I am rotting:(

[SouthCentralBum]

Well...I finally woke up:/ and first thing I did was laugh at myself. I'm rotting dudes and idk what to do. I'm really focusing on void meditation cause my mind is wild, I wake up at 3 am cause my mind rambles as I sleep and I wake up others that tell me to shut up, they hear anything I hear somtimes and it sucks, I have a weird shame that makes me just wanna hide away like a lil girl and die. But part of me wants to heal up and even tho I was doing returning curses, aura of protection, wunjo, and sun square, like before I had this awakening....I'm still a decomposition soul. Am I doing something wrong

 

[The Proud Gentile]

Do not say that your are rotting because by saying that you are putting that type of negative energy into your mind and soul.

If returning curses and meditation is not helping rid these problems then it sounds to me that you probably need help from a higher being on whatever underlying issue you are facing right now. I recommend that you contact your guardian demon and/or satan, so that they can help you solve these issues and guide you back on your path. You may be dealing with something unconsciously but I'm not sure.

 

[RoseWolf]

Stop thinking you are decomposing and saying stuff like that to yourself and soul. It isnt healthy. Just keep spiritually working on yourself. Everyone has different experiences.
Im not sure what you trying to say.
Are you saying you talk in your sleep ? xd
Sometimes thats normal. If it is too much and happens every night and it bothers you and others.Then maybe there's alot going through your mind. Usually stress can cause it.

But if you find your mind going a bit wild, then practice some Void meditation and do some breathing exercises and practice been present and using your senses. And doing yoga. It helps me alot when i take long deep breaths and focus on my breathing.
It'll help calm and relax your mind.
The mind can go abit crazy sometimes.
It might take a while for the mind to calm down. It can even be a struggle when it is really bad. Just keep being persistent and consistent and everyday.

It helps to also do some Aura cleaning and Aura of Protection.

Even my mind can be noisy under stress. So work on whatever is stressing you in life. Usually putting too much responsibility on yourself also makes it noisy too.

I hope i read what you mean correctly.

 

[BlueLight]

It can take time to see results. And it is known that as your problems come to the surface to be dealt with, they will get worse.

Don't stop doing your workings and have faith in them. You're not rotting. Your soul is not decomposing. Well, it will - if you keep telling yourself that.

 

[lilquote]

I can guarantee that, if you're doing rtrs and returning curses along with regular void meditation, your soul is fine. However you're still extremely paranoid which you desperately need to fix. Nobody hears your thoughts, no random people speak to you telepathically on a daily basis, and not all random people on the streets have their astral senses open to do those things in the first place.
Anyone who responds to this person should take a look at their past posts first if anyone knows how to help. I can't tell if they're trolling at this point, because they've argued with people trying to help in the past, insisting that everyone is so open that they hear and respond to this kid's thoughts telepathically, despite us trying to convince them otherwise. Either trolling or intense delusions I'd think.

 

[Soaring Eagle 666]

Well...I finally woke up:/ and first thing I did was laugh at myself. I'm rotting dudes and idk what to do. I'm really focusing on void meditation cause my mind is wild, I wake up at 3 am cause my mind rambles as I sleep and I wake up others that tell me to shut up, they hear anything I hear somtimes and it sucks, I have a weird shame that makes me just wanna hide away like a lil girl and die. But part of me wants to heal up and even tho I was doing returning curses, aura of protection, wunjo, and sun square, like before I had this awakening....I'm still a decomposition soul. Am I doing something wrong

1. Good start! You recognize that there is a problem, and you want to fix it.

2. When you say "I am rotting.", that is an affirmation. Your mind works to accomplish it. Instead you should say "I was rotting." and "I am now fixing it."

3. It is possible that an enemy being is harassing you. A good start for anything this serious is to ask Satan for help. Just look at his sigil, speak, and he will hear.

4. If you are doing all that, and not seeing results, then the source of the negative energy is something that Satan knows you can handle yourself. Do you drink, smoke, or use drugs? Do you watch porn? Do you eat junk food? If anything like that applies to you, then try to address those problems specifically and see if your situation improves.

 

[SouthCentralBum]

Well...I finally woke up:/ and first thing I did was laugh at myself. I'm rotting dudes and idk what to do. I'm really focusing on void meditation cause my mind is wild, I wake up at 3 am cause my mind rambles as I sleep and I wake up others that tell me to shut up, they hear anything I hear somtimes and it sucks, I have a weird shame that makes me just wanna hide away like a lil girl and die. But part of me wants to heal up and even tho I was doing returning curses, aura of protection, wunjo, and sun square, like before I had this awakening....I'm still a decomposition soul. Am I doing something wrong

1. Good start! You recognize that there is a problem, and you want to fix it.

2. When you say "I am rotting.", that is an affirmation. Your mind works to accomplish it. Instead you should say "I was rotting." and "I am now fixing it."

