of the true light said:
So I've been doing the flame med and it definitely helps a lot but I wanted to mention that I've been through some physical abuse and in my mind's eye if I'm near to someone I see them hitting or slapping me. I even get paranoid sometimes and fantasize that somebody is going to shoot or stab me. I see it all in my mind. I'm wondering if repeating Satanama would help me? I don't know how to do it outside of raising energies for RTR's though. Are we supposed to vibrate it the same way and how many times per session? Would this help or is there something else I should consider? I thank you so much for your assistance!
The prior abuse is definitely a factor in this specific style of interference, although more void control/flame meditation will help for anything. SaTaNaMa is balanced and used for general healing, but I think you should start with something like Munka that will deprogram you and remove any negative karma associated with the abuse.
On a waning Pisces or Aquarius moon, such as this 8/23 date, you can do a Munka working. For example, 90x reps of Munka, followed by "The energy of Munka has, now and permanently, completely removed any negative influences associated with abuse from my entire being, in a manner that is completely positive and healthy for me." (x9)
-I said abuse, not physical abuse, because physical abuse has a mental component as well
-influence is a general term that encompasses any karma, energy, programming, etc
-9 numerology is associated with endings, hence 9x affirmations and 90x reps. You can do more or fewer reps if you like, depending on what you are comfortable with, such as 40x, 80x, 100x, 180x, 216x.
-90x will take about 30 minutes, depending on how quickly or slowly you vibrate Munka
-Munka is pronounced: MOON-YAH-KKK-AH.If you search around, you might find an audio of the pronunciation
Afterward, visualize something like black energy leaving your body. You can also visualize chains, ropes, weights, leaving the body permanently. The energy of Munka is said to be silver in color, so you can visualize that or white light over you, cleaning your whole being as well. It is kind of like colloidal silver, purifying your soul.