I'm a failure and mentally ill

[Obehag]

I had an account here earlier, but I forgot the password and I ended up deleting the topic because I got paranoid for no reason (that sucks because there’s 2 replies to that topic that I can’t see) so I’m sorry if I seem like an asshole for talking about this for a second time. Also, sorry if my English sucks, it's not my native language.

Well, I have ADHD and Asperger’s Syndrome (I’m not sure about those two, since I went to a lot of Psychologists and Psychiatrists who can’t do their job right, like, one neurologist told me I had Asperger’s and gave me a medicine for ADHD, and other told me I had ADHD and gave me Risperidone – a medicine for treating schizophrenia - because I couldn’t sleep well at night. But it wouldn’t surprise me if I had those two mental issues, since I can’t concentrate or do even the simplest thing and I was really awkward socially, and I don’t have a lot of empathy). So well, I’m an 18-year-old NEET, I’m a porn addict since I was 8 (casually that’s when my life started to suck, I had some problems when I was really little, but it wasn’t as bad as this), I depressed and I feel I’m just a wasted potential, since I’m really good at Mathematics and I have an interest in Technology since I was a kid, I feel like I'm very smart, even with my problems and stuff, but it feels like shit that I’m going to be incompetent due to my mental problems and that people who didn’t even try as hard as me are going to have it much easier, meanwhile I just rot.

I feel like a subhuman and that I feel like I shouldn’t deserve to live since I don’t do nothing, but I don’t see anything of value in this life, it’s just pointless effort that doesn’t matter since I’m going to be mediocre and I will just be a wage-slave in the future, but I don’t really know what should I do, I don’t know how to meditate and when I search this forum I see all sorts of weird stuff so I get really confused, I don’t know if I should try and go to a Psychiatrist for a last time, it’s like I’m running out of time. I can’t even do things that I should enjoy, like playing videogames or watching anime, the only thing I do everyday is listen to music, masturbate, eat shitty fast food and think about my life. I tried medicine like I said earlier but it didn’t really work, I remember once I got overdosed in Ritalin two times (one with 9 pills – I don’t remember the dosage – and the other one with 4 pills I think), I don’t know if it damaged my brain, but now I noticed that now I’m even more lazy than before. I can’t make friends because I don’t know why but everyone ends up hating me, treating me like some sort of child or I end up feeling really exhausted making social life.

In 2020 I was really depressed, even to the point that I wanted to kill myself and most days I would cry or not sleep (really pathetic, I know), now I’m just kind of apathetic about my situation, I know it’s bad but I don’t really know what should I do.

If God exists, I believe he is a cruel entity since I have suffered and I begged him for help, but he didn’t do anything, is like I don’t exist for him, honestly, I don’t even want to go to heaven, sounds really boring and shitty to me. In my perfect afterlife I would be reborn as me again (I don’t know how to explain) and I would be doing everything I can to not ruin my life like I did, and my childhood is the only good thing that happened in my life so it would be nice to experience it a second time.

Sorry if this post is really weird or stupid, but I just wanted to vent about this.

 

[Shadowcat]

I had an account here earlier, but I forgot the password and I ended up deleting the topic because I got paranoid for no reason (that sucks because there’s 2 replies to that topic that I can’t see) so I’m sorry if I seem like an asshole for talking about this for a second time. Also, sorry if my English sucks, it's not my native language.

Well, I have ADHD and Asperger’s Syndrome (I’m not sure about those two, since I went to a lot of Psychologists and Psychiatrists who can’t do their job right, like, one neurologist told me I had Asperger’s and gave me a medicine for ADHD, and other told me I had ADHD and gave me Risperidone – a medicine for treating schizophrenia - because I couldn’t sleep well at night. But it wouldn’t surprise me if I had those two mental issues, since I can’t concentrate or do even the simplest thing and I was really awkward socially, and I don’t have a lot of empathy). So well, I’m an 18-year-old NEET, I’m a porn addict since I was 8 (casually that’s when my life started to suck, I had some problems when I was really little, but it wasn’t as bad as this), I depressed and I feel I’m just a wasted potential, since I’m really good at Mathematics and I have an interest in Technology since I was a kid, I feel like I'm very smart, even with my problems and stuff, but it feels like shit that I’m going to be incompetent due to my mental problems and that people who didn’t even try as hard as me are going to have it much easier, meanwhile I just rot.

I feel like a subhuman and that I feel like I shouldn’t deserve to live since I don’t do nothing, but I don’t see anything of value in this life, it’s just pointless effort that doesn’t matter since I’m going to be mediocre and I will just be a wage-slave in the future, but I don’t really know what should I do, I don’t know how to meditate and when I search this forum I see all sorts of weird stuff so I get really confused, I don’t know if I should try and go to a Psychiatrist for a last time, it’s like I’m running out of time. I can’t even do things that I should enjoy, like playing videogames or watching anime, the only thing I do everyday is listen to music, masturbate, eat shitty fast food and think about my life. I tried medicine like I said earlier but it didn’t really work, I remember once I got overdosed in Ritalin two times (one with 9 pills – I don’t remember the dosage – and the other one with 4 pills I think), I don’t know if it damaged my brain, but now I noticed that now I’m even more lazy than before. I can’t make friends because I don’t know why but everyone ends up hating me, treating me like some sort of child or I end up feeling really exhausted making social life.

In 2020 I was really depressed, even to the point that I wanted to kill myself and most days I would cry or not sleep (really pathetic, I know), now I’m just kind of apathetic about my situation, I know it’s bad but I don’t really know what should I do.

If God exists, I believe he is a cruel entity since I have suffered and I begged him for help, but he didn’t do anything, is like I don’t exist for him, honestly, I don’t even want to go to heaven, sounds really boring and shitty to me. In my perfect afterlife I would be reborn as me again (I don’t know how to explain) and I would be doing everything I can to not ruin my life like I did, and my childhood is the only good thing that happened in my life so it would be nice to experience it a second time.

Sorry if this post is really weird or stupid, but I just wanted to vent about this.

You are like many people who come for the first time. The Gods often lead people here to Joy of Satan when they need it the most or are most open to it.

You don't have to suffer and you are not a worthless human being. You just have issues and struggles like alot of people. For one those drugs those probable kike doctors gave to you are horrible for your health. they put me on ritalin when i was 2...great fun! (not) Pyschiatrists often do more harm than help.

If you want to learn how to meditate read Joyofsatan.org and go to the meditations section. Also educate yourself on the Gods as well as much information that is provided there. You will see there are workings you can do for your mind without having to take harmful pills whose chemical make up is litarally copied from the real thing in a lab, with the difference being that a poison added. Working with the isa rune is good for getting your mind under control and stilling. You should also perform the deciation ritual if you havent yet and start cleaning your aura daily and doing returning curses parts one and 2 along with opening your chakras. Since you say you listen to music try to listen to something calming and relaxing while performing void mediation. (this will be most effective after using the rune i just gave). or just try to zone out and think of nothing for a few minutes.

Try to set up some structure in your life and make a routine that will start off helping to distract you from unwanted addictions such as porn. Freeing the soul workings help with this. Go for walks in nature or try to develop an excersise routine. Yoga also will be of great benefit to you. Check out Lydias yoga routines here in the forums you can find them in the search function. Also learn to recognize stress and try to manage it with the above. Accomplishing things in these areas little by little will improve your life and self esteem and your mental and physical health. Try also to cook healthy foods if you can.

