logicalmind
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I would like to present myself in this community. I have found this community a couple of weeks ago, and I am still studying all of the material found here, and already performing some practices. Also, sermons here for me sound miraculous.
My path towards this was the following. First, I was brainwashed and deluded with the only difference that since childhood Adolf Hitler for me was somehow attractive as a person, leader somehow. People around me were able to hate him without any reason. I also believed in the holohoax, but I was able to reason like that: "Maybe he had good reasons to get rid of those six millions jews? Maybe he had to in order to ensure Germany's survival which would be the obligation of any sane leader to do in such a case". After lots of years from my childhood, I finally got to the truth that so-called holocaust is a huge lie in order to blame millions of Germans and to justify their mass killings, rape, torture, and other atrocities. This is how I became pro-White, pro-NS, and started immersing myself into knowledge about National Socialism, White Identity, and so on.
On the religious point, I hated xianity (as far as I understand, christianity is called xianity here, so I will keep this also here). Why? Because I did not experience any spiritual advancements myself even if I felt that I have something in myself. Also, I was baptized against my will. Then, I was forced to take communion which I did not want to take. And finally I experienced this religion as lying, devaluing humans, genocidal, hateful explicitly to our people. When I knew better history and I knew about the inquisitions, torture and burnings of millions of humans (and best quality ones, not some rapists, murderers, and so on), my hate towards xianity became even bigger. At this point, for most people it is to become atheists. I thought of being an atheist for some time, but somehow this did not click to me at all. I did not feel spiritually fulfilled through atheism as somehow it looked to me way too little to be just "meat and bones". I thought about myself. I am so much more than my physical body.
So this is the reason why I tried a couple of "new age" movements which did not click at all to me also (this was way before coming to NS and pro-White circles as coming to those circles happened after, and I knew that "new age" is a spiritual subversion of the jewish power structure and parts working to it). My own character is not that I want to "love everyone". I always wanted to help those who are worthy of my help in my opinion. And love for me was something much more than promoting "unconditional love" bullshit. I believe that even my hate is something people should deserve, so with love it is even more explicit and special.
But most religions here teach us to "love everyone". Imagine a woman that is being raped. According to xianity, she should love the rapist, and suggest him to take in another position during the rape. Is it normal? Of course not. Or imagine someone killing your loved one. So I pretty much always believed the following. To love those who hate you is the same as hating those who love you.
So why should I love unconditionally if I do not receive this back myself? And also wouldn't this humiliate another person who loves you, is worthy of your love, and you just give the love to everyone else no matter their worth? Somehow, it did not feel right to me. So various forms of spirituality did not click to me, because of my own ego maybe? Maybe so, but now I see that maybe I have more sense than most people around me, and I do not want to share everything I have with anyone. I definitely want to do whatever I can in order to improve humanity, but this radical spiritual syphilis does not seem a way to improve humanity.
History proves this perfectly. Xianity had more than 2000 years to bring heaven to this world, but instead it brought terror, suffering, burnings, human sacrifices, misery, and degeneracy. I know my ego is not perfect, but it does not mean I have to sacrifice everything that makes me human, so I would be "accepted" in the eyes of some fake loser who dares to call himself a "god". In my understanding, the real God must be much more powerful, much more balanced instead of some shithead that hates me for who I am! If sacrifice is really necessary, I think it should be done in order to improve yourself and people around you who are worthy of this instead of becoming even more degenerate than you and other people already are.
So after "new age" and bs spirituality which was a short phase for me was the discovery of Adolf Hitler for the person he really was. Immediately, I was able to understand and feel at once that he was not just a political leader, but actually a person who achieved a level where he was able to take something from above. But I was unsure what was above. God? Providence? And then I came here (my coming here feels for me like I was invited by some spiritual being), and I think now I understand who inspired Adolf Hitler.
Also, the reason for searching for new ways of spirituality was that I wanted to be able to do something about this jewish, non-White problem that plagues our planet. I saw that I will do whatever I can to improve myself no matter what. Basically, I came to the situation where I did not care if some real spirituality exists or not. I was not even afraid to burn in actual hell for all eternity even if that filthy Yashua would exist and have some power to do something to me after my death or in this life. Conviction became so great that I knew I would do anything I can to be a better husband to my wife, a better father to my children, and eventually accumulate as much power as I can in order to do at least one single step towards ensuring the survival of the White race, no matter how small this step would be.
So now I am here. I practiced some of the meditations, rituals already, learned some practices. To put it simply, the results are astonishing. It seems that this is real, and I want to go even further regarding this path.
