I'm committing suicide tomorrow

[Hasani Baron]

Do you have or know of any family members (ones who are very close to you that is) that can help you? It won't hurt to ask. If they help you in anyway, then you may be able to start over. You never know.


From: blackmoon0343 <bloodyblackrose343@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, June 10, 2013 7:47 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I'm committing suicide tomorrow

  Hey, she posted another message saying she doesn't want to commit suicide and doesn't know what to do. http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoyofSata ... sage/97499

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "egon_88_666" <egon88@... wrote:

Why the fuck you just don't trust in Satan? If you want to be in a worse situation so go ahead, how many times we have to say how reincarnation can put you in awful situation whitout return?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@ wrote:

there is no way out I'm going to be homeless in the next week if I stay in
my apartment on Friday the marshals are going to come and thrower all my
stuff and my sons, last night I got on my knees and asked Satan for
giddiness but I got no sign I'm not sure of if I'm supposed to this this is
in just a worthless piece of shit and I deserve to did because I been
trying the best I can and keeping my head up I just can't seem to get
things right

On Monday, June 10, 2013, Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@ wrote:
I really don't have any other choice today is my day,I have nothing to
live for I'm getting evicted from my apartment on Friday I don't have a job
plus I have a toddler his dad is not in his life it's just is two,I was a
nanny for two years until the family left to another state in March,I have
not been able to keep up with the bills, food and just everything else.
I'm so lost. I have no other choice I been through a lot in my life and it
took a lot for me to have my own place a nice job and everything else.plus
I'm an immigrant I'm digging that baddle do I can't even get any
government help its my last draw there is nothing Ican do.

On Monday, June 10, 2013, High Priestess Myla Limlal <limlal8@
wrote:


death is not always a way out
u ll have to start all over again
and how u think Satan would feel abt this?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@
wrote:

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing
suicide
tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open
yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my
after
life with Stan.

hail Satan

 

[Mary-anne]

you say you have a toddler so at least think of his/her welfare and dont leave the child motherless there are charities you can get accomadation till you can get back on your feet yes i know most are xtian im not talking long term staying there im talking as a stop gap measure so your not on the streets

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@... wrote:

I really don't have any other choice today is my day,I have nothing to live
for I'm getting evicted from my apartment on Friday I don't have a job plus
I have a toddler his dad is not in his life it's just is two,I was a nanny
for two years until the family left to another state in March,I have not
been able to keep up with the bills, food and just everything else. I'm so
lost. I have no other choice I been through a lot in my life and it took a
lot for me to have my own place a nice job and everything else.plus I'm an
immigrant I'm digging that baddle do I can't even get any government help
its my last draw there is nothing Ican do.

On Monday, June 10, 2013, High Priestess Myla Limlal <limlal8@...
wrote:


death is not always a way out
u ll have to start all over again
and how u think Satan would feel abt this?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@
wrote:

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing
suicide
tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open
yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my
after
life with Stan.

hail Satan

 

[Sarah Payton]

I have been feeling much better now that I'm meditating and opening my third eye. I have been sleeping good not much worried. I'm putting all my faith and thrust in my God SATAN.  I'm trying to find a charity that can help with my rent until I get on my feet. I don't have any family here, or friends I'm just a person that keeps to myself and raise my son.I been hurt by a lot of people in the past I never found a good friend. my sons dad left my when I was pregnant, and his family kicked me out the house. I don't put him on child support because I'm an immigrant  and I'm scarred if something happens to me he might take him away from me he can use that to his advantage. I talked to ny manager and they gave me to the 21st  of the month to pay.

if anyone knows of a charity in the Washington dc area I would love that yo know about it.  thank you everyone that is showing support.

hail SATAN.

On Tuesday, June 11, 2013, Mary-anne <slaveflamez@... wrote:
 

you say you have a toddler so at least think of his/her welfare and dont leave the child motherless there are charities you can get accomadation till you can get back on your feet yes i know most are xtian im not talking long term staying there im talking as a stop gap measure so your not on the streets

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@... wrote:

I really don't have any other choice today is my day,I have nothing to live
for I'm getting evicted from my apartment on Friday I don't have a job plus
I have a toddler his dad is not in his life it's just is two,I was a nanny
for two years until the family left to another state in March,I have not
been able to keep up with the bills, food and just everything else. I'm so
lost. I have no other choice I been through a lot in my life and it took a
lot for me to have my own place a nice job and everything else.plus I'm an
immigrant I'm digging that baddle do I can't even get any government help
its my last draw there is nothing Ican do.

