont know if this is a coincidence but whenever i sleep at my grandparents house in my room i can do void meditation better i can see my blue friends or whatever they are... they are blue humanoid looking and they make me feel good because this place feels like ultimate paradise. i call them blue friends because i dont know what i can call them. but in my room at my home there was always a quran at the wall and i never took it down til this day. i tried making a satanic ritual once in my room but i didnt think about the quran that time for a long time i didnt even notice this quran it was always in my room since my childhood. why did my parents put it there? when i look at the quran i feel scared not loved... maybe because i have sinned many times in my past when it comes to sexuality and lust...
but the quran says allah is ready to forgive anytime so what is it truly that is making me feel like this when i look at the quran... regret? why is it that when i do void meditation at my home i tend to not see my blue friends...? i thought when i do void meditation i enter a new world because i see a portal i see the circles and i see how i enter it and then i see the blue friends but why not in my room? maybe i did a few times and havent noticed it but still i just wanna ask here if the quran could actually be the reason i cant be free? because i tried making a satanic ritual once in my room a satanic ritual actually from the joy of satan and i bought candles and i put a lot of effort... i even cut off a flower and that hurt a lot so i expected to atleast see the demon or feel the presence when i make the ritual but i havent seen the demon or felt the demon.
all i felt was like a complete idiot... i havent done the blood signing ritual yet maybe that can be also a reason? im just scared of signing my blood that idea seems like there will be no go back to my old self.. i dont know if i wanna do that? should i? if i sign my blood my soul will still stay mine and i will be free and not dependent on satan right? but who was i before this lifetime? is this my first time on earth? did i incarnate to this world just like this? didnt i think about signing demons that protect me or demons that i can see when i feel lonely or feel sad? because at my grandparents house when i really felt down they showed up in void meditation and they made me really smile and feel good they gave me kisses. who are they...? i wanna see them more often. however in a very dark time at my own home when my room was completely dark and i felt like total shit and lonely there was nothing but darkness i already quit weed as i have a feeling weed is attacking my spirituality or my third eye.
i wanna respectfully put the quran away from my room now and im gonna do it just to experiment and see what changed the next days. but im scared maybe the quran protects me from evil spirits? or maybe the quran doesnt do anything at all and im just a mood changing diverse idiot that talks too much. i dont know. lately i havent even been trying to meditate or focus my ajna chakra.
most people will propably say yes the quran is fault but i need more than that... i need a whole honest explanation what is going on because im at a lonely place right now and this will be my last post for a while as i think i need to improve spiritually again and i see it as an important factor to quit contact to humans for a while so i can focus more on myself and maybe even spiritual satanism but without the influence of others. thanks for reading. hope you can help.
also i respect the quran and satan but i really wanna put myself not over any god i dont wanna put myself over anyone because i believe that everybody should be equal. but when i get submissive and let the gods influence me am i not automatically putting them over me by giving them attention? so thats why i think its wrong to believe in other religions besides the one in my heart which feels like the true religion to believe in myself only... it feels the realest. what if im already enlightened? who says i incarnated to this world to learn and be better and better? who says that im here because of that? maybe i used to/am a god that incarnated to this world to save it because it has been my dream since my childhood to save it but i hate getting into details when it comes to my dreams i even hate just mentionining them to others but i have to because it feels like it would make this post complete. atleast im anonymous here...
thanks for reading. i hope you can help me. yes i know you already said it before... everything is here on the forum but im too dumb to find it so you can link it to me. now its time for me to improve so i can see the universe more positive because i wanna heal the universe and planet earth. lets together save the world because i know you all are humans just like me so we need to work hard against all the odds. thank you everyone for doing what you are doing and thanks to hoodedcobra666 for being such a hardworker... very inspirational people here... i learned a lot from you guys and you are true humans to me that reached enlightenment because if i would insult you you wouldnt wanna kill me you would not even let it get to you and you would propably also not hate me because of it and that is what i call true enlightenment!
thank you friends but now its time for me to focus and avoid human contact for a while but i will read the responses for this post but propably not answer them but i already thank you all !!! ♥
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WaMP7a17OsY&t
its time to save the planet.
but the quran says allah is ready to forgive anytime so what is it truly that is making me feel like this when i look at the quran... regret? why is it that when i do void meditation at my home i tend to not see my blue friends...? i thought when i do void meditation i enter a new world because i see a portal i see the circles and i see how i enter it and then i see the blue friends but why not in my room? maybe i did a few times and havent noticed it but still i just wanna ask here if the quran could actually be the reason i cant be free? because i tried making a satanic ritual once in my room a satanic ritual actually from the joy of satan and i bought candles and i put a lot of effort... i even cut off a flower and that hurt a lot so i expected to atleast see the demon or feel the presence when i make the ritual but i havent seen the demon or felt the demon.
all i felt was like a complete idiot... i havent done the blood signing ritual yet maybe that can be also a reason? im just scared of signing my blood that idea seems like there will be no go back to my old self.. i dont know if i wanna do that? should i? if i sign my blood my soul will still stay mine and i will be free and not dependent on satan right? but who was i before this lifetime? is this my first time on earth? did i incarnate to this world just like this? didnt i think about signing demons that protect me or demons that i can see when i feel lonely or feel sad? because at my grandparents house when i really felt down they showed up in void meditation and they made me really smile and feel good they gave me kisses. who are they...? i wanna see them more often. however in a very dark time at my own home when my room was completely dark and i felt like total shit and lonely there was nothing but darkness i already quit weed as i have a feeling weed is attacking my spirituality or my third eye.
i wanna respectfully put the quran away from my room now and im gonna do it just to experiment and see what changed the next days. but im scared maybe the quran protects me from evil spirits? or maybe the quran doesnt do anything at all and im just a mood changing diverse idiot that talks too much. i dont know. lately i havent even been trying to meditate or focus my ajna chakra.
most people will propably say yes the quran is fault but i need more than that... i need a whole honest explanation what is going on because im at a lonely place right now and this will be my last post for a while as i think i need to improve spiritually again and i see it as an important factor to quit contact to humans for a while so i can focus more on myself and maybe even spiritual satanism but without the influence of others. thanks for reading. hope you can help.
also i respect the quran and satan but i really wanna put myself not over any god i dont wanna put myself over anyone because i believe that everybody should be equal. but when i get submissive and let the gods influence me am i not automatically putting them over me by giving them attention? so thats why i think its wrong to believe in other religions besides the one in my heart which feels like the true religion to believe in myself only... it feels the realest. what if im already enlightened? who says i incarnated to this world to learn and be better and better? who says that im here because of that? maybe i used to/am a god that incarnated to this world to save it because it has been my dream since my childhood to save it but i hate getting into details when it comes to my dreams i even hate just mentionining them to others but i have to because it feels like it would make this post complete. atleast im anonymous here...
thanks for reading. i hope you can help me. yes i know you already said it before... everything is here on the forum but im too dumb to find it so you can link it to me. now its time for me to improve so i can see the universe more positive because i wanna heal the universe and planet earth. lets together save the world because i know you all are humans just like me so we need to work hard against all the odds. thank you everyone for doing what you are doing and thanks to hoodedcobra666 for being such a hardworker... very inspirational people here... i learned a lot from you guys and you are true humans to me that reached enlightenment because if i would insult you you wouldnt wanna kill me you would not even let it get to you and you would propably also not hate me because of it and that is what i call true enlightenment!
thank you friends but now its time for me to focus and avoid human contact for a while but i will read the responses for this post but propably not answer them but i already thank you all !!! ♥
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WaMP7a17OsY&t
its time to save the planet.