I feel lost right now?

[ShadowBunny]

Hi All

I was super Happy to do Val-fore ritual for the week. but right now i just hit a wall it feels like and not sure what to do?

i will kindly say the sermons and such other topics were helpful and informative by Hooded Cobra and other people too and just wanted to say thank you for them. now on to my issues that i am having for most of the rituals so far in the past and now that we have done i tried my hardest to do them the best i could some time i could do 2x or 4x a day for that or other wise basic rtr and returning curse and aop with hatha and Kundalini when time permits every day when can, but every time i do them and such idk if that is enough i would like to know the gods and goddess of duat better as well guardians but dont think i am good enough or just a pest or any thing else as well it seems any more. Any thing i do just does not seem to amount to any thing any more dont feel that i am improving or what ever you like to all it these days?

every day feel like a consent failure as a SS feel like i am trapped in a box and cant get out and feeling to much pain and suffering and well as dead inside with the world not wanting some one like me since being trans and lesbo as well with so many loses people that i cared about and fur babies all dogs and setback and other things with finances over the years it just feels hopeless any more. i would like to finish this fight and win for the gods and Goddess so this world dont have to suffer and such and other things ect. by the jews, grays that have been taken over and the reptilians too and other things. then there the thought i just might not make it out a live from this whole dam mess and just parishes since clueless if will even succeed in any thing let alone godhead idk if i am even worth it any more just dont feel any thing or hear any thing or see any thing any more i think i am just a broken soul that is need to be put down out of her misery, i dont see no future for my self all i see is death nothing but endless death far as the any eyes can see.

i am not sure if any one will even message back or such ect. stress, depression, alot of other things are just wearing me out any more. as brothers and sisters of Spiritual Satanism i would want all of you to be protected by the azure flames ect. but my self idk any more?

any way if any of you have word of thoughts ect. wright back and will try to reply back asap.

Thank you all again for taking the time to read this.

Shadow Bunny

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

Hi All

I was super Happy to do Val-fore ritual for the week. but right now i just hit a wall it feels like and not sure what to do?

i will kindly say the sermons and such other topics were helpful and informative by Hooded Cobra and other people too and just wanted to say thank you for them. now on to my issues that i am having for most of the rituals so far in the past and now that we have done i tried my hardest to do them the best i could some time i could do 2x or 4x a day for that or other wise basic rtr and returning curse and aop with hatha and Kundalini when time permits every day when can, but every time i do them and such idk if that is enough i would like to know the gods and goddess of duat better as well guardians but dont think i am good enough or just a pest or any thing else as well it seems any more. Any thing i do just does not seem to amount to any thing any more dont feel that i am improving or what ever you like to all it these days?

every day feel like a consent failure as a SS feel like i am trapped in a box and cant get out and feeling to much pain and suffering and well as dead inside with the world not wanting some one like me since being trans and lesbo as well with so many loses people that i cared about and fur babies all dogs and setback and other things with finances over the years it just feels hopeless any more. i would like to finish this fight and win for the gods and Goddess so this world dont have to suffer and such and other things ect. by the jews, grays that have been taken over and the reptilians too and other things. then there the thought i just might not make it out a live from this whole dam mess and just parishes since clueless if will even succeed in any thing let alone godhead idk if i am even worth it any more just dont feel any thing or hear any thing or see any thing any more i think i am just a broken soul that is need to be put down out of her misery, i dont see no future for my self all i see is death nothing but endless death far as the any eyes can see.

i am not sure if any one will even message back or such ect. stress, depression, alot of other things are just wearing me out any more. as brothers and sisters of Spiritual Satanism i would want all of you to be protected by the azure flames ect. but my self idk any more?

any way if any of you have word of thoughts ect. wright back and will try to reply back asap.

Thank you all again for taking the time to read this.

Shadow Bunny

You have at first to divide the issues and not mix them together, so you can have an understanding of what is going on in life.

