kidnap_ped
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- Dec 3, 2011
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hi.
here is the problem.i feel bad..sad..down..because of the past...something in the past happened to me and i just cant let it go..past is kinda 10 years..LOL...partly i can let it go coz part of it is based on xianity but part of it just me for a looooong time.
trying to be what im not for a long time was because of xians but partly face the thing that im not what i thought is kinda ( really upsetting.i thought i was special and im motherfuckin nothing...but i knew that i wasnt for whole 10 years but i lied to my own self...but now i gotta face it because of the person that i love and face that im not what i tried to be...and i made myself believe it that much that now i cant distinguish between what is a lie and whats truth...im goin insane..i constantly get drunk and hit my head at the wall..punch myself..
is there anything that can help me let it go?HELP PLEASEEE (((
here is the problem.i feel bad..sad..down..because of the past...something in the past happened to me and i just cant let it go..past is kinda 10 years..LOL...partly i can let it go coz part of it is based on xianity but part of it just me for a looooong time.
trying to be what im not for a long time was because of xians but partly face the thing that im not what i thought is kinda ( really upsetting.i thought i was special and im motherfuckin nothing...but i knew that i wasnt for whole 10 years but i lied to my own self...but now i gotta face it because of the person that i love and face that im not what i tried to be...and i made myself believe it that much that now i cant distinguish between what is a lie and whats truth...im goin insane..i constantly get drunk and hit my head at the wall..punch myself..
is there anything that can help me let it go?HELP PLEASEEE (((