On Monday, June 10, 2013, High Priestess Myla Limlal <limlal8@...
wrote:


death is not always a way out
u ll have to start all over again
and how u think Satan would feel abt this?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@
wrote:

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing
suicide
tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open
yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my
after
life with Stan.

hail Satan

 

[Mike Leskela]

<td val[/IMG]I dont have high self esteem.The problem is I love being miserable.I dont understand how people can be happy in a sick society.Ive been miserable all my life even before I dedicated.I have no reason to be happy.Id rather be mean and hate the whole world around me including everybody and everything in it.Im not trying to get attention,just being honest.
Doesnt mean I want to end my life.

--- On Mon, 6/10/13, John De Witt <jdewitt2011@... wrote:

From: John De Witt <jdewitt2011@...
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I'm committing suicide tomorrow
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, June 10, 2013, 9:43 PM

  Damn right

On 6/10/13, Preston Larson <<a rel="nofollow">seattle.richardson@... wrote:
Quit trying to get attention. Satanism is for powerful individuals with
self esteem and a healthy proactive outlook. Hail SATAN

To: <a rel="nofollow">[email protected]
Fro[/IMG]limlal8@...
Date: Mon, 10 Jun 2013 15:42:37 +0000
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I'm committing suicide tomorrow


























death is not always a way out

u ll have to start all over again

and how u think Satan would feel abt this?



--- [/IMG][email protected], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@...
wrote:



I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing
suicide

tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open

yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my
after

life with Stan.



hail Satan

[/TD]

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

Sarah Payton. I know.its hard but trusr in Father Satan. He would not leave you to hang and dry. He will find a way for you just KEEP Meditating and trust in him.



------------------------------

On Wed, Jun 12, 2013 9:51 AM PDT Sarah Payton wrote:

I have been feeling much better now that I'm meditating and opening my
third eye. I have been sleeping good not much worried. I'm putting all my
faith and thrust in my God SATAN. I'm trying to find a charity that can
help with my rent until I get on my feet. I don't have any family here, or
friends I'm just a person that keeps to myself and raise my son.I been hurt
by a lot of people in the past I never found a good friend. my sons dad
left my when I was pregnant, and his family kicked me out the house. I
don't put him on child support because I'm an immigrant and I'm scarred if
something happens to me he might take him away from me he can use that to
his advantage. I talked to ny manager and they gave me to the 21st of the
month to pay.

if anyone knows of a charity in the Washington dc area I would love that yo
know about it. thank you everyone that is showing support.

hail SATAN.

On Tuesday, June 11, 2013, Mary-anne <slaveflamez@... wrote:


you say you have a toddler so at least think of his/her welfare and dont
leave the child motherless there are charities you can get accomadation
till you can get back on your feet yes i know most are xtian im not talking
long term staying there im talking as a stop gap measure so your not on the
streets

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@...
wrote:

I really don't have any other choice today is my day,I have nothing to
live
for I'm getting evicted from my apartment on Friday I don't have a job
plus
I have a toddler his dad is not in his life it's just is two,I was a
nanny
for two years until the family left to another state in March,I have not
been able to keep up with the bills, food and just everything else. I'm
so
lost. I have no other choice I been through a lot in my life and it took
a
lot for me to have my own place a nice job and everything else.plus I'm
an
immigrant I'm digging that baddle do I can't even get any government help
its my last draw there is nothing Ican do.

On Monday, June 10, 2013, High Priestess Myla Limlal <limlal8@...
wrote:


death is not always a way out
u ll have to start all over again
and how u think Satan would feel abt this?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@
wrote:

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing
suicide
tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open
yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my
after
life with Stan.

hail Satan

 

[Allison P]

I am very glad, Sister! Stay strong, and trust in our Father Satan. He
is always there, if you need to talk to him, and he always listens.

On 6/13/13, Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:

Sarah Payton. I know.its hard but trusr in Father Satan. He would not leave
you to hang and dry. He will find a way for you just KEEP Meditating and
trust in him.



------------------------------
On Wed, Jun 12, 2013 9:51 AM PDT Sarah Payton wrote:

I have been feeling much better now that I'm meditating and opening my
third eye. I have been sleeping good not much worried. I'm putting all my
faith and thrust in my God SATAN. I'm trying to find a charity that can
help with my rent until I get on my feet. I don't have any family here, or
friends I'm just a person that keeps to myself and raise my son.I been
hurt
by a lot of people in the past I never found a good friend. my sons dad
left my when I was pregnant, and his family kicked me out the house. I
don't put him on child support because I'm an immigrant and I'm scarred
if
something happens to me he might take him away from me he can use that to
his advantage. I talked to ny manager and they gave me to the 21st of the
month to pay.

if anyone knows of a charity in the Washington dc area I would love that
yo
know about it. thank you everyone that is showing support.

hail SATAN.

