Demonic Tech
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I'm fucking going crazy over this.
So, I just discovered that I have an ancestor in common with a famous "person" (if you can call that a person) that pushes strongly the jewish agenda.
This person is strongly believed to be jewish, but I'm not certain of it. Officialy this person isn't. It doesn't really matter. What it really matters is discovering if I am jewish or not. I already talked about this before, but it was only paranoia, now I have a real reason to be worried about it.
I don't want to say the name of this person for safety reasons. I'm scared of everything and wanna be super cautious about this.
I know for a fact that I felt a strong joy and feeling of love when finding JoS and reading about Satan, both the first time at 13yo and the "definitive" second time at 18-19yo, so this is either real (I am a Gentile) or a self illusion to infiltrate here, like a dormant cell (I'd be jewish).
I wasn't sure how to approach this issue, I thought maybe just asking if that person was actually jewish or just a traitor without saying anything, but at the end I felt like this approach that I'm taking is better.
I'd like to add that I always had problems with this side of the family (my mothers), I've always disagreed with them on everything, they're a very christian average italian family.
My father's family tho, it's the complete opposite. They're relatively woke on jews, on the jabs and that meditation is powerful etc...
Although, even some far relative in my father's family is probably jewish... He was a mafia boss, and by looking at his pictures I can say that he looks jewish. My father's mother has some strange traits that could be both italian or jewish.
I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT ONCE AND FOR ALL. This is not just paranoia anymore. I have reasons to be worried, these two. What can I do? I always did the F-RTR (even 4 times a day, damn I even programmed a version of it) but I felt scared while doing the Soul Shattering, because there was this voice in my mind "what if you were a jew and you're committing suicide"
So, I just discovered that I have an ancestor in common with a famous "person" (if you can call that a person) that pushes strongly the jewish agenda.
This person is strongly believed to be jewish, but I'm not certain of it. Officialy this person isn't. It doesn't really matter. What it really matters is discovering if I am jewish or not. I already talked about this before, but it was only paranoia, now I have a real reason to be worried about it.
I don't want to say the name of this person for safety reasons. I'm scared of everything and wanna be super cautious about this.
I know for a fact that I felt a strong joy and feeling of love when finding JoS and reading about Satan, both the first time at 13yo and the "definitive" second time at 18-19yo, so this is either real (I am a Gentile) or a self illusion to infiltrate here, like a dormant cell (I'd be jewish).
I wasn't sure how to approach this issue, I thought maybe just asking if that person was actually jewish or just a traitor without saying anything, but at the end I felt like this approach that I'm taking is better.
I'd like to add that I always had problems with this side of the family (my mothers), I've always disagreed with them on everything, they're a very christian average italian family.
My father's family tho, it's the complete opposite. They're relatively woke on jews, on the jabs and that meditation is powerful etc...
Although, even some far relative in my father's family is probably jewish... He was a mafia boss, and by looking at his pictures I can say that he looks jewish. My father's mother has some strange traits that could be both italian or jewish.
I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT ONCE AND FOR ALL. This is not just paranoia anymore. I have reasons to be worried, these two. What can I do? I always did the F-RTR (even 4 times a day, damn I even programmed a version of it) but I felt scared while doing the Soul Shattering, because there was this voice in my mind "what if you were a jew and you're committing suicide"