As I read from your post, everything that deals with depression is unrelated to being an SS. You are doing fine as a Satanist and should not think in anyway that you are a "Failure" or all these things that you say. These are not the reality. You are doing very well in this. So long you continue, this will be the case. The Gods would never turn anyone down who is interested, they observe and they know, and they are here to help us. Therefore, feel happy about this and put it this matter to the side.

Do not mix what is happening in general with the world in what you are going through. Many of the things you describe are normal things that occur in life and require organization to fix, such as financial or other issues.

It appears a generalized depression over your living situation or certain things out of control is what you are encountering. This can stem from the issues you mention. Rather it looks like you have not organized your life enough, so many areas might be a bit out of control. This is causing you stress, and longterm stress likely has led to depression. These can be fixed in life but you have to divide them one by one.

Lastly, it appears you care too much what other people and/or the world thinks. This seems to be a primary cause of depression. You should think about it less, and stop giving too much of a damn what the "world" thinks. The "world" always looks to find someone to spew negativity upon, and you have done nothing wrong to deserve this. A little bit more of self acceptance here and not giving too much of a damn about the opinion of the "world" will also do you good.

These issues combined seem to have run you down, to where you feel like you cannot have it anymore. I think you need to try to smile a bit and be a little more optimistic, as most of these issues are normal but you have allowed them to go a bit too far. It's on your hand to stop this.

-High Priest Hooded Cobra 666

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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If you are trans, then chances are you may also have issues with lower self esteem, or any of the lower chakras and their associated planets.

In regards to depression and energy specifically, this is the result of fire in the body, such as from the Sun or Mars. The Runes which represent this are Sowilo and Thurisaz, respectively. So, you may want to start a working with Sowilo, such as with x40, x80, x88, or x111 reps, and program it to permanently increase your self-esteem and general optimism. Do this on a waning moon, on a fire sign, like Leo, Aries, or Sagittarius.

You may also want to free your soul from this, as well, or any other issues on your astrology chart. Obvious issues include negative aspects between planets, like oppositions or squares, or when planets are in bad signs. If your Sun has a square aspect to Saturn, this can make you feel "not good enough" for example.
You can remove this with mantras like Munka or Ansuz. See more here: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=76661

This may take perhaps 80 days, but at least 40 are needed for a permanent effect. If you want quicker results, you can do planetary Squares, such as the when the Sun enters Aires next March. However, these are easier to mess up. Whatever you do, plan out your time and effort so that you are working on your biggest problems first.

Also, if the Godly rituals make you feel happy, you can continue doing them, especially if it really helps you with a large problem.

 

[ShadowBunny]

Hi All and Thank you Hooded Cobra, Blitzkreig as well

After getting all of that off my chest and having some sleep i do feel a bit better as well with that you said to reply to me,

As you said needed to divide the issues that were and not mix them up so just sitting down and trying to sort it all the best can for this weekend and keep it up if there any more, as for the daily things done thought i might of been off the road to much but glad to hear that i still am on the right path even with being a SS and will still continue to do the best i can for my self and all of you and the Gods and Goddess too.

As with the Organization of life issues after the sleep with a clearer mind yes most of the issues of life trying to pick the pieces up and trying to move forward organized better and sort through the problems and fix or navigate one at a time to fix them that are giving me problems and issues, as for the world will try to be more laid back and try to not let the darn people and world throw negative crap ect. as well self acceptance to boot too.

with to Regard to blitzkreig will do the runes that you said and will do the best can on them as with the planetary Squares but like you sayed can be confusing as with astrology and the chart dont even have a clue how it even works or how it start when i see all the stuff like what in the Necronomicon Meditations For The Year that just dont make sense another issue that seem to plague me it seems.

my Demoness lovers both sayed that i am to hard and critical on my self in every thing just try to slow down and take it easy like Hoodedobra trying to say.

just wanted to say thank you to you both Hooded Cobra, Blitzkreig again taking the time out and all.

if there any thing else that is imputed om this thread will reply asap

*Cabbit Smile's* :3

Shadow Bunny