On Tuesday, June 11, 2013, Mary-anne <slaveflamez@... wrote:


you say you have a toddler so at least think of his/her welfare and dont
leave the child motherless there are charities you can get accomadation
till you can get back on your feet yes i know most are xtian im not
talking
long term staying there im talking as a stop gap measure so your not on
the
streets

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@...
wrote:

I really don't have any other choice today is my day,I have nothing to
live
for I'm getting evicted from my apartment on Friday I don't have a job
plus
I have a toddler his dad is not in his life it's just is two,I was a
nanny
for two years until the family left to another state in March,I have not
been able to keep up with the bills, food and just everything else. I'm
so
lost. I have no other choice I been through a lot in my life and it took
a
lot for me to have my own place a nice job and everything else.plus I'm
an
immigrant I'm digging that baddle do I can't even get any government
help
its my last draw there is nothing Ican do.

On Monday, June 10, 2013, High Priestess Myla Limlal <limlal8@...
wrote:


death is not always a way out
u ll have to start all over again
and how u think Satan would feel abt this?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@
wrote:

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing
suicide
tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open
yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my
after
life with Stan.

hail Satan

 

[kurotsuki69]

If you havent commited suicide yet and you're reading this then think about this.

If you THINK your situation is hopeless then your situation is hopeless.. But if you think there is hope then there is hope.

Why? because you make your own world.. consciously, sub-consciously and even on higher levels of consciousness that you're unaware of.

For example if you think you going to have a good day and believe it truely and with all your heart then your day will be great. No matter how shitty it is it will be a great day. And vice versa you can think you're going to have a bad day and when good shit happens you dont realise it coz you just in a mode where you think you having a bad day..

So no one can say anything to change your mind. No one can help you. Your situation is hopeless. Give up, because the only one who can help you is YOU.

Its your choice.

If you want advice mine would be to do what ever you want to do. Fighting is hard.. But it always feels good when you fight and win.

And if you need support Im here to support you because i care.

So if you want to kill yourself go ahead. And if you dont then dont, and do something amazing. Raise your child and make him a great human being so that one day you can be proud of him. No matter how bad your situation, fight it and tell all those negative thoughts in your head to fuck off because your strong and you wont let anything get in your way and of what you want to do in your life.

And if you want a quick fix try using crystals.. look it up online.

And who knows you might get lucky

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@... wrote:

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing suicide
tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open
yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my after
life with Stan.

hail Satan

 

[Elizabeth Hawkins]

suicide is not  the  answer. your child needs u  .it  needs its mommy.  dont worry theres always  a  way..i kno  how u feel. From: Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, June 13, 2013 6:46 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I'm committing suicide tomorrow

 
Sarah Payton. I know.its hard but trusr in Father Satan. He would not leave you to hang and dry. He will find a way for you just KEEP Meditating and trust in him.

------------------------------

On Wed, Jun 12, 2013 9:51 AM PDT Sarah Payton wrote:

I have been feeling much better now that I'm meditating and opening my
third eye. I have been sleeping good not much worried. I'm putting all my
faith and thrust in my God SATAN. I'm trying to find a charity that can
help with my rent until I get on my feet. I don't have any family here, or
friends I'm just a person that keeps to myself and raise my son.I been hurt
by a lot of people in the past I never found a good friend. my sons dad
left my when I was pregnant, and his family kicked me out the house. I
don't put him on child support because I'm an immigrant and I'm scarred if
something happens to me he might take him away from me he can use that to
his advantage. I talked to ny manager and they gave me to the 21st of the
month to pay.

if anyone knows of a charity in the Washington dc area I would love that yo
know about it. thank you everyone that is showing support.

hail SATAN.

On Tuesday, June 11, 2013, Mary-anne <slaveflamez@... wrote:


you say you have a toddler so at least think of his/her welfare and dont
leave the child motherless there are charities you can get accomadation
till you can get back on your feet yes i know most are xtian im not talking
long term staying there im talking as a stop gap measure so your not on the
streets

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@...
wrote:

I really don't have any other choice today is my day,I have nothing to
live
for I'm getting evicted from my apartment on Friday I don't have a job
plus
I have a toddler his dad is not in his life it's just is two,I was a
nanny
for two years until the family left to another state in March,I have not
been able to keep up with the bills, food and just everything else. I'm
so
lost. I have no other choice I been through a lot in my life and it took
a
lot for me to have my own place a nice job and everything else.plus I'm
an
immigrant I'm digging that baddle do I can't even get any government help
its my last draw there is nothing Ican do.

On Monday, June 10, 2013, High Priestess Myla Limlal <limlal8@...
wrote:


death is not always a way out
u ll have to start all over again
and how u think Satan would feel abt this?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@
wrote:

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of months ago, I'm committing
suicide
tomorrow I wanted to know if I ssn going to stand he'll. I'm not open
yet,I haven't had a chance to meditate, but was hoping I could end my
after
life with Stan.

hail Satan