If any gentile prays to the hebrew god ofcourse they will get no answer but pain and suffering. Dedicating to Satan will turn your life for the better as long as you are willing to put the effort in. On top of that you will have Satan and the Gods protection against any jewish filth including their hivemind thoughtforms.

Lastly focus on the things you excell in, even specifically the things you just named and try to develop hobbies with them even, or opportunities for work perhaps. Surround yourself with good people of similar interests who will be a good influence on you. This will also be very good for your mental health.

 

[Henu the Great]

people who didn’t even try as hard as me are going to have it much easier, meanwhile I just rot.

Everyone has their own karma to burn off. Yours is like that. Question is, are you willing to do the work now that you got the vent out of the way..?

I feel like a subhuman and that I feel like I shouldn’t deserve to live since I don’t do nothing, but I don’t see anything of value in this life, it’s just pointless effort that doesn’t matter since I’m going to be mediocre and I will just be a wage-slave in the future, but I don’t really know what should I do, I don’t know how to meditate and when I search this forum I see all sorts of weird stuff so I get really confused, I don’t know if I should try and go to a Psychiatrist for a last time, it’s like I’m running out of time.

Technically, you are. But I'm not saying that to demean you, it's just the reality of the situation. IF you are a dedicated satanist, AND you are willing to put in the effort, THEN you can change. Rest assured of that.

Psychiatrists are a waste of time if you ask me. The answers are inside of you. How can they help if what they provide is a quesswork of "diagnosis" (of which some are made up, like ADHD) and a prescription for harmful subtances. Again, you can do this on your own, if you are interested in self-improvement.

Besides after the war against the jewish rot, we will not have "wage slaves" as you put it, so it's the perfect time to start working on yourself and prepare yourself for the future.

Have you studied the jos extensively? Forums can be confusing, but that is because you lack certain skills and expierence. It's best to start with the site, and not wonder about forum posts too much, if they cause distraction. There is a myriad of useful info here too, but you need to look for it. Seach function is useful here.

In 2020 I was really depressed, even to the point that I wanted to kill myself and most days I would cry or not sleep (really pathetic, I know), now I’m just kind of apathetic about my situation, I know it’s bad but I don’t really know what should I do.

You should take care of yourself, and just move on with the life.

If God exists, I believe he is a cruel entity since I have suffered and I begged him for help, but he didn’t do anything, is like I don’t exist for him, honestly, I don’t even want to go to heaven, sounds really boring and shitty to me. In my perfect afterlife I would be reborn as me again (I don’t know how to explain) and I would be doing everything I can to not ruin my life like I did, and my childhood is the only good thing that happened in my life so it would be nice to experience it a second time.

There is no "god" as you put it, probably as a reference to the jewish hoax of yahweh. There are benevolent Gods & Goddesses however. Then again, Demons are not wish granting genies. How do you learn, if you do nothing to learn and get everything offered on a silver platter. In a way we already have it very good, better than those creatures without the awesome Kundalini of Satan. We have been given the seed of Satan, we just need to finish the work ourselves on ourselves. Demons help with this, but the work must be initiated and done by us.

You are here, the tools and community are provided. Will you apply yourself, or continue complaining?

Sorry if this post is really weird or stupid, but I just wanted to vent about this.

In my view it's okay as long as you actually start to change yourself. Everyone needs a vent every now and then.

 

[Epiphany]

First and foremost you should read the JOS like others have said.

I was hopelessly confused until I found the JOS. Now I understand more than I could have imagined, and it is still a work in progress for me.

Have you studied your astrological chart? It will help you understand more about yourself and understand where some of your problems are coming from. You might have alot of retrogrades, adding delays to your life. Or hard contacts and transits with saturn or neptune. It was the case for me. Satan's gift of astrology has helped me understand so much, and there is no sign of it slowing down or stopping.

The reason you find less enjoyment in gaming and anime is probably because you are maturing, and you know that you need to do away with distractions and figure out how to move on with your life.

Music, masturbation and fast food stick around habitually because they are druglike and help you numb or forget your pain. Mindlessly scrolling the web can also be considered in this way.

Personally, I don't place much stock in the psychiatric system. It operates on flawed bases, like that mental illness is a disease and you can just throw drugs at it to "treat" it as if it were an infection, or that what you experience even is a "mental illness" and not either your nature or a natural response to your life situation.

If you haven't considered therapy I would suggest looking into that instead of psychiatry. Drugs are not a solution. Study up on the JOS as well.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

I had an account here earlier, but I forgot the password and I ended up deleting the topic because I got paranoid for no reason (that sucks because there’s 2 replies to that topic that I can’t see) so I’m sorry if I seem like an asshole for talking about this for a second time. Also, sorry if my English sucks, it's not my native language.

Well, I have ADHD and Asperger’s Syndrome (I’m not sure about those two, since I went to a lot of Psychologists and Psychiatrists who can’t do their job right, like, one neurologist told me I had Asperger’s and gave me a medicine for ADHD, and other told me I had ADHD and gave me Risperidone – a medicine for treating schizophrenia - because I couldn’t sleep well at night. But it wouldn’t surprise me if I had those two mental issues, since I can’t concentrate or do even the simplest thing and I was really awkward socially, and I don’t have a lot of empathy). So well, I’m an 18-year-old NEET, I’m a porn addict since I was 8 (casually that’s when my life started to suck, I had some problems when I was really little, but it wasn’t as bad as this), I depressed and I feel I’m just a wasted potential, since I’m really good at Mathematics and I have an interest in Technology since I was a kid, I feel like I'm very smart, even with my problems and stuff, but it feels like shit that I’m going to be incompetent due to my mental problems and that people who didn’t even try as hard as me are going to have it much easier, meanwhile I just rot.

I feel like a subhuman and that I feel like I shouldn’t deserve to live since I don’t do nothing, but I don’t see anything of value in this life, it’s just pointless effort that doesn’t matter since I’m going to be mediocre and I will just be a wage-slave in the future, but I don’t really know what should I do, I don’t know how to meditate and when I search this forum I see all sorts of weird stuff so I get really confused, I don’t know if I should try and go to a Psychiatrist for a last time, it’s like I’m running out of time. I can’t even do things that I should enjoy, like playing videogames or watching anime, the only thing I do everyday is listen to music, masturbate, eat shitty fast food and think about my life. I tried medicine like I said earlier but it didn’t really work, I remember once I got overdosed in Ritalin two times (one with 9 pills – I don’t remember the dosage – and the other one with 4 pills I think), I don’t know if it damaged my brain, but now I noticed that now I’m even more lazy than before. I can’t make friends because I don’t know why but everyone ends up hating me, treating me like some sort of child or I end up feeling really exhausted making social life.

In 2020 I was really depressed, even to the point that I wanted to kill myself and most days I would cry or not sleep (really pathetic, I know), now I’m just kind of apathetic about my situation, I know it’s bad but I don’t really know what should I do.

If God exists, I believe he is a cruel entity since I have suffered and I begged him for help, but he didn’t do anything, is like I don’t exist for him, honestly, I don’t even want to go to heaven, sounds really boring and shitty to me. In my perfect afterlife I would be reborn as me again (I don’t know how to explain) and I would be doing everything I can to not ruin my life like I did, and my childhood is the only good thing that happened in my life so it would be nice to experience it a second time.

