Alura
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- Joined
- Nov 14, 2017
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- 16
situation in my house is... terrible. really. my mother have new boyfriend, she didn’t help me financialy in almost year, so it’s hard to me. they are plotting against me with my uncle, his wife and daughter. they’re telling so much lies that all i do is cry, because it’s so disgusting. my grandfather and grandmother are living with us and i can’t get help from them either. granddad is standing with them and yesterday i found out that my grandma (the only person i trusted in this house) was telling them everything that i’m doing. i am alone. my dad with his girlfriend and my little stepsister are living in the netherland but i can’t trust them 100%. my dad tends to promise me things and then do nothing so...
i’m feeling like shit, because they were telling that i am one, that i am nothing etc. i’m only 19 and i graduated high school, i’m going to collage. i can do everything, i’m young and they... i’m really sensitive person and it’s too much. because of this quarrels i wanted to kill myself many times. even now i want to do it, but i’m scared that they will find out all my satanic things - crystals, athame, tarot cards, runed etc. and they will be saying awful things about me even if i’m dead... for a week i was putting on my uncle and his family destructive energy to fuck up their lives but it takes time. i need to get rid of my mother and her boyfriend. i don’t want to kill them but i want them to feel what i felt and just stay away from my house. when the situation was awful and they were arguing, i was feeling like they can hurt me phisically and i was telling my guardian demon to help me. but nothing happened. i did destruction ritual on my mom’s boyfriend and nothing. i did binding spell on my mother so she couldn’t plot against me, but... nothing. i think i have no faith, hope or... power. i don’t know why the universe put me in this sick family. it’s a madness. and even gods left me. what can i do in this situation? i know that by the time it will be worse and worse. i need to do something fast. please, help me. i want to have peaceful life, normal family and dedicate myself fully to satan.
i’m feeling like shit, because they were telling that i am one, that i am nothing etc. i’m only 19 and i graduated high school, i’m going to collage. i can do everything, i’m young and they... i’m really sensitive person and it’s too much. because of this quarrels i wanted to kill myself many times. even now i want to do it, but i’m scared that they will find out all my satanic things - crystals, athame, tarot cards, runed etc. and they will be saying awful things about me even if i’m dead... for a week i was putting on my uncle and his family destructive energy to fuck up their lives but it takes time. i need to get rid of my mother and her boyfriend. i don’t want to kill them but i want them to feel what i felt and just stay away from my house. when the situation was awful and they were arguing, i was feeling like they can hurt me phisically and i was telling my guardian demon to help me. but nothing happened. i did destruction ritual on my mom’s boyfriend and nothing. i did binding spell on my mother so she couldn’t plot against me, but... nothing. i think i have no faith, hope or... power. i don’t know why the universe put me in this sick family. it’s a madness. and even gods left me. what can i do in this situation? i know that by the time it will be worse and worse. i need to do something fast. please, help me. i want to have peaceful life, normal family and dedicate myself fully to satan.