Heres my situation: everyone i know is christian. they found out i was satanic and they started forcing all the xian shit in my head, it didnt work i still put them and there "god" down in the ground like a dead object. well then they started thinking of others ways of how to capture me....and they figured it out, they said i would never be able to see my siblings(who i love and care about alot) if i stayed satanic. so i started reading the bible in all(everytime i read it it disgusts me so much) but i do it for the love of my sisters n brother.
but i feel as if im looseing father(i dont want that to happen) while doing this.
so what should i do? say "fine i wont see my family then if yall want to be asshole xians and once there old nuff to understand jus hope they hate you for not letting me see them"? or take the risk of looseing father(i really really dont want that)?
ever since i been doin this xian shit to make people happy i been so much more depressed, angry and alot of other bad feelings. i dont want to loose father but i love and care for my siblings alot but i dont like how i feel being xian. i hate xians.
Hail Father Satan!
but i feel as if im looseing father(i dont want that to happen) while doing this.
so what should i do? say "fine i wont see my family then if yall want to be asshole xians and once there old nuff to understand jus hope they hate you for not letting me see them"? or take the risk of looseing father(i really really dont want that)?
ever since i been doin this xian shit to make people happy i been so much more depressed, angry and alot of other bad feelings. i dont want to loose father but i love and care for my siblings alot but i dont like how i feel being xian. i hate xians.
Hail Father Satan!