Antares Warrior
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- Apr 25, 2023
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I think I have been decieved by the enemy for awhile. My name used to be Slyscorpion. I have been having someone talk to me in the spiritual telling me I was Beelzebuls son and that he was Beelzebul. However the teachings givin conflict with the JOS. I wanted to believe I was important and a king in my past life and would be in the future. However the voice was telling me certain teachings like I can't do anything without getting in trouble. I was punished by a feeling of great anger and powerful force telling me I could not eat or drink for days and telling me I have to obey. He said the internet is Jewish and I cannot be on the groups or speak. Rock music (my favorite kind) is Jewish and a control thing. I cannot eat beef or cheese or drink coffee but it came down to me barley being able to eat any kind of food because it conflicted with my soul. I have been off the groups for awhile because I was told not to be on here. I couldn't watch TV or listen to the radio or news. I couldn't use YouTube or any kind of Jewish service. I couldn't go into most stores in my neighborhood. Now I admit I used to steal from the stores but having nowhere to shop for even groceries is hard. I couldn't eat pizza or drink pop or anything with caffeine in it. I could not be social or talk to anyone very much. I had to stop talking to my family and cut them off because they are xtian and have very bad energy. I could not use anything with drugs or alcohol in it. Even soap.
My girlfriend is out of body and I cannot have sex with her without it being rape. So I quit talking to her for a year almost because of threat of punishment. I am starting to doubt I am talking to Beelzebul because the teachings while some of them being good lead me to not having anything to do or anyone to talk to. I was made believe I was a very important person. I thought about suicide like going downtown and jumping from the parking garage. I was made believe I would have nothing to do until the end of the war because I can't be part of any Jewish stuff.
I now am not believing the voice is Beelzebul. I am still not very open. I told my xtian family about the voices and they said that it's very destructive. I currently am court ordered to take meds from cmh because I was told to throw out all my stuff and since I am getting money from the government I have to stop but I can't work either. He would not let me have a job. I have been alone and isolated for awhile. If any of the stuff is Beelzebul I am sorry but I do not anymore believe it is. Many of the teachings were about becoming more moral and a better person but all this is leading too is me not having any friends any job or being able to support myself.
Literally I cannot do anything without pissing off Beelzebul or whoever the voice was. Nothing on the JOS suggests most of these teachings.
I am very fearful of being punished in a severe way for talking about any of this with my family or on here. Of course I am leaving out a lot when talking to my xtian family.
The positive is I no longer smoke or use vape and am more polite and clean but I doubt much of the stuff he is saying. I think the enemy has been talking to me.
If I am wrong I will be punished very severely for going against the Gods. But I cannot handle not being at all a part of society. I was told I can't do many of the meditations on the JOS or rituals because of the energy from my family and the JOS is low level people. I was told a bunch of stuff this is only part of it.
However I doubt now I am Beelzebuls son and doubt I should not take part in anything. Other teachings is I can buy nothing on sale and have to pay full price for everything and am greatly in debt even oweing the hospital bills I have because he doesn't believe in insurance. I cannot invest anything or gamble. I cannot receive money from the government or my family and I cannot get a job.
Help I am not talking to Beelzebul am I. I will end up committing suicide if I have to isolate from society.
My girlfriend is out of body and I cannot have sex with her without it being rape. So I quit talking to her for a year almost because of threat of punishment. I am starting to doubt I am talking to Beelzebul because the teachings while some of them being good lead me to not having anything to do or anyone to talk to. I was made believe I was a very important person. I thought about suicide like going downtown and jumping from the parking garage. I was made believe I would have nothing to do until the end of the war because I can't be part of any Jewish stuff.
I now am not believing the voice is Beelzebul. I am still not very open. I told my xtian family about the voices and they said that it's very destructive. I currently am court ordered to take meds from cmh because I was told to throw out all my stuff and since I am getting money from the government I have to stop but I can't work either. He would not let me have a job. I have been alone and isolated for awhile. If any of the stuff is Beelzebul I am sorry but I do not anymore believe it is. Many of the teachings were about becoming more moral and a better person but all this is leading too is me not having any friends any job or being able to support myself.
Literally I cannot do anything without pissing off Beelzebul or whoever the voice was. Nothing on the JOS suggests most of these teachings.
I am very fearful of being punished in a severe way for talking about any of this with my family or on here. Of course I am leaving out a lot when talking to my xtian family.
The positive is I no longer smoke or use vape and am more polite and clean but I doubt much of the stuff he is saying. I think the enemy has been talking to me.
If I am wrong I will be punished very severely for going against the Gods. But I cannot handle not being at all a part of society. I was told I can't do many of the meditations on the JOS or rituals because of the energy from my family and the JOS is low level people. I was told a bunch of stuff this is only part of it.
However I doubt now I am Beelzebuls son and doubt I should not take part in anything. Other teachings is I can buy nothing on sale and have to pay full price for everything and am greatly in debt even oweing the hospital bills I have because he doesn't believe in insurance. I cannot invest anything or gamble. I cannot receive money from the government or my family and I cannot get a job.
Help I am not talking to Beelzebul am I. I will end up committing suicide if I have to isolate from society.