Inactive For A While

[Jaime Pojol]

I know it's a bit of a douchebag thing to do but I had to focus on school since graduation is near and I can't help but feel the air become more sadden. Usually, I'd be sensitive to the air around me but now all I feel is numbness and I get angry a lot faster than I was before and I had to do a confession since it was a requirement and take the ostia since it was a graduation mass.
I had a meltdown, a couple of it, I'm scared and confused. I hope that the Gods below forgive me, I can't even feel my G.D like I had before, how do I apologize? Is it suppose to be monumental?
Please, I need answers, I just feel utterly guilty and I'm torn.