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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], dvdpst <dvdposton@... wrote:
Who is this person and why is he/she using two names? They want to join an
coven to see if they like it
or not. They got to be kidding. And we do not go around looking for trouble.
Sounds like some thing an
kike would do.
david
On Thu, Jul 7, 2011 at 8:47 AM, High Priest Mac Friday
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[email protected]:
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I dont know whta your getting across, but you sound very diluted right now.
For that matter I think you need to correct your thought process or find
another group.
Cordially,
PRAISE THE Mighty 4 Crowns of Duat!
Knowledge cant be rushed, it is power so you must accept and embrace it.
-High Priest Mac Friday
High Priest Mac Friday
Joy Of Satan Ministries
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/HOME.html
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*From:* Emodeous Zayaz <emodeous@...
*To:*
[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
*Sent:* Wed, July 6, 2011 5:30:43 PM
*Subject:* [JoyofSatan666] Re: I could use some real help Please
Hell-O all. Here is a little info on Me. I am going to be 34 October 25, I
live in Modesto, California, USA. I know all about keeping your ID to
yourself, but I don't care. What are they going to do to me? Really! I am an
exbouncer & privet bodyguard. I fear no man nor death. I am the type to DO
WHAT IT TACKS to get the job done. I am not going to fear anyone who loves &
is dedicated to Father because they are Family just like the one you are
borne in to. I am sure not going to fear the R.H.P. If any R.H.P were to try
something well there skin will be on my wall. You know what I mean? I have
nothing of worth to take. Really what could someone do to me that would mess
with me? If you have read my other posts you would know why I ask that.
At any rate, I would like to know if there is a Coven in or around don't
care how far for I have no car Modesto CA. I am looking for a Coven that is
able to take me in without pushing someone out & that is J.O.S. fallowing. I
would like to see if I would fit in. In the worst case I would walk away
hopefully with some Real friends. In any case I could use some support form
like mined people. As of now I have not yet got a response from any J.O.S.
clergy.
To anyone who wants to harm me. All I can say is BRING ON THE PAIN!!!! It
can be very fun to feel body pain. You should know when I first got into
Fathers path I studied on all that I could on how to: torcher, kill bar
handed, kill with anything as a weapon, bare extreme pain, harness my rage &
turn it into body strength, and much more of things of that naecher. So you
have been warned very fairly.
Just for argument sacks we will say you killed me. So I am going to get
what I want? I am going to dedicate my sole to father & you are going to
kill me & send me strait to him, so I don't get to better myself now, & I
know the goal is to reach god hade. There is always next time right? Even if
you think you win. I win any way you slice the dice. By the way, I will not
die in till it is my time & no one not even my own hand can quicken that as
I have learned.
To who gets this far thank you for your time.
All My Love To Father
Hail Satan
The_Real_Emodeous
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_real_emodeous" <emodeous@
wrote:
--- In
[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_real_emodeous" <emodeous@
wrote:
Hell-O to all. This is more than likely going to be a long reed. This
is
my first post if it goes up. I am not new to Satanism, Just new to
J.O.S. I have been lost & without for a long time. I have been trying
to
find my path to fallow & to no avail. I am a lone in my quest to find
my
Father Satan. What I mean by "I am a lone" is that is how it has
been since I was 14 yrs old. I found nothing but B.S. & a whole lot of
it. I have found some truth in J.O.S. & I want to continue with J.O.S.
I
have some problems that are holding me at bay. I have mental problems.
I
will expand on that. I was borne with the fallowing- Asmath, Dyslexic,
&
Bipolar Disorder with extreme Rage instead of the hi highs. I also
suffer from P.T.S.D. From what I have read this rage is going to be a
real bad thing. Well it all retry is on a daily bases for me any awes.
I
do not want to harm the few that I love just because I get pisst. Let
me
try to expand on this rage to you. Now you know about the cartoon
theory
of taking a golf ball size snowball on the biggest mountain in the
world
& roiling it of the top. It gets bigger & bigger. My rage is like that,
itself perpetuating. Once it starts it is so hard to get it to stop.
I have a real bad history. I was abused not by family but by society. I
am going to say something that is just my opinion, I may be wrong as I
often am. Father Satan gave us something inside us. I found it going
through what I would call ritual beatings by my foes. Mind you I was
with the right hand path at the time. You can turn the other check or
as
I was told "A real man does not fight. He uses his mind to resolve
his problems." Well this is what I learned from all that, you can
tack it or you can live. My fight was with myself, a part of me
snapped,
hate & rage & how dare these fools. Well that all stopped when I took
my
first step towards Father & I did not know that then, I just wanted to
harm them back & badly at that. I did so for I found the power, I
always
had it I just used it. Being a big guy & strong at that, they never had
a chance they just did not know it at the time.