Sorry if this post is really weird or stupid, but I just wanted to vent about this.

i understand you i have autism myself and usually feel like that life is pointless and not worth trying and sometimes want to cut contact with family and friends and get rid of my money which I know is fucking stupid to do but I haven't given up yet despite being depressed and not knowing what to do in life but i have a few ideas such as getting into art such as pottery for a living or writing books on sci-fi and fantasy subjects with witchcraft in it or maybe become a welder these do seem to interest me though i just don't know what kind of skill I should go towards yet but i have started to research it more. also i almost wanted to admit myself to a mental hospital today but i calmed down as usual all because i haven't achieved the one thing i want in life which is to have a romantic and sexual relationship with some around my age and race of course and i don't care if its with a woman or man though i don't really get any feelings to anyone in the first place but at least i have friends.

 

[WarriorofSatan666]

Look up Super Brain Yoga. Basically you do squats while holding your ear lobes with opposite hands. It's relatively simple, takes little time and reported to work quickly and be especially effective for autism, ADHD, asperger's and other psychiatric and brain disorders.

Build up the repetitions slowly to a number suitable to you according to your pace and do it regularly.

Just try it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSwhpF9iJSs

 

[Jack]

Or could it be that the medication gave you aspergers that you didn't have before ? You need to get off the medication and become independent and self reliant. Im not too well read upon natural cures for such conditions and the other people on the forums may help you guide towards natural remedies or herbs better. I know personally ive previously used Ashwagandha to help relieve stress and anxiety which i sometimes used to have while thinking about the world at large. Also you need to break bad habits and form new ones starting with deleting all social media. Make a plan for the future and start going towards it pushing through no matter what.

Theres no way to sugarcoat any of it. In modern society you are not helped at all throughout your development and even your parents might lead you towards the wrong path. If im being blunt i'd venture to say that you're essentially on your own in this whole wide world. if you make something out of yourself then people respect you and not the other way around. There is no support group for people who are losers and can't get things done. It is what it is. I would expect the future to be different but its fact that its a very rough world out here.

Its different for you because essentially you're 18 and haven't seen the real world yet.If you're already this depressed about life i don't know what to tell you after you get out in the real world.

Life and its experiences are stepping stones for your introspection. You're essentially training and getting acquainted with your "Ego" or the self that you have to eventually master. There are going to be setbacks, you're probably going to fail, you're going to get rejected, turned down by women ,find yourself in several bad spots etc, but eventually it comes down to whether you keep persisting or not. I will never forget Adolf Hitlers quote "With enough Grit ,persistence and organization a man can do anything."

You need to first let go of your defeatist attitude and understand that there is nothing wrong with you and you can infact do everything you want with enough grit, persistence and correct strategy. Self doubt leads to failure in everything you do. You need to be absolutely convinced that evrything you set out to do will 100% suucceed no matter the odds. You can do this by removing negative programming and introducing positive programming.Search for list of magickal workings by Academic Scholar and he has all the workings. You can heal yourself of a negative attitude with statements such as

"In a healthy and positive manner i am healed of my negative view of myself and am absolutely sure of my self worth and capabilities ,permanently,completely,Now."

And another working with Nauthiz in a day of Transformation (Moon in Scorpio) "In a healthy and positive manner i am persistently and obsessively (doing whatever you need to do to achieve your goal) everyday".

Check these links out -
https://freecoursedl.com/james-clear-the-habits-master-class/

https://freecoursedl.com/?s=jim+kwik

Also you need to have a fitness program in order to develop your discipline and body. If you don't have time or money do it at home with dirt cheap methods.
https://mega.nz/file/1gtGmb4J#MtH2fntxCBFFL_Ige9F1Zjo28tyr3L5jPyIeRWH6DBA (Pass is 666 becoz mega removes copyrighted stuff.)

I personally follow the above program because im busy throughout the day and i can't go to the gym and waste and extra 2 hrs and i don't have any particular fitness goals other than being fit.

Just doing all of this will take you months
1)Getting your mindset handled through workings.
2)Fitness
3)Setting up a goal and getting down to brass tacks everyday to achieve it.

And i'll tell you right now - The greatest impediment to your success is PORN. Plain and Simple. You have to make a commitment to yourself that you will permanently get rid of that poison that was created by Jews to infect the minds of men and restrict their ability. There's no way to sugarcoat it. There are a lot of people even in this forum who are losers and they will defend porn even though there is literally nothing of value in that act. You're being trained to being a cuck jerking off to a woman being fucked by another man. You'd get more value going to a prostitute and actually having sex if you don't have a girlfriend which i don't recommend you doing because being a virgin isn't that big of a deal for your age range.

In fact in the beginning your primary focus is to get rid of porn by any means necesssary. Just block all porn sites using some software period. Delete all videos. You need to start view all these Jewish creations with absolute hatred.

Forget about Love or Women or getting people to like you in general. This period starting now (18+) is to serve as a foundation to being a man capable of supporting a family through the struggle to become. Teenage love is different than a love a woman has for a man. Remember this all those emotions bursting in the brain won't put a roof over your head or food or education for your future children no matter how handsome you might be when you're 30 and broke and essentially useless to society.

 

[Jrvan]

Or could it be that the medication gave you aspergers that you didn't have before ? You need to get off the medication and become independent and self reliant. Im not too well read upon natural cures for such conditions and the other people on the forums may help you guide towards natural remedies or herbs better. I know personally ive previously used Ashwagandha to help relieve stress and anxiety which i sometimes used to have while thinking about the world at large. Also you need to break bad habits and form new ones starting with deleting all social media. Make a plan for the future and start going towards it pushing through no matter what.

Theres no way to sugarcoat any of it. In modern society you are not helped at all throughout your development and even your parents might lead you towards the wrong path. If im being blunt i'd venture to say that you're essentially on your own in this whole wide world. if you make something out of yourself then people respect you and not the other way around. There is no support group for people who are losers and can't get things done. It is what it is. I would expect the future to be different but its fact that its a very rough world out here.

Its different for you because essentially you're 18 and haven't seen the real world yet.If you're already this depressed about life i don't know what to tell you after you get out in the real world.

Life and its experiences are stepping stones for your introspection. You're essentially training and getting acquainted with your "Ego" or the self that you have to eventually master. There are going to be setbacks, you're probably going to fail, you're going to get rejected, turned down by women ,find yourself in several bad spots etc, but eventually it comes down to whether you keep persisting or not. I will never forget Adolf Hitlers quote "With enough Grit ,persistence and organization a man can do anything."

You need to first let go of your defeatist attitude and understand that there is nothing wrong with you and you can infact do everything you want with enough grit, persistence and correct strategy. Self doubt leads to failure in everything you do. You need to be absolutely convinced that evrything you set out to do will 100% suucceed no matter the odds. You can do this by removing negative programming and introducing positive programming.Search for list of magickal workings by Academic Scholar and he has all the workings. You can heal yourself of a negative attitude with statements such as

"In a healthy and positive manner i am healed of my negative view of myself and am absolutely sure of my self worth and capabilities ,permanently,completely,Now."

And another working with Nauthiz in a day of Transformation (Moon in Scorpio) "In a healthy and positive manner i am persistently and obsessively (doing whatever you need to do to achieve your goal) everyday".

