I can't explain what happened today.

[OttoHart]

For context, I have done the Dedication days ago, and I have okay to moderate astral senses from meditation I've done in past practices pre-JoS.

This experience that happened is nothing like what I've felt in my past practice. I feel so good, but so weird. I usually don't ask things like this, but I'd love for a more experienced Satanist of someone with authority to give me some grounding info on what this was, because I am frankly overwhelmed.

I cried after meditating today. Heavily.
Every morning, after my usual meditation activities, I meditate on Lord Satan's sigil for 5 minutes, have my morning coffee next to my altar and say prayers, for about 15 minutes, in silence. It's been a great habit, and I always get a little bit of inspiration from this. Maybe I'll have an idea later in the day. Or maybe the writer in me will awaken and I'll write a poem to the Gods.

I heard a voice today. No, not an idea in my head. No, not a voice I'm trying hard to connect to. A very clearly audible voice, from inside my head, but clearly not me. It was a man's voice, but soft spoken and with a relaxed tone. I felt like an old, wise man was talking to me by his cadence, but the voice sounded like it could easily be a man in his late twenties.
"[My name. Not the name people call me. A name only my family uses], why do you feel so busy?"
This was a voice with a presence like no other. I almost jumped from my chair and responded out loud.
"I'm working to improve myself, I know what I need to do now."
"Hear me well, I'll only explain this once. You've heard good news, and yet you're now so stressed. This is my first lesson to you, take the time to learn it. You've always thought you need to earn happiness. In this life, you've been hurt by many. Your parents didn't want you to succeed, and you survived through so much hardship. You've always felt inadequate, [name]. You cried in a world you didn't understand, and you didn't know why you were in pain. Yes, you have a path. You will take control of it and win in all you want to win, as long as you put in the effort. But stop thinking you need to achieve ANYTHING to feel true happiness in what you have. Breathe."
Seconds pass. I'm crying bullets. Tears of a feeling I can't fully put my finger on.
"Today, look around, live in the now, and appreciate what you have. Tomorrow you'll be better. And so on. Just stop rejecting happiness. You shouldn't need to hear this so badly, but I'm happy for you. Yes, the things you've done made me happy. Feel better?"
I can barely blurt out a yes through tears. Tears that remind me of my mother holding me when I was very little.
"Good, take care."

I have no idea what to believe. Was this some thoughtform? What just happened to me?
I've read that High Priestess Maxine had falsely though She spoke to Lord Satan early in Her practice, when in reality She only met him later.
I don't believe myself nearly advanced enough to deserve Lord Satan to personally talk to me.
What was this??

But I do feel extremely good about it. I have such a deep appreciation for life that I've never had before.
Today, I'll visit my favorite parks and enjoy the sun, then go home for the evening, my girlfriend will cook a nice meal, I'll burn some incense, put on some good music, and just enjoy life with her. I don't give her enough appreciation.

 

[Henu the Great]

Take time to enjoy the moment you are living in. Always rushing here and there, expecting things to be good after a process is complete and then another, and another. Suddenly, you realize, you have not taken a moment of appreciation for decades and your time is almost up. Journey, not the destination.

Yes, the guidance was sound and you should not worry about it.

 

[AFODO]

You should definitely listen to this advice, but you should ask HPHC specifically if this was really the Gods. Most of us doesn't know if this is possible or if this is something like a God would do.

 

[Henu the Great]

You should definitely listen to this advice, but you should ask HPHC specifically if this was really the Gods. Most of us doesn't know if this is possible or if this is something like a God would do.

It is possible and when they want us to know something they will make it known one way or another. Also, as the advice is positive in every sense, it can not come from the enemy as well.

 

[Seeker in the Dark]

I believe it could have been several things/entities:
1) Perhaps it was Satan
2) Perhaps your Guardian
3) 1 or/and 2 awakening a part of your subconscious to remove the feeling of heaviness within you. The first step of alchemy is to remove/kill the unwanted elements in your life

Just my thoughts on the matter.

 

[Imhotep]

I sincerely thank you for your wonderful experience. Your words spoke to me immediately. Yes, it is important to take time for yourself and your loved ones and to enjoy life to the full. I am glad that these words were whispered to you. I can't tell you whether it was Satan or your guardian demon. But it feels good. Stay true to Father Satan and have many more nice, enjoyable evenings with your girlfriend.

Hail Satan!
Hail Lucifer!
Hail Lucifius Focalor!
Hail Abraxas!