The Alchemist7 said:
You don't need new parents to get your life sorted and you can take care of yourself if you are over 18. Getting a job is a massive step towards `independence` so to say. You need a job and depending on where you live, you might afford to rent a room in another house where you will live with the owners of that house but normally you will never have any problems with them as long as you pay the monthly rent for that room, which normally it might be around 35-40% of a sallary that is close to the minimum wage, I think this applies irrespective of what country you live in, especially if you live in a Western country.
You need a job that doesn't need any qualifications or experience and ideally a job that is slow-paced so you have time to get used to work. There are plenty such jobs: filling shelves in the supermarkets, warehouse jobs (packing etc), labour construction jobs etc. As you earn money and can afford to save some, you can invest in a qualification or something that will allow you to have a better paid job.
Also you need to build up character and personality. For this you need to meditate on the solar chakra (you won't believe what impact this have on your character) and generally you need to meditate consistently to improve as a being, to become stronger mentally and psycologically, more intelligent, more confident etc.
Go to the gym, train hard and have a good balanced diet so you won't be overweight, combine gym with work and a balanced diet and you will most likely loose a lot of weight in a small period of time. You may think this is basic useless advice but I am sure most people who are going through similar things like you are too lazy to do most of them, and unconciously are not willing to change themselves.
And the meditation bid is the most important. If you evolve spiritually, you will be able to do a lot of things. If you need money you will be able to do a spell to attract money and solutions will appear and you will take advantage of them, while most people don't benefit from such practices and are at the mercy of their fate and karma, which doesn't apply for a person who has spiritual knowledge.
This sounds great but I haven't found a job that I can hide from my mom.
I don't know if I can do that since I have very little time do much of anything but clean my chackras a few times a week (My mom is working part time).
My mom doesn't have enough money for that and I really hate to show my ugly face anywhere
unless I get surgery from the guy in my profile pic.
I don't think I have enough supplies in my apartment to make a gym, I am willing to change but don't know enough.
I wanna know how to evolve because I am not evolved enough.
Aquarius said:
Perceiving her negatively, you become more tense and agitated, that's because your brain associated her with a lot of negativity and pain.
To free yourself from this you need to train void meditation and especially have a clear mind(free from thoughts) when she is around you, this can prove harder at the beginning, but as you relax your mind around her you're gonna feel much better around her.
I am doing that but I really think my mom's presence has something to do with the things that happen around her.
Also, I am under a lot of pressure and thinking about running away and never coming back
I feel like my mom is closing in on me and I have no other choice, I know I've said this before but I still feel I need someone to get me out of this mess since I don't think I can get myself out fast enough.