Check these links out -
https://freecoursedl.com/james-clear-the-habits-master-class/

https://freecoursedl.com/?s=jim+kwik

Also you need to have a fitness program in order to develop your discipline and body. If you don't have time or money do it at home with dirt cheap methods.
https://mega.nz/file/1gtGmb4J#MtH2fntxCBFFL_Ige9F1Zjo28tyr3L5jPyIeRWH6DBA (Pass is 666 becoz mega removes copyrighted stuff.)

I personally follow the above program because im busy throughout the day and i can't go to the gym and waste and extra 2 hrs and i don't have any particular fitness goals other than being fit.

Just doing all of this will take you months
1)Getting your mindset handled through workings.
2)Fitness
3)Setting up a goal and getting down to brass tacks everyday to achieve it.

And i'll tell you right now - The greatest impediment to your success is PORN. Plain and Simple. You have to make a commitment to yourself that you will permanently get rid of that poison that was created by Jews to infect the minds of men and restrict their ability. There's no way to sugarcoat it. There are a lot of people even in this forum who are losers and they will defend porn even though there is literally nothing of value in that act. You're being trained to being a cuck jerking off to a woman being fucked by another man. You'd get more value going to a prostitute and actually having sex if you don't have a girlfriend which i don't recommend you doing because being a virgin isn't that big of a deal for your age range.

In fact in the beginning your primary focus is to get rid of porn by any means necesssary. Just block all porn sites using some software period. Delete all videos. You need to start view all these Jewish creations with absolute hatred.

Forget about Love or Women or getting people to like you in general. This period starting now (18+) is to serve as a foundation to being a man capable of supporting a family through the struggle to become. Teenage love is different than a love a woman has for a man. Remember this all those emotions bursting in the brain won't put a roof over your head or food or education for your future children no matter how handsome you might be when you're 30 and broke and essentially useless to society.

Color me impressed. Have you considered being a life coach? I think you would be really good at it.

 

[Jack]

Or could it be that the medication gave you aspergers that you didn't have before ? You need to get off the medication and become independent and self reliant. Im not too well read upon natural cures for such conditions and the other people on the forums may help you guide towards natural remedies or herbs better. I know personally ive previously used Ashwagandha to help relieve stress and anxiety which i sometimes used to have while thinking about the world at large. Also you need to break bad habits and form new ones starting with deleting all social media. Make a plan for the future and start going towards it pushing through no matter what.

Theres no way to sugarcoat any of it. In modern society you are not helped at all throughout your development and even your parents might lead you towards the wrong path. If im being blunt i'd venture to say that you're essentially on your own in this whole wide world. if you make something out of yourself then people respect you and not the other way around. There is no support group for people who are losers and can't get things done. It is what it is. I would expect the future to be different but its fact that its a very rough world out here.

Its different for you because essentially you're 18 and haven't seen the real world yet.If you're already this depressed about life i don't know what to tell you after you get out in the real world.

Life and its experiences are stepping stones for your introspection. You're essentially training and getting acquainted with your "Ego" or the self that you have to eventually master. There are going to be setbacks, you're probably going to fail, you're going to get rejected, turned down by women ,find yourself in several bad spots etc, but eventually it comes down to whether you keep persisting or not. I will never forget Adolf Hitlers quote "With enough Grit ,persistence and organization a man can do anything."

You need to first let go of your defeatist attitude and understand that there is nothing wrong with you and you can infact do everything you want with enough grit, persistence and correct strategy. Self doubt leads to failure in everything you do. You need to be absolutely convinced that evrything you set out to do will 100% suucceed no matter the odds. You can do this by removing negative programming and introducing positive programming.Search for list of magickal workings by Academic Scholar and he has all the workings. You can heal yourself of a negative attitude with statements such as

"In a healthy and positive manner i am healed of my negative view of myself and am absolutely sure of my self worth and capabilities ,permanently,completely,Now."

And another working with Nauthiz in a day of Transformation (Moon in Scorpio) "In a healthy and positive manner i am persistently and obsessively (doing whatever you need to do to achieve your goal) everyday".

Check these links out -
https://freecoursedl.com/james-clear-the-habits-master-class/

https://freecoursedl.com/?s=jim+kwik

Also you need to have a fitness program in order to develop your discipline and body. If you don't have time or money do it at home with dirt cheap methods.
https://mega.nz/file/1gtGmb4J#MtH2fntxCBFFL_Ige9F1Zjo28tyr3L5jPyIeRWH6DBA (Pass is 666 becoz mega removes copyrighted stuff.)

I personally follow the above program because im busy throughout the day and i can't go to the gym and waste and extra 2 hrs and i don't have any particular fitness goals other than being fit.

Just doing all of this will take you months
1)Getting your mindset handled through workings.
2)Fitness
3)Setting up a goal and getting down to brass tacks everyday to achieve it.

And i'll tell you right now - The greatest impediment to your success is PORN. Plain and Simple. You have to make a commitment to yourself that you will permanently get rid of that poison that was created by Jews to infect the minds of men and restrict their ability. There's no way to sugarcoat it. There are a lot of people even in this forum who are losers and they will defend porn even though there is literally nothing of value in that act. You're being trained to being a cuck jerking off to a woman being fucked by another man. You'd get more value going to a prostitute and actually having sex if you don't have a girlfriend which i don't recommend you doing because being a virgin isn't that big of a deal for your age range.

In fact in the beginning your primary focus is to get rid of porn by any means necesssary. Just block all porn sites using some software period. Delete all videos. You need to start view all these Jewish creations with absolute hatred.

Forget about Love or Women or getting people to like you in general. This period starting now (18+) is to serve as a foundation to being a man capable of supporting a family through the struggle to become. Teenage love is different than a love a woman has for a man. Remember this all those emotions bursting in the brain won't put a roof over your head or food or education for your future children no matter how handsome you might be when you're 30 and broke and essentially useless to society.

Color me impressed. Have you considered being a life coach? I think you would be really good at it.

No one taught my Father Basic life skills over the internet. He just knew what he had to do ,learnt how to do it , and then did it. It's that simple.

I don't think you need a lifecoach to tell you how to do basic things . Although you might need a financial coach when you're struggling with growing money.

 

[Nimrod33]

There are a lot of people even in this forum who are losers and they will defend porn even though there is literally nothing of value in that act.

Wait, are there really people still defending porn in this forum? I thought they were all gone.

 

[Jack]

There are a lot of people even in this forum who are losers and they will defend porn even though there is literally nothing of value in that act.

Wait, are there really people still defending porn in this forum? I thought they were all gone.

Most of them are gone but there are still a few left. If we had a poll system we could know the actual statistics.

 

[Jrvan]

Or could it be that the medication gave you aspergers that you didn't have before ? You need to get off the medication and become independent and self reliant. Im not too well read upon natural cures for such conditions and the other people on the forums may help you guide towards natural remedies or herbs better. I know personally ive previously used Ashwagandha to help relieve stress and anxiety which i sometimes used to have while thinking about the world at large. Also you need to break bad habits and form new ones starting with deleting all social media. Make a plan for the future and start going towards it pushing through no matter what.

Theres no way to sugarcoat any of it. In modern society you are not helped at all throughout your development and even your parents might lead you towards the wrong path. If im being blunt i'd venture to say that you're essentially on your own in this whole wide world. if you make something out of yourself then people respect you and not the other way around. There is no support group for people who are losers and can't get things done. It is what it is. I would expect the future to be different but its fact that its a very rough world out here.

