How to remove throbbing from Heart chakra

[JeraOpus]

I get extreme throbbing in my chest from my childhood abuse and a girl who left to another town.
My parents get pleasure in controlling me but I don’t want to be controlled.
Yesterday i told my abusive mother to not get near me and stay on sofa, she didn’t listen and did it anyways so I kicked her and she ran at me teying me slap me but stopped and sat on the sofa I held her and forced her out of the room and locked it,
In the evening she came again and asked me for tea, I refused then while i told her to leave room and never come again, she said “What is in this room anyways” I said “Yes there’s nothing now leave”

I am really stuck in life, thoughts, feeling sensing, paranoia attacking me and I have thought ending life is much easier but what’s the point i will suffer like this in the next life.
Doing yoga and square bring more pain and insecurities out and it’s really painful.

 

[Padme]

The Heart Chakra connects three feminine chakras, known as the upper chakras, and three masculine chakras, known as the lower chakras. A blockage in the Heart Chakra can prevent a person from feeling whole, potentially leading to depression and similar issues (depression can also stem from blockages in the Solar and Sacral Chakras). Additionally, the inability to establish a connection between the masculine and feminine energies can sometimes lead to issues such as transgenderism or excessive femininity and masculinity. To remove blockages in the Heart Chakra, meditations are available on the JoS website.

https://joyofsatan.org/The_Chakras.htm

lhttps://joyofsatan.org/Chakra_Alignment.html

Complete Chakra Meditation 666

Opening the Soul 666

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I get extreme throbbing in my chest from my childhood abuse and a girl who left to another town.
My parents get pleasure in controlling me but I don’t want to be controlled.
Yesterday i told my abusive mother to not get near me and stay on sofa, she didn’t listen and did it anyways so I kicked her and she ran at me teying me slap me but stopped and sat on the sofa I held her and forced her out of the room and locked it,
In the evening she came again and asked me for tea, I refused then while i told her to leave room and never come again, she said “What is in this room anyways” I said “Yes there’s nothing now leave”

I am really stuck in life, thoughts, feeling sensing, paranoia attacking me and I have thought ending life is much easier but what’s the point i will suffer like this in the next life.
Doing yoga and square bring more pain and insecurities out and it’s really painful.

I highly recommend you read here:

Healing the Emotional Body (for men too, don’t disregard this)

You have your physical body, soul, astral body, mental body, and more. The Emotional Body is the part of the soul that can be damaged when you experience emotional trauma, grief, bereavement, abandonment, and so on. Many people have emotional outbursts, immature reactions, trigger episodes...

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This should solve most of the internal problems.