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Is it ever too late for a Satanist?

SeguaceDiSatanas

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Although I have been a Satanist for several years, only recently have I finally found my way.

Indeed now, in the present, meditating has become a habit like eating and sleeping. RTR is no longer boring, indeed every day I wake up with a great desire to fight every day.

I train in the gym almost every day in martial arts (five days a week. The remaining two days I perform the techniques that I have studied from my Grandmaster continuously as training).

I have a couple of university exams left and then I will be able to devote myself to studying subjects that I like so much, such as science for example.

I have complete awareness of who I am and who I want to be for the rest of my life. My life is happy, I have left behind the pains of the past and now I dedicate myself to the pleasant and full of life things.

This made me proud of myself and filled me with immense esteem and love for who I really am.

I owe all of this to the teachings of Satan, the best thing that has ever happened to me in all my lives.
But to reach this complete realization and spiritual and mental harmony in absolute satisfaction, happiness and peace of mind, it took me several years in which I tried and tried again to become something beautiful, but always failed miserably.

In the end after years I succeeded, but I wonder, have the past years been lost or have they been useful? Wouldn't it have been better if I'd found my way first? If I had succeeded before what would my life be like now?
 
Doesn't really matter because, now you are on the right path. I'm happy for you.

On the other hand, many newcomer fall into this. The fact that you could have started meditating, and you could have been more advanced now, is true, but sometimes people need this gap, where they have time to direct themselves, and adjust their life to the fact that they are Satanists. I made like 2 months of gap after I have mediated for few week after dedication. For someone, like you it can get as long as years. You should not be focusing on what could have been happen, especially that it is totally okay, and you didn't loose that much, as it is never late to start the path. Someone finding the truth in their 60's, yet, they might still start meditating, to ensure their next life to be a Satanist.

The past is not changeable, yet your future is. You are doing very good now. Keep up!
 
Amazing to read, very happy for you.

Advancement is a process that is not always perfect, actually, it's almost never perfect. This expectation that everything should be perfect, and one is never allowed to fail, is the reason why so many people break and quit in life. Mistakes and setbacks happen, it's about learning from them and keep trying until you have success. Never quit.

Conquering yourself is an extremely important process, and it will make you so much stronger, even in the fight against the enemy. Once you conquer yourself, and develop real strength and discipline, then everything will fall into place. This is something that is not easy at all though, so it's completely normal that you had setbacks and you weren't perfect in the past, don't beat yourself up about it, nothing good will come out of it.

This doesn't mean that it's ok to be lazy and you shouldn't give max effort, it means that one should show grace to himself, and keep learning and trying again and again.

Look to the future now, the past is gone. Learn from it, that's all you can do, and use it to make better decisions going forward.
 
Everyone has their own way to walk on this path, as everyone is different, no one is the same, we need to go through different things and to go through these things differently depending on our karma, vibrational frequency and so on, in order to achieve the life that is meant for us as individuals.

What you've been through, was meant for you to go through, and the past is in the past, what you're doing now and from now on matters, the past is gone, therfore thoughts about "wouldn't have been better if" have no use.
 
SeguaceDiSatana said:
Although I have been a Satanist for several years, only recently have I finally found my way.

Indeed now, in the present, meditating has become a habit like eating and sleeping. RTR is no longer boring, indeed every day I wake up with a great desire to fight every day.

I train in the gym almost every day in martial arts (five days a week. The remaining two days I perform the techniques that I have studied from my Grandmaster continuously as training).

I have a couple of university exams left and then I will be able to devote myself to studying subjects that I like so much, such as science for example.

I have complete awareness of who I am and who I want to be for the rest of my life. My life is happy, I have left behind the pains of the past and now I dedicate myself to the pleasant and full of life things.

This made me proud of myself and filled me with immense esteem and love for who I really am.

I owe all of this to the teachings of Satan, the best thing that has ever happened to me in all my lives.
But to reach this complete realization and spiritual and mental harmony in absolute satisfaction, happiness and peace of mind, it took me several years in which I tried and tried again to become something beautiful, but always failed miserably.

In the end after years I succeeded, but I wonder, have the past years been lost or have they been useful? Wouldn't it have been better if I'd found my way first? If I had succeeded before what would my life be like now?
No because if you dont achieve your evolution In this life you will reincarnate till you do so you have time but a lot of unnecessary problems can be avoided if you start sooner
 
You don't become what you want to become overnight.
 
I owe all of this to the teachings of Satan, the best thing that has ever happened to me in all my lives.
But to reach this complete realization and spiritual and mental harmony in absolute satisfaction, happiness and peace of mind, it took me several years in which I tried and tried again to become something beautiful, but always failed miserably.

In the end after years I succeeded, but I wonder, have the past years been lost or have they been useful? Wouldn't it have been better if I'd found my way first? If I had succeeded before what would my life be like now?
You are more than content with your life now, you're in fact living your best years and there is even more to come. Perhaps starting "late" was actually good for you. This is not the same for everyone, but you did eventually make it, so hypothesizing about the past is of little use.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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