Its different for you because essentially you're 18 and haven't seen the real world yet.If you're already this depressed about life i don't know what to tell you after you get out in the real world.

Life and its experiences are stepping stones for your introspection. You're essentially training and getting acquainted with your "Ego" or the self that you have to eventually master. There are going to be setbacks, you're probably going to fail, you're going to get rejected, turned down by women ,find yourself in several bad spots etc, but eventually it comes down to whether you keep persisting or not. I will never forget Adolf Hitlers quote "With enough Grit ,persistence and organization a man can do anything."

You need to first let go of your defeatist attitude and understand that there is nothing wrong with you and you can infact do everything you want with enough grit, persistence and correct strategy. Self doubt leads to failure in everything you do. You need to be absolutely convinced that evrything you set out to do will 100% suucceed no matter the odds. You can do this by removing negative programming and introducing positive programming.Search for list of magickal workings by Academic Scholar and he has all the workings. You can heal yourself of a negative attitude with statements such as

"In a healthy and positive manner i am healed of my negative view of myself and am absolutely sure of my self worth and capabilities ,permanently,completely,Now."

And another working with Nauthiz in a day of Transformation (Moon in Scorpio) "In a healthy and positive manner i am persistently and obsessively (doing whatever you need to do to achieve your goal) everyday".

Check these links out -
https://freecoursedl.com/james-clear-the-habits-master-class/

https://freecoursedl.com/?s=jim+kwik

Also you need to have a fitness program in order to develop your discipline and body. If you don't have time or money do it at home with dirt cheap methods.
https://mega.nz/file/1gtGmb4J#MtH2fntxCBFFL_Ige9F1Zjo28tyr3L5jPyIeRWH6DBA (Pass is 666 becoz mega removes copyrighted stuff.)

I personally follow the above program because im busy throughout the day and i can't go to the gym and waste and extra 2 hrs and i don't have any particular fitness goals other than being fit.

Just doing all of this will take you months
1)Getting your mindset handled through workings.
2)Fitness
3)Setting up a goal and getting down to brass tacks everyday to achieve it.

And i'll tell you right now - The greatest impediment to your success is PORN. Plain and Simple. You have to make a commitment to yourself that you will permanently get rid of that poison that was created by Jews to infect the minds of men and restrict their ability. There's no way to sugarcoat it. There are a lot of people even in this forum who are losers and they will defend porn even though there is literally nothing of value in that act. You're being trained to being a cuck jerking off to a woman being fucked by another man. You'd get more value going to a prostitute and actually having sex if you don't have a girlfriend which i don't recommend you doing because being a virgin isn't that big of a deal for your age range.

In fact in the beginning your primary focus is to get rid of porn by any means necesssary. Just block all porn sites using some software period. Delete all videos. You need to start view all these Jewish creations with absolute hatred.

Forget about Love or Women or getting people to like you in general. This period starting now (18+) is to serve as a foundation to being a man capable of supporting a family through the struggle to become. Teenage love is different than a love a woman has for a man. Remember this all those emotions bursting in the brain won't put a roof over your head or food or education for your future children no matter how handsome you might be when you're 30 and broke and essentially useless to society.

Color me impressed. Have you considered being a life coach? I think you would be really good at it.

No one taught my Father Basic life skills over the internet. He just knew what he had to do ,learnt how to do it , and then did it. It's that simple.

I don't think you need a lifecoach to tell you how to do basic things . Although you might need a financial coach when you're struggling with growing money.

Things are more complicated now. There are a lot of people who are crippled inwardly, and they need guidance. Feckless parents, a rainbow society, lack of support in all sectors, no male role models, etc. Most people these days don't have confidence and don't even know how to make friends or talk to people. It's a wonder that most people are even alive still.

What seems basic to you might not be so easy for another. It's relative. Also, everyone is taught from textbooks instead of getting actual life experience like the people who wrote the books. They're lost with no one to show them. That's where life coaching comes in. If you have made friends, know how to make small chat, know how to negotiate, have been through a bunch of interviews and stuff, etc... then all of this is going to seem simple because you have done it before. It's just another rodeo. But not to the uninitiated. It used to be one of the roles of older males in society - teaching the youth and showing them how to be men in society. I'm just saying I think you would be good at this sort of thing. You know, taking someone under your wing.

 

[Jack]

Color me impressed. Have you considered being a life coach? I think you would be really good at it.

No one taught my Father Basic life skills over the internet. He just knew what he had to do ,learnt how to do it , and then did it. It's that simple.

I don't think you need a lifecoach to tell you how to do basic things . Although you might need a financial coach when you're struggling with growing money.

Things are more complicated now. There are a lot of people who are crippled inwardly, and they need guidance. Feckless parents, a rainbow society, lack of support in all sectors, no male role models, etc. Most people these days don't have confidence and don't even know how to make friends or talk to people. It's a wonder that most people are even alive still.

What seems basic to you might not be so easy for another. It's relative. Also, everyone is taught from textbooks instead of getting actual life experience like the people who wrote the books. They're lost with no one to show them. That's where life coaching comes in. If you have made friends, know how to make small chat, know how to negotiate, have been through a bunch of interviews and stuff, etc... then all of this is going to seem simple because you have done it before. It's just another rodeo. But not to the uninitiated. It used to be one of the roles of older males in society - teaching the youth and showing them how to be men in society. I'm just saying I think you would be good at this sort of thing. You know, taking someone under your wing.

Well my father or other older men didn't teach me anything. He still doesn't pay attention to me this very day. Everything I know I know from self experience and repeatedly failing. The only way I know to become better at anything in life is repeated struggle and overcoming obstacles. I can only relate the way I've learnt and that is to be persistent and constantly keep at anything you're doing and to have emotional control so that outside influences don't mess with your dedication.

I learnt from a young age that a man must do everything himself and that no one helps men until they achieve success. Reality brutally punishes men for being inadequate and it is entirely incumbent upon themselves to achieve their goals and true potential. That's just the world we live in. A man must become.

A man must fight. No one loves you. No one cares about you. Until you become. That has been my experience and I can't only impart that mentality to another younger person. A man is always under the burden of performance. There is no support system because men themselves are the support system for society. I can only teach a boy to be hardened like stone.

 

[Jrvan]

No one taught my Father Basic life skills over the internet. He just knew what he had to do ,learnt how to do it , and then did it. It's that simple.

I don't think you need a lifecoach to tell you how to do basic things . Although you might need a financial coach when you're struggling with growing money.

Things are more complicated now. There are a lot of people who are crippled inwardly, and they need guidance. Feckless parents, a rainbow society, lack of support in all sectors, no male role models, etc. Most people these days don't have confidence and don't even know how to make friends or talk to people. It's a wonder that most people are even alive still.

What seems basic to you might not be so easy for another. It's relative. Also, everyone is taught from textbooks instead of getting actual life experience like the people who wrote the books. They're lost with no one to show them. That's where life coaching comes in. If you have made friends, know how to make small chat, know how to negotiate, have been through a bunch of interviews and stuff, etc... then all of this is going to seem simple because you have done it before. It's just another rodeo. But not to the uninitiated. It used to be one of the roles of older males in society - teaching the youth and showing them how to be men in society. I'm just saying I think you would be good at this sort of thing. You know, taking someone under your wing.