Now at this time in my life I need Father More than ever. For the last
6
days I have been on J.O.S. site & trying to discover more. I have a
very
hard time trying to reed & I think I am being attacked by the right
hand
path. I can't quite my mind to meditate for crap. I know I am a
thinker & that can be a problem but I have worked on trying to gain
some
peace through meditating before & did well I think but I can't now.
I can't get the pendulum to work. I have used playing cards for yes
& no answers with grate results. I don't have a wejeebord nor know
how to make one & I can't scry because of the above reasons & this
sucks the most I can't dream!!!! I would kill for a dream no truly
if Father were to say get him it would already be done. I am at a loss
on what to do. Just to tell you I have not yet been confirmed with
Father Satan. Some info says there is a good time to do so & I want the
best for Father to hear my pleas for a 2ed time. I did it in my way
when
I was 15 & I asked what does he wants me to do. I was told to wait by
Father at least I think it was him. I did not know what to do or what I
was because I was praying to Father like I was praying to that pace of
crap of the right hand path. I was doing it for 2 ½ hrs when I heard
the voice. Well I kind of freaked a little thin I asked was that you?
The voice replied with WAIT!!!! My only reply was as you wish my lord.
Well I am tired of waiting & was that even Father Satan? Well I find
myself hear righting this. I need some guidance. I don't like to ask
for help nor do I want it but I need it & there is no choice but to
plead for it & if it's given to humbly except it with an open mind &
hart.
At this veary moment I find myself crying. Why I do not know & I
can't stand crying. I don't cry ever not even when my uncles
died. I am a hard man. I find myself in an old fling of wanting to die.
My Demon garden must be tiered of saving my behind. Every chance I get
I
put myself in danger let alone how many times I have tried to kill
myself. I am a freak & would be the freak picked on in a room full of
freaks. I have come to terms with that.
My family & so called friends can't help me they are either on the
right hand path or don't believe in nothing. My wife as well since
she is the worst one. I think she will leave me if I continue looking
for the truth let alone when I get to confirm.
I don't do drugs or drink much. 1-3 beers now and then. I do smoke
cigarettes & cannabis a.k.a. devils weed. J I have always wanted to
know
what Father's thoughts on cannabis in the first place. I started at
19 yrs on my b-day. It is the only thing that has helped me all these
years. It controls the rage & is the only thing that has. The pills I
have taken well, just say walking zombie.
It has taken me over 8 + hours to right this much. I am using Microsoft
Word to right this. I am going to cut & past so the spelling is better
than the other way. If you have got this far thin thank you for your
time. To all that would try to help me thank you.
The_Real_Emodeous
Hail Satan!!!!
Hell-O All. I would like to say thanks to the 2 replies so fare. They
helped to some extent. I would like some advice from J.O.S. to respond to
the above & to this & please do not say go to the J.O.S. page to find what I
am looking for. As I stated before I gave myself to Father a long time ago
my way. After I had my boys I started to feel like I had to change my ways
for their sake. You all must relies I was looking at Father as the R.H.P.
looks at things. This is hard to explain please bare with me I am a fool.
All right Evil, Pure Evil & I loved hem just as I do now. My love for Father
Never Left I just don't want my boys to be like me. Well take the biker that
is a 1%er well I am 1/10 of 1%ers. I don't know how to put it other than
that. If you compare me to a real bad person I make him look like a "saint".
You can see why I don't want my boys to be like me. I want good things for
them like all decent folks even though I am not. I started to do things that
hurt me like go to church & that kind of crap. Now here is the fun stuff.
Come to find out my youngest son has some form of autism & a little over a
year ago my brother was in a car wreck & in a coma for 3 months. When I
prayed it made me sick then my bro had a seizure & a stork so bad he bet
through the bight plate holding his intubation tube. That was it I just
about Postal. I went back to my old ways. It felt right & I managed. I found
J.O.S. & thing started to click for me real quick. Now I see that Father may
not take me back. I think he will & this is why, I started to make an alter
for Father with something given to me by the only man that was my true equal
in this world & my best friend on earth. He is dead now. So you see the
meaning behind it. I haven't felt Fathers or The Gods Of Old presents since
the day I started down the Left Hand Path. I was up for some time & was rear
the time I would go to bed it was morning & I wanted to start the outline of
what I want. I started & there it was filling me all over & I knew I was on
the right track. I did not stop in till the carving & sanding was done. You
should know how hard it is to find good supplies for us & everything is
pricey. I think if you make do with you have & use something that is
meaningful it in some way like a sacrifice to Father that you are doing for
him & it comes from the hart. I don't know when the best passable time would
be to give myself to Father & I still need supplies to do it right & I would
like to open all my chakras & know who my Garden Demon is. I am so pore that
the homeless have more than me kind of thing. I can't copy all that I read
on J.O.S. pages let alone afford the info they sale. I still don't know
about joining a Coven or how to find one in my local. Any info or advice
from the J.O.S. would be great. Any one that would like to say something is
welcome as well as wanted. Thank you for your time.
All My Love To Father
Hail Satan
The_Real_Emodeous
