I want to be encouraged

[Bmwm3gtr]

I want to be encouraged by this forum.
I was once forced to go to school by my mom for can't sleep 3 days because of panic Symptom and this memory is bothering me.
I suddenly woke up last night while I was dreaming and got angry in my sleep and called my mom's name out loud, which had nothing to do with my will, and at that moment I was so Shocked and anxious that I cried to Astaroth to save me.
I don't want to live life now.
I want to be encouraged.
Family doesn't feel like family these days.
My sister and sister allowed to drop out of school but i was force to go to school.
Isn't it sexism? Should a man be strong?
I didn't go to the university lecture because I was angry

 

[Renita]

That sounds terrible and I am sorry that your family is treating you that way,.I recommend doing an aura cleans and aura strengthening meditation to keep yourself protected from any negative influenced from both family and others. Hope things get better!

 

[Ælberiigor]

I want to be encouraged by this forum.

I already encouraged or explain you some stuff but you don't answer.
Nobody is at your disposal, answer when someone answers you, or put a like.

I was once forced to go to school by my mom for can't sleep 3 days because of panic Symptom and this memory is bothering me.
I suddenly woke up last night while I was dreaming and got angry in my sleep and called my mom's name out loud, which had nothing to do with my will, and at that moment I was so Shocked and anxious that I cried to Astaroth to save me.

Everyone lived periods like this

My sister and sister allowed to drop out of school but i was force to go to school.

Find a job or change your cursus

Isn't it sexism? Should a man be strong?

Yes, women too. Nobody respects weak people

You are only in a state of depression => The basis of meditation will get you out of it in just a few minutes' work a day
You are young and make a natural crisis everyone did to form its character. Do things, exercise, learn, create and become experienced.
The more you stay crying in your corner the worse it gets.
Time flies, don't waste it.

 

[Viego]

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I want to be encouraged by this forum.

There's something in the energy I feel from your avatar (provided I feel correctly, that is not always the case) like a inner part of you is calling for help. That planet is small compared to the space around and it transmits a sense of being lost.
I do not know anything about your previous posts, etc., so I just take your words here.
Willing to be encouraged is natural feeling from time to time but, willing to be constantly encouraged is depending from someone else. Without someone else pulse to act and cheer up, it seems you are unable to go on.
This is a typical kid attitude: children are always encouraged by their caregivers when they are very young; growing up they learn to be independent.
Possibly there's a inner tendency to be dependent that is arising from your unconscious?
As your family seems negative to me, according to what you say, overcoming this sense of constantly needing others, may be the key to overcome the way they mistreat you. Or they mistreated you in the past, also.