Well my father or other older men didn't teach me anything. He still doesn't pay attention to me this very day. Everything I know I know from self experience and repeatedly failing. The only way I know to become better at anything in life is repeated struggle and overcoming obstacles. I can only relate the way I've learnt and that is to be persistent and constantly keep at anything you're doing and to have emotional control so that outside influences don't mess with your dedication.

I learnt from a young age that a man must do everything himself and that no one helps men until they achieve success. Reality brutally punishes men for being inadequate and it is entirely incumbent upon themselves to achieve their goals and true potential. That's just the world we live in. A man must become.

A man must fight. No one loves you. No one cares about you. Until you become. That has been my experience and I can't only impart that mentality to another younger person. A man is always under the burden of performance. There is no support system because men themselves are the support system for society. I can only teach a boy to be hardened like stone.

It was the same for me. I didn't get the guidance, structure, and support of a dad, and I didn't have any good male role models or substitute father figures in my life. I had to study my ass off just to learn how to socialize, and do basic things that should be learned at an early stage of development (thank fuck for the internet). Nobody helped me. My sisters didn't want anything to do with me, and my dad abandoned me. I was incredibly lonely and felt unloved, and I had abandonment issues that might still linger to this day although not as much. All of my knowledge and wisdom I earned on my own, and a lot of it I learned the hard way through very harsh lessons in life rather than just studying.

Not only that, but I was also deprived of the nurturing love and warmth of a mother. My mom was an emotionally stunted child herself who gave into alcoholism, and was infested with xian thoughtforms. Her own mother physically abused her when she was a child, and her dad died when she was young. The asshole who married her mom after that was an abusive xian who also would beat her and her child. This is how the jewish curses of the bible against the family unit manifest. It's evil.

So believe me when I say I get it. I used to even think the same way with a sense of defeatism that it was hopeless for men in society and we would never get our emotional needs met because we weren't meant to, and we had to carry everyone on our backs all on our own with no one giving a shit about us. I even thought this was natural, and that it's just the way nature made it. But it's not true. This isn't the way it's supposed to be. Men are supposed to provide structure and guidance for their children and teach them how to navigate the world and life in general, and mothers are supposed to nurture them and keep them healthy and strong, and teach them how to care for themselves. Men were once loved, admired, respected, and adored for their roles just like women were for theirs, and it wasn't all just a thankless job. In past societies we would have gotten the credit and appreciation that we deserve for what we do. Men have a strong need to be appreciated, and there's nothing wrong with that. It will be like this again, and already is getting better to an extent although it can be hard to see depending on what we choose to focus on.

Society is pretty dead and unspiritual for the most part, but there are people out there who will pay attention to you and care about you if you let them. It's sad that your dad won't pay attention to you, but you have struggled this hard for yourself which proves that you care about yourself. Some people won't change in this life time, and we have to accept that and let go. Acknowledge your pain inside from the neglect, and just accept that you can never change that man, and then let go and move on. Then you will be free to find people who do care about you and won't neglect you, and you won't be resigned to thinking everyone is like your dad. Or your ex for that matter. There are people you can trust with your heart... you just have to find them.

 

[Obehag]

The reason you find less enjoyment in gaming and anime is probably because you are maturing, and you know that you need to do away with distractions and figure out how to move on with your life.

Honestly, I like those things and I wish I could enjoy them. It's not like I have some better things to do. It's not like I'm going to stop studying/getting a career just because I love anime.

If you haven't considered therapy I would suggest looking into that instead of psychiatry. Drugs are not a solution. Study up on the JOS as well.

I went to Therapy once and it didn't work for me. My therapist was a cocky retard who told me I didn't have ADHD in my third session with her even though I told her about my problems concentrating being hyperactive and she only agreed I could have Aspergers when I told her about some stuff I did in my childhood, also, she tried to act like she was way smarter than me. A total waste of time and money.

Also, I'm studying the JoS. Pretty interesting ngl. :lol:

Or could it be that the medication gave you aspergers that you didn't have before ? You need to get off the medication and become independent and self reliant.

I only took those meds for like 3 months, because it didn't do anything to me. And I've diagnosed with Aspergers when I was 10 years old, and I always acted weird even when I was a kid. Also, my neurologist told me I had some sort of Brain Damage, so I don't even know if it's a good idea to just meditate and not get some sort of treatment.

You don't have to suffer and you are not a worthless human being. You just have issues and struggles like alot of people. For one those drugs those probable kike doctors gave to you are horrible for your health. they put me on ritalin when i was 2...great fun! (not) Pyschiatrists often do more harm than help.

How did it affect you? That doesn't sound good.

In my view it's okay as long as you actually start to change yourself. Everyone needs a vent every now and then.

I'm changing some stuff in my life, but honestly I don't even know why I am doing this.

Also, can I ask something?. What will happen when I die? I'm extremely obsessed with the idea of dying and being reborn as me again, I don't know how to explain it, like, when I die I will reincarnate as me again, reliving my old memories and stuff like that. Maybe it's because my childhood it's the only thing I liked and sometimes I daydream about what would happen if that event came true. (I'm sorry if I didn't explained it well but that's the thing I think the most about.)

 

[kajo]

Also, can I ask something?. What will happen when I die? I'm extremely obsessed with the idea of dying and being reborn as me again, I don't know how to explain it, like, when I die I will reincarnate as me again, reliving my old memories and stuff like that. Maybe it's because my childhood it's the only thing I liked and sometimes I daydream about what would happen if that event came true. (I'm sorry if I didn't explained it well but that's the thing I think the most about.)

You will be reborn as you, with all the karma and hangups, but also positive things like your level of spiritual advancement and strengths of character. So when you start meditating, cleaning your soul, freeing yourself from negative karma, and advancing other ways, you will keep those qualities you've built up in your next lives. The end goals is the Magnum Opus, where you reach immortality and no longer have to repeat the cycle.

There is a plenty of information regarding that in the main JoS site, such as:
https://satanslibrary.org/666BlackSun/Hell.html
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Amnesia.html
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Kundalini.html
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Freeing_the_Soul.html

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Also, can I ask something?. What will happen when I die? I'm extremely obsessed with the idea of dying and being reborn as me again, I don't know how to explain it, like, when I die I will reincarnate as me again, reliving my old memories and stuff like that. Maybe it's because my childhood it's the only thing I liked and sometimes I daydream about what would happen if that event came true. (I'm sorry if I didn't explained it well but that's the thing I think the most about.)

By the time you reach old age and death, you will be an extremely advanced Satanist. You have no reason to worry, just take your time to work through these problems step by step. There is always a solution, so think hard about the way out. That is what we are here for, on the forums, to help you brainstorm solutions and give you support.

Having a focus on transformations sounds pluto-related. The concept of transformations is not limited to actual death, but rather the death of bad habits, bad karma, death of limitations, and the rebirth of prosperity in its place. This is what you should on instead of actual death.

Your first priority should be meditating and advancing daily. This, plus yoga, will be a big boost to you physically and spiritually, and should indirectly help. Once you are consistently advancing, you can start to plan out how to chip away at your problems, which will be a combination of removing the negative karma or adding in energy for healing or building positivity up.

Study your astrology chart well to see where exactly you have problems. Check-in with your GD with regularity to make sure you are on track. For example, plan out some workings and ask them to make sure everything is correct, or the same for your routine.

ALL of these things can be fixed. It is not your fault that you had these problems dumped on you. It's not your fault you grew up in a world that gives you no solutions and only more problems. However, you have to take action now to change that. Don't worry about the past anymore. We are here to ADVANCE, not to wallow in what was.