3. It is possible that an enemy being is harassing you. A good start for anything this serious is to ask Satan for help. Just look at his sigil, speak, and he will hear.

4. If you are doing all that, and not seeing results, then the source of the negative energy is something that Satan knows you can handle yourself. Do you drink, smoke, or use drugs? Do you watch porn? Do you eat junk food? If anything like that applies to you, then try to address those problems specifically and see if your situation improves.

Thanks I appreciate it. , You helped alot

 

[RoseWolf]

I can guarantee that, if you're doing rtrs and returning curses along with regular void meditation, your soul is fine. However you're still extremely paranoid which you desperately need to fix. Nobody hears your thoughts, no random people speak to you telepathically on a daily basis, and not all random people on the streets have their astral senses open to do those things in the first place.
Anyone who responds to this person should take a look at their past posts first if anyone knows how to help. I can't tell if they're trolling at this point, because they've argued with people trying to help in the past, insisting that everyone is so open that they hear and respond to this kid's thoughts telepathically, despite us trying to convince them otherwise. Either trolling or intense delusions I'd think.

Is it possible for ppl to hear your thoughts ?
I had an experience where i felt someone thoughts without trying in the same house. I went to check on that person and i was right.
Keeping the mind quiet and focused on whatever you doing helps. For instance, if i were in the room with people, i just listen to what they say and keep my mind quiet because i feel that people who are open enough can feel thoughts.
It helps with focus and attention than letting your mind wonder around.
I've had thoughts where it felt like someone was telling me to shut up or insulting me but thought it was just an imagination so i would not respond or focus on that "voice" which most people would call it. It doesnt happen often but if it did, then does come frequently and then i start feeling paranoid.
I dont suffer from any mental disease besides just minor anxiety.
This is something i would not tell a psychiatrist or else they think you suffer psychosis.

 

[Shael]

Is it possible for ppl to hear your thoughts ?
I had an experience where i felt someone thoughts without trying in the same house. I went to check on that person and i was right.
Keeping the mind quiet and focused on whatever you doing helps. For instance, if i were in the room with people, i just listen to what they say and keep my mind quiet because i feel that people who are open enough can feel thoughts.
It helps with focus and attention than letting your mind wonder around.
I've had thoughts where it felt like someone was telling me to shut up or insulting me but thought it was just an imagination so i would not respond or focus on that "voice" which most people would call it. It doesnt happen often but if it did, then does come frequently and then i start feeling paranoid.
I dont suffer from any mental disease besides just minor anxiety.
This is something i would not tell a psychiatrist or else they think you suffer psychosis.

Yes it is possible. This is a gift some people have and is something that can be developed with practice and advancement. The main areas that rule these things (to my knowledge) are the 3rd eye and 6th chakra, as well as the water element [possibly also the clairaudience points]. You're not insane, so do not worry. Just make sure to always use logic and do void meditation regularly so you can control your mind and stop yourself from randomly freaking out.

 

[RoseWolf]

Is it possible for ppl to hear your thoughts ?
I had an experience where i felt someone thoughts without trying in the same house. I went to check on that person and i was right.
Keeping the mind quiet and focused on whatever you doing helps. For instance, if i were in the room with people, i just listen to what they say and keep my mind quiet because i feel that people who are open enough can feel thoughts.
It helps with focus and attention than letting your mind wonder around.
I've had thoughts where it felt like someone was telling me to shut up or insulting me but thought it was just an imagination so i would not respond or focus on that "voice" which most people would call it. It doesnt happen often but if it did, then does come frequently and then i start feeling paranoid.
I dont suffer from any mental disease besides just minor anxiety.
This is something i would not tell a psychiatrist or else they think you suffer psychosis.

Yes it is possible. This is a gift some people have and is something that can be developed with practice and advancement. The main areas that rule these things (to my knowledge) are the 3rd eye and 6th chakra, as well as the water element [possibly also the clairaudience points]. You're not insane, so do not worry. Just make sure to always use logic and do void meditation regularly so you can control your mind and stop yourself from randomly freaking out.

I used to freak out many years ago because i suffered severe anxiety but meditations has drastically improved me that i can handle it so much better.
Even you can feel thoughts and emotions and see something is going wrong with those close to you. I feel that it is normal when you are someone who practices meditations and become more open and sensitive.
I used to have visions of someone going through depression and it was accurate. Even familiars reveal that too.
Dunno if it's the same when i keep having images of Azazeal during meditations and thoughout the day for a week when i started doing the Final Reverse Ritual.
I wasnt thinking of the people. It just comes to me xd

 

[SouthCentralBum]

I can guarantee that, if you're doing rtrs and returning curses along with regular void meditation, your soul is fine. However you're still extremely paranoid which you desperately need to fix. Nobody hears your thoughts, no random people speak to you telepathically on a daily basis, and not all random people on the streets have their astral senses open to do those things in the first place.
Anyone who responds to this person should take a look at their past posts first if anyone knows how to help. I can't tell if they're trolling at this point, because they've argued with people trying to help in the past, insisting that everyone is so open that they hear and respond to this kid's thoughts telepathically, despite us trying to convince them otherwise. Either trolling or intense delusions I'd think.