Finally, thank you for reading this long text and I am grateful I have found such an awesome community. I hope to be a part of this community, too.
My path towards this was the following. First, I was brainwashed and deluded with the only difference that since childhood Adolf Hitler for me was somehow attractive as a person, leader somehow. People around me were able to hate him without any reason. I also believed in the holohoax, but I was able to reason like that: "Maybe he had good reasons to get rid of those six millions jews? Maybe he had to in order to ensure Germany's survival which would be the obligation of any sane leader to do in such a case". After lots of years from my childhood, I finally got to the truth that so-called holocaust is a huge lie in order to blame millions of Germans and to justify their mass killings, rape, torture, and other atrocities. This is how I became pro-White, pro-NS, and started immersing myself into knowledge about National Socialism, White Identity, and so on.
On the religious point, I hated xianity (as far as I understand, christianity is called xianity here, so I will keep this also here). Why? Because I did not experience any spiritual advancements myself even if I felt that I have something in myself. Also, I was baptized against my will. Then, I was forced to take communion which I did not want to take. And finally I experienced this religion as lying, devaluing humans, genocidal, hateful explicitly to our people. When I knew better history and I knew about the inquisitions, torture and burnings of millions of humans (and best quality ones, not some rapists, murderers, and so on), my hate towards xianity became even bigger. At this point, for most people it is to become atheists. I thought of being an atheist for some time, but somehow this did not click to me at all. I did not feel spiritually fulfilled through atheism as somehow it looked to me way too little to be just "meat and bones". I thought about myself. I am so much more than my physical body.
So this is the reason why I tried a couple of "new age" movements which did not click at all to me also (this was way before coming to NS and pro-White circles as coming to those circles happened after, and I knew that "new age" is a spiritual subversion of the jewish power structure and parts working to it). My own character is not that I want to "love everyone". I always wanted to help those who are worthy of my help in my opinion. And love for me was something much more than promoting "unconditional love" bullshit. I believe that even my hate is something people should deserve, so with love it is even more explicit and special.
But most religions here teach us to "love everyone". Imagine a woman that is being raped. According to xianity, she should love the rapist, and suggest him to take in another position during the rape. Is it normal? Of course not. Or imagine someone killing your loved one. So I pretty much always believed the following. To love those who hate you is the same as hating those who love you.
So why should I love unconditionally if I do not receive this back myself? And also wouldn't this humiliate another person who loves you, is worthy of your love, and you just give the love to everyone else no matter their worth? Somehow, it did not feel right to me. So various forms of spirituality did not click to me, because of my own ego maybe? Maybe so, but now I see that maybe I have more sense than most people around me, and I do not want to share everything I have with anyone. I definitely want to do whatever I can in order to improve humanity, but this radical spiritual syphilis does not seem a way to improve humanity.
History proves this perfectly. Xianity had more than 2000 years to bring heaven to this world, but instead it brought terror, suffering, burnings, human sacrifices, misery, and degeneracy. I know my ego is not perfect, but it does not mean I have to sacrifice everything that makes me human, so I would be "accepted" in the eyes of some fake loser who dares to call himself a "god". In my understanding, the real God must be much more powerful, much more balanced instead of some shithead that hates me for who I am! If sacrifice is really necessary, I think it should be done in order to improve yourself and people around you who are worthy of this instead of becoming even more degenerate than you and other people already are.
So after "new age" and bs spirituality which was a short phase for me was the discovery of Adolf Hitler for the person he really was. Immediately, I was able to understand and feel at once that he was not just a political leader, but actually a person who achieved a level where he was able to take something from above. But I was unsure what was above. God? Providence? And then I came here (my coming here feels for me like I was invited by some spiritual being), and I think now I understand who inspired Adolf Hitler.
Also, the reason for searching for new ways of spirituality was that I wanted to be able to do something about this jewish, non-White problem that plagues our planet. I saw that I will do whatever I can to improve myself no matter what. Basically, I came to the situation where I did not care if some real spirituality exists or not. I was not even afraid to burn in actual hell for all eternity even if that filthy Yashua would exist and have some power to do something to me after my death or in this life. Conviction became so great that I knew I would do anything I can to be a better husband to my wife, a better father to my children, and eventually accumulate as much power as I can in order to do at least one single step towards ensuring the survival of the White race, no matter how small this step would be.
So now I am here. I practiced some of the meditations, rituals already, learned some practices. To put it simply, the results are astonishing. It seems that this is real, and I want to go even further regarding this path.
Finally, thank you for reading this long text and I am grateful I have found such an awesome community. I hope to be a part of this community, too.
