Catalincata94
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I stoped some deditation and now i do less, once when i had to do the meditations and program the energy for protection and vizualization one day the voice told me is no use if i concentrate on him than on the meditation and i realized i would just empower it by doing meditations that rises my bioelectricity and i wanted to do the meditation and coudn't act to do it because this would just get me in a very bad situation some beliefs hold me not to do it not even if i would force it so can't really meditate just doing aura cleaning and void. And it terrorizes me from time to time. And sometimes i'm so angry that he talks to me. And tell him fuck you, you shit and you are wasting your time. But him, "oh yeah? What if i'm one of the Gods you will be in a bad situation this way."
And i know the Gods would tell me who they are and their name and what they want but he whoever it is, is telling me "but you asked for help" and then another time it just tries to manipulate me. And if i ask now who it is and what it wants from me when it talks to me he tells me "i won't tell you" or "i told you who i am how many times should i tell you that i am Satan"
And why did i some times forget what it told me? Like it wiped my mind from a minute to another then later it tells me the same thing and at that moment i remember it. What heppens when you are terorized with things when you meditate and then when you finished it you get like a mind wipe and then you dont know what it was but when you get back to meditation it starts again with the same thing or similar this way i thik the energy from meditations and workings will be programed with shits and if i feel panicked very nice isn't it?
I want to do aop but it can block me and then what i do 20-30 days and get blocked again? Widouth finishing the 40 days?
One thing is clear that i did too many spiritual things for a beginner. And programed the energy for two things at a time.
I did a banishing ritual twice but didn't know that i must clean my self after and the suroundings and who do you clean the suroundings satanic blue energy?
But if it talks to me i epower it anyway because i talk to my self and it even when i do aura cleaning and many times i'm fucking talking to that shit. And many time can't hold back not to talk to it. But no if i don't believe it is Satan then it says it's a part of me and same out come "leave SS" because "you can't be an SS" well my experiences tells something else.
My birth chart says i once am exagerately confident this is same thing as arogance and once with lack of confidence. So Satanist shoudn't be arogant but if my birth chart says than can i still be an SS?
And what do i manage if i am a Satanis and do workings i get confident in doing them then i have no confidence and get off of it so im fuked up this way i would just fail and fuck my confidence more and many times i failed doing workings and fewer times i managed to do some of them so no protection and for how long will i be well widouth protection? not for eternity.
I'm just doing ac void and program my subcouncious for protection and no other workings for now. Don't even want to overcharge my subcounscious with workings and programing and fuck it up. And i did fucked for 21 days i used like 100 subliminal shits for the subcounscious and it's nice for fucking someones brain.
And i know the Gods would tell me who they are and their name and what they want but he whoever it is, is telling me "but you asked for help" and then another time it just tries to manipulate me. And if i ask now who it is and what it wants from me when it talks to me he tells me "i won't tell you" or "i told you who i am how many times should i tell you that i am Satan"
And why did i some times forget what it told me? Like it wiped my mind from a minute to another then later it tells me the same thing and at that moment i remember it. What heppens when you are terorized with things when you meditate and then when you finished it you get like a mind wipe and then you dont know what it was but when you get back to meditation it starts again with the same thing or similar this way i thik the energy from meditations and workings will be programed with shits and if i feel panicked very nice isn't it?
I want to do aop but it can block me and then what i do 20-30 days and get blocked again? Widouth finishing the 40 days?
One thing is clear that i did too many spiritual things for a beginner. And programed the energy for two things at a time.
I did a banishing ritual twice but didn't know that i must clean my self after and the suroundings and who do you clean the suroundings satanic blue energy?
But if it talks to me i epower it anyway because i talk to my self and it even when i do aura cleaning and many times i'm fucking talking to that shit. And many time can't hold back not to talk to it. But no if i don't believe it is Satan then it says it's a part of me and same out come "leave SS" because "you can't be an SS" well my experiences tells something else.
My birth chart says i once am exagerately confident this is same thing as arogance and once with lack of confidence. So Satanist shoudn't be arogant but if my birth chart says than can i still be an SS?
And what do i manage if i am a Satanis and do workings i get confident in doing them then i have no confidence and get off of it so im fuked up this way i would just fail and fuck my confidence more and many times i failed doing workings and fewer times i managed to do some of them so no protection and for how long will i be well widouth protection? not for eternity.
I'm just doing ac void and program my subcouncious for protection and no other workings for now. Don't even want to overcharge my subcounscious with workings and programing and fuck it up. And i did fucked for 21 days i used like 100 subliminal shits for the subcounscious and it's nice for fucking someones brain.