 

[ZT02]

Diagnosis only makes the problem worse.

I will not pretend that in a mental capacity, I have lived a sound life in my 19 years on this planet, however, I was at my worst when I considered attaching labels to myself to describe how I was feeling.

You need to understand, from a young age there are certain peer-expectations that influence your mental state and do A LOT of damage to it, these are not ‘mental illnesses’, these are holes you’re in and the only way out is to change things yourself.

Diagnosis encourages you to continue with the way you’re living, a therapist who only cares about taking your pay check will tell you that there’s nothing you could’ve done to change it, he/she will give you labels and ultimately an excuse.
“I do this because I have...”
“I act like this because of my...”

I was in a bad place when I was 16, 3 years later, I have a job that keeps me busy and a special person in my life that helps me realise the world isn’t as dark as watching the news makes it seem. The difference between these times is I started reading on SS, granted I’m no expert and keep it exclusively to an individual assignment for myself and not something I share with others in my life but I’m here and I’m happy.
You have nothing to lose from SS but everything to gain. Read the forum, in depth, and embrace it.

 

[Obehag]

I understand everything now. Thanks, this thread and the replies actually helped me to feel better and get motivated.

Also, I want to ask the admins of this forum if they can delete this thread, I'm sorry if this a pretty big and selfish request, but I'm extremely paranoid about my personal info on the Internet, I know I'm the one who created the thread asking for help and it's my fault for talking about personal stuff on this forum, but I was confused and I didn't know what to do, I'm sorry about that. Also, I want to delete my account, because I have some pdfs about JoS on a external HDD so I will study it from there (I want to limit my access to the Internet a little, because it's very distracting), and I prefer to lurk this forum to inform myself instead of participate on it, I do that on every internet community I browse.

Still, this marks the beginning of my journey. ;-)

 

[sspxchud]

Hey, I'm the OP of this post after 2 years. All I have to say is that I don't agree with Joy of Satan anymore and I've converted to Catholicism. (I now support the R&R position of the SSPX)

 

[Karnonnos [JG]]

Hey, I'm the OP of this post after 2 years. All I have to say is that I don't agree with Joy of Satan anymore and I've converted to Catholicism. (I now support the R&R position of the SSPX)

First of all you never 'agreed' with us, and by the OP it sounds like you're the exact type of weak person who would be groomed by /pol/ and other subhumans into 'traditionalist' catholicism anyway.

You whine about communism with Chile but the mere act of supporting an antipope for political reasons (what? egalitarian kike Francis in the model of the earliest jewish popes isn't 'based' enough for you?) would get you burned alive back in the glorious heydays of the catholic church... so SSPX is a special type of retarded even by xian standards. Do you have brain damage?

 

[sspxchud]

A literal propaganda (Prelude to War - made in 1942) made by the United States Office of War Information. I'm personally starting to think you may be one of them.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Hey, I'm the OP of this post after 2 years. All I have to say is that I don't agree with Joy of Satan anymore and I've converted to Catholicism. (I now support the R&R position of the SSPX)

No one cares, really. Go convert whatever shit you want. Take care of yourself.

Satanism is a path of self and spiritual development not some political sect of belief especially something like xianity. Seems really outdated.

Why don't you try pisslam? It's the trend right now for normies trying to find purpose in their empty lives just like xians. All jewish programs btw. From your own texts.

 

[Karnonnos [JG]]

How one can be groomed into Traditional Catholicism? I don't browse /pol/, I don't even browse imageboards since a long time ago. I just agree with the ideas of Lefebvre, it's more even funny that I considered "Spiritual Satanism" when I was in a moment of extreme weakness, meanwhile, after recovering and working on my mental health, I decided to convert back to Catholicism.

Also, it's really funny since you gives love to spam in /pol/ and /x/ to see if a guillible idiot is capable to convert into your sect. Just search "Joy of Satan" in 4plebs, desuarchive or any 4chan archive page, it will be full of "I'M A SPIRITUAL SATANIST, TRY TO CONVERT ME!!!111" and anti-Christian memes that would make even the most edgy atheist cringe.

I would never go to that cesspit nor spread activism there. In my estimation, it is hopeless due to individuals like yourself. Catholic reactionaries (not even communists) were the greatest enemy of Adolf Hitler and Germany in the end anyway.

You contradict yourself hopelessly in your second paragraph... :roll:

You guys whine about jews all the day and really think doodling hebrew symbols and circlejerking in a forum is going to help us in the long way. Also, really nice that you went to see all of my posts. I seriously doubt the truth is found in a shitty website made in angelfire in the 2000s (maybe the Mossad took all the budget lol)

First of all, it's not like christians have a great track record with website design. They make websites for Helen Keller.

Jews are a walking joke but hey, the truth is definitely found at the Vatican... with all the mountains of gold and stolen statues of the 'abominable and stinking' culture of Antiquity. By the way, since a 'holy church father' labelled pagan Antiquity as being that, why are those 'abominable and stinking' statues there again?

TWO MORE WEEKS until jewsus comes back!

>but the mere act of supporting an antipope for political reasons
This only proves that you don't have an idea of what you're talking about, what are you even talking about? No, I'm not a conclavist, nor a sedevacantist. This only proves how you love to have an opinion on something you don't have an idea, really a subversive habit. Also, St. Vincent Ferrer followed an antipope, and he's considered a saint and wasn't burned at the stake, had a good death at 63 I think.

I said for political reasons, can you read? Such as your opportunist nonsense of 'buhh fuck Vatican II!'

Given the Pope's ruling on vernaculars and burning anyone who disagreed with the Vatican Council's ruling on this, do you think your dissent would be tolerated in 1400?

Would your little cuck faction demanding all church services be led in a language no one can understand (even the church had to do a rapid volte-face on what they burned people for in 1400 since they realized their pile of shit is collapsing) would have the privilege of 'ongoing negotiations' for years back then?

Really agressive for no purpose, only three kinds of people get like that: effeminate males, females and jews. I hope you're the first type.

Quit sabre-rattling, you look like the same Christians you seem to despise.

Do not tell me what to do, rat. The tagline of Teens4Satan completely forbids xian proselytism, yet here you are.

We all know why you hate women (your original post does a good job summing that one up) but why do you hate jews when your worthless yentas in the bible were all jewish?

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

...

You seem very intent on proving some kind of point to us, but the reality is that we do not need to hear this. While you were civil earlier, you are starting to push the boundaries with these excessive attacks, especially as you conflate whatever happened on 4chan with what happens here.

Maybe if you did a simple amount of meditations, you would feel the tangible power of this path, as opposed to simply begging your "deity" for help, as if the last 2000 years proved the positivity of this.

You were asking about communists and other philosophical questions, and what the reasons are behind this. The reality is that an individual's beliefs are heavily influenced by the quality of their soul. Therefore, you must meditate and advance yourself. Refuse to meditate and your soul will stagnate and degenerate, no different than if you refuse to exercise or learn anything.

Nobody can force you of this. You must come to this natural conclusion on your own. I wish you luck in that regard, but I don't approve of you simply attacking us as a means for this, or for some other reasons. Even beginner SS have tangible results, compared to Christians who have nothing.

 

[sspxchud]

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You seem very intent on proving some kind of point to us, but the reality is that we do not need to hear this. While you were civil earlier, you are starting to push the boundaries with these excessive attacks, especially as you conflate whatever happened on 4chan with what happens here.