Our experiences differ. I live in LA where being "woke" is nothing special. In fact people think you're retarded if you don't know how to control your mind. I'm not saying 100% of people know but I'm saying it's not anything special if you do. This is extremely excruciating for me as I am one of those "retarded" people. I was always a smart kid but I was always told to use my head and to think. By everyone. So eventually I went from smart kid to dumb 18 year old who can't control his mind because he "woke up" to late.im not a troll im legit struggling and it's embarrassing

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

I can guarantee that, if you're doing rtrs and returning curses along with regular void meditation, your soul is fine. However you're still extremely paranoid which you desperately need to fix. Nobody hears your thoughts, no random people speak to you telepathically on a daily basis, and not all random people on the streets have their astral senses open to do those things in the first place.
Anyone who responds to this person should take a look at their past posts first if anyone knows how to help. I can't tell if they're trolling at this point, because they've argued with people trying to help in the past, insisting that everyone is so open that they hear and respond to this kid's thoughts telepathically, despite us trying to convince them otherwise. Either trolling or intense delusions I'd think.

Our experiences differ. I live in LA where being "woke" is nothing special. In fact people think you're retarded if you don't know how to control your mind. I'm not saying 100% of people know but I'm saying it's not anything special if you do. This is extremely excruciating for me as I am one of those "retarded" people. I was always a smart kid but I was always told to use my head and to think. By everyone. So eventually I went from smart kid to dumb 18 year old who can't control his mind because he "woke up" to late.im not a troll im legit struggling and it's embarrassing

I wish I could help you. But I don't even know what you are saying. You don't just have to think, you have to feel too.

 

[lilquote]

I can guarantee that, if you're doing rtrs and returning curses along with regular void meditation, your soul is fine. However you're still extremely paranoid which you desperately need to fix. Nobody hears your thoughts, no random people speak to you telepathically on a daily basis, and not all random people on the streets have their astral senses open to do those things in the first place.
Anyone who responds to this person should take a look at their past posts first if anyone knows how to help. I can't tell if they're trolling at this point, because they've argued with people trying to help in the past, insisting that everyone is so open that they hear and respond to this kid's thoughts telepathically, despite us trying to convince them otherwise. Either trolling or intense delusions I'd think.

Our experiences differ. I live in LA where being "woke" is nothing special. In fact people think you're retarded if you don't know how to control your mind. I'm not saying 100% of people know but I'm saying it's not anything special if you do. This is extremely excruciating for me as I am one of those "retarded" people. I was always a smart kid but I was always told to use my head and to think. By everyone. So eventually I went from smart kid to dumb 18 year old who can't control his mind because he "woke up" to late.im not a troll im legit struggling and it's embarrassing

You're completely wrong. Do you think you're the only person here who lives in/near LA? I've literally said this to you over and over in each bs post you make that most people in LA aren't ss or anywhere close to having self control. And self control does not equate to being spiritually advanced enough to read your thoughts.
You're extremely paranoid and refuse to fix it. The only problem here is you. Not excepting that you have an issue and still whining about it won't help anything. Ignore this one too if you want but people have been trying to help. Seriously, do some healing.

 

[SouthCentralBum]

I can guarantee that, if you're doing rtrs and returning curses along with regular void meditation, your soul is fine. However you're still extremely paranoid which you desperately need to fix. Nobody hears your thoughts, no random people speak to you telepathically on a daily basis, and not all random people on the streets have their astral senses open to do those things in the first place.
Anyone who responds to this person should take a look at their past posts first if anyone knows how to help. I can't tell if they're trolling at this point, because they've argued with people trying to help in the past, insisting that everyone is so open that they hear and respond to this kid's thoughts telepathically, despite us trying to convince them otherwise. Either trolling or intense delusions I'd think.

Our experiences differ. I live in LA where being "woke" is nothing special. In fact people think you're retarded if you don't know how to control your mind. I'm not saying 100% of people know but I'm saying it's not anything special if you do. This is extremely excruciating for me as I am one of those "retarded" people. I was always a smart kid but I was always told to use my head and to think. By everyone. So eventually I went from smart kid to dumb 18 year old who can't control his mind because he "woke up" to late.im not a troll im legit struggling and it's embarrassing

You're completely wrong. Do you think you're the only person here who lives in/near LA? I've literally said this to you over and over in each bs post you make that most people in LA aren't ss or anywhere close to having self control. And self control does not equate to being spiritually advanced enough to read your thoughts.
You're extremely paranoid and refuse to fix it. The only problem here is you. Not excepting that you have an issue and still whining about it won't help anything. Ignore this one too if you want but people have been trying to help. Seriously, do some healing.

Thanks for your help, I agree I have a problem and I need to face it. I will continue my workings.