I apologize, but I don't like people treating me like an idiot because I choose another option, if I even posted here was because I was open to see if my option was wrong. You can even see that my only post talking about my Catholicism was this, I actually wanted to see a small debate, but I guess I shouldn't have done that. I can investigate on my own ways, shouldn't have necrobumped this thread.

Also, I wasn't the one who started attacking.

Why don't you try pisslam? It's the trend right now for normies trying to find purpose in their empty lives just like xians. All jewish programs btw. From your own texts.

Never liked it, honestly. I also hate iconoclasm. Take care as well.

I said for political reasons, can you read? Such as your opportunist nonsense of 'buhh fuck Vatican II!'

Given the Pope's ruling on vernaculars and burning anyone who disagreed with the Vatican Council's ruling on this, do you think your dissent would be tolerated in 1400?

Then why did you said I followed an antipope? As far as I know, I'm not a Palmarian.

A pastoral council is not the same as an ecumenical council. We don't rebel against Vatican II because "it's not based and redpilled", but because we see errors in the document and it has lead into a decline inside the church. It's literally a failed 60s experiment made by hippie priests. If I did it for political reasons, I would've became a Sedevacantist, that way I wouldn't obey the pope. Even lots of the bishops inside the church says that it's okay to go to a SSPX mass or to do confession with a SSPX priest.

I also apologize for disturbing this thread. That wasn't right.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I apologize, but I don't like people treating me like an idiot because I choose another option, if I even posted here was because I was open to see if my option was wrong. You can even see that my only post talking about my Catholicism was this, I actually wanted to see a small debate, but I guess I shouldn't have done that. I can investigate on my own ways, shouldn't have necrobumped this thread.

I support you taking the time to learn, although keep in mind that people are very opinionated here, as our path provides us direct evidence.

My assumption is that most people do not know the details of Catholicism like you do, so we cannot offer you specific criticisms, especially on specific people or subcultures of Christianity. So the potential fruitfulness of an extended debate is low, as neither of us may fully understand the other.

Satanism exists in an entirely different world; such that words cannot entirely convey it. It must be personally experienced.

Given your positive association with National Socialism, and given that Himmler was known to have practiced the occult, perhaps the articles on National Socialism's affiliation with Satanism would bridge the gap between what you already know, and what you may be searching for: https://satanslibrary.org/666BlackSun/Third_Reich.html

 

[sspxchud]

I would never go to that cesspit nor spread activism there. In my estimation, it is hopeless due to individuals like yourself. Catholic reactionaries (not even communists) were the greatest enemy of Adolf Hitler and Germany in the end anyway.

You contradict yourself hopelessly in your second paragraph... :roll:

We're not compatible, good.

I don't browse Imageboards anymore, that doesn't mean I don't know about the culture and stuff they do there, I browse those dumpyards since I'm 11. There was a time that I used 4chan and things like that, not anymore and I'm glad I stopped it.

Do not tell me what to do, rat. The tagline of Teens4Satan completely forbids xian proselytism, yet here you are.

We all know why you hate women (your original post does a good job summing that one up) but why do you hate jews when your worthless yentas in the bible were all jewish?

Yes, I was wrong in that. Not that I said "Satanism sucks, let's all become Catholic!" but I should have deepen the topic because it sounds like I'm doing a total condemnation of that. But I guess it's better to just stop. Sorry you got so angry about that, wasn't my purpose, I hope you forgive me for our earlier interaction.

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Given your positive association with National Socialism, and given that Himmler was known to have practiced the occult, perhaps the articles on National Socialism's affiliation with Satanism would bridge the gap between what you already know, and what you may be searching for: https://satanslibrary.org/666BlackSun/Third_Reich.html

I don't consider myself a NatSoc because I'm not German, but I don't hate them. But I was interested in the dissident political movements of my country, but there's not a lot to see. In the Occult: I was interested in Rosicrucianism and Kabbalah thanks to a friend, but I used to get sick to the stomach when I tried to study it and decided to stop it, the same happened when I investigated Islam for curiousity.

This is my last thread, not going to waste your time again, I'm sorry for making those earlier posts, it was really immature from my part.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

In the Occult: I was interested in Rosicrucianism and Kabbalah thanks to a friend, but I used to get sick to the stomach when I tried to study it and decided to stop it, the same happened when I investigated Islam for curiousity.

I have just finished a post towards another member which includes relevant links to the occult knowledge that JoS offers. You can read more there and let that grow your insight of our community: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=460207#p460207

Anyway, good luck on your path.

 

[AFODO]

Bruh.. :lol: :lol: :lol:
You are being wrong in 90% of your posts, and we prove them with facts. Than you come with the "I'm sorry :roll: :roll: "

So funny.
If you are not interested in the topics here in the forums, in fact, you are against everything we say, just don't post anymore. It would be so much better for us and for you too.
You can participate in delusion to suck the shit out of pope joshua's sausage without being here.
Thank you.

 

[phi3.14infinity]

I would never go to that cesspit nor spread activism there. In my estimation, it is hopeless due to individuals like yourself. Catholic reactionaries (not even communists) were the greatest enemy of Adolf Hitler and Germany in the end anyway.

You contradict yourself hopelessly in your second paragraph... :roll:

We're not compatible, good.

I don't browse Imageboards anymore, that doesn't mean I don't know about the culture and stuff they do there, I browse those dumpyards since I'm 11. There was a time that I used 4chan and things like that, not anymore and I'm glad I stopped it.

Do not tell me what to do, rat. The tagline of Teens4Satan completely forbids xian proselytism, yet here you are.

We all know why you hate women (your original post does a good job summing that one up) but why do you hate jews when your worthless yentas in the bible were all jewish?

Yes, I was wrong in that. Not that I said "Satanism sucks, let's all become Catholic!" but I should have deepen the topic because it sounds like I'm doing a total condemnation of that. But I guess it's better to just stop. Sorry you got so angry about that, wasn't my purpose, I hope you forgive me for our earlier interaction.

" post_id=460204 time=1693109413 user_id=21286]

Given your positive association with National Socialism, and given that Himmler was known to have practiced the occult, perhaps the articles on National Socialism's affiliation with Satanism would bridge the gap between what you already know, and what you may be searching for: https://satanslibrary.org/666BlackSun/Third_Reich.html

I don't consider myself a NatSoc because I'm not German, but I don't hate them. But I was interested in the dissident political movements of my country, but there's not a lot to see. In the Occult: I was interested in Rosicrucianism and Kabbalah thanks to a friend, but I used to get sick to the stomach when I tried to study it and decided to stop it, the same happened when I investigated Islam for curiousity.

This is my last thread, not going to waste your time again, I'm sorry for making those earlier posts, it was really immature from my part.

what are u doing here being a CATHOLIC??Seriously this forum is NOT for you ,then why even waste your time ..Go read your bible or study your spirituality ..why creating dramas ??

 

[AFODO]

Bruh.. :lol: :lol: :lol:
You are being wrong in 90% of your posts, and we prove them with facts. Than you come with the "I'm sorry :roll: :roll: "

So funny.
If you are not interested in the topics here in the forums, in fact, you are against everything we say, just don't post anymore. It would be so much better for us and for you too.
You can participate in delusion to suck the shit out of pope joshua's sausage without being here.
Thank you.

I confused you with someone else here. Still, I mean the other parts.