SATANGODLOVETHOTH140666 said:
I wouldn't have much to add since HPHC has given a fairly complete answer, but I can tell you about some parts of my experience.
Drugs were part of my life and part of me, alcohol I didn't use that much also because I mainly liked hard liquor because it gave me an instant effect like drugs.
Alcohol I used very little because every time I ended up really sick, aches, headaches, vomiting and other strange feelings and tastes.
The main problem was marijuana or smoking, those made me feel "good" and took me into a world of illusions where I had a different perception of the world.
I always had an attitude of looking for something different, while the old "friendships" were just mainstream, sour and spoiled.
Because of my attitude I became interested in esoteric topics, and fortunately or found JoS as the first site for information.
Otherwise I would have joined something like judaism, although from an early age I hated jews for no apparent reason, and I was also the one targeted most by deeply sour people or gypsies. Here I see a patern.
I then began to read and then later to practice some meditation.
For a period I would maintain a routine and for another period of a few months I would drift off and do nothing, only to return punctually.
Until one day I went all the way and decided to devote myself (I was already participating in rituals but lacked this seriousness intake).
My life from here took another (better) turn, until one day I came across a post here on the forum that explained that pot and other substances are harmful and prevent any spiritual progress.
Maybe it was that:
https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=23870
Here I was faced with a difficult (traumatic) choice, which was to stop drugs.
I analyzed the two paths in front of me, and I saw that with pot I would never move forward, while with Satanism taken seriously I would achieve something.
So I started a period where I didn't smoke anymore (with alcohol I didn't have who knows how many problems, since it was just the nasty substitute when I couldn't smoke), then I went out with "friends" and I was in disappointment as to why I didn't smoke, how could I not smoke? It was part of me.
I went home after that mistake and decided not to go out again.
Here we can see the important step number 2, which is to eliminate contact with other toxic people.
Time goes by and within 1-2 weeks I felt different, lighter and purified.
Time goes on and I eliminated it and kept it out of my life for 2 years.
The more time passed, the more satisfied I was that I didn't fall into it again, sometimes I even had dreams where I fell into it and thought I had succumbed, but then I woke up and found I was still standing.
Contact with the Gods was crucial during that time is still crucial today.
I have made spirituality and progress my drug, and it makes me happy fulfilled and edifies me.
Of course, I found that the body needs certain urges, such as being in contact with nature or interacting with someone.
Total isolation is not healthy, you just need to eliminate toxic people and toxic habits and replace them.
Essentially it is a path where you make a decision and carry it out.
Celebrate small milestones and cultivate a sense of control and self-confidence as well.
Set yourself goals and reach them step by step.
You'll get to a level where you won't care about alcohol, because you'll be engaged in nobler and higher practices, and you'll be at a level where you can't relapse again.
Now I will add a second experience, namely the use of substances such as marijuana and smoking as SS.
I will start by saying that I was in a confused period with an unstable mindset, there were periods when I did not see the light of the Sun for days.
What I was also doing was clinging to past illusions of happiness and leisure, until one day I fell back into weed.
The "friendships" were no longer what I remembered and perhaps never had been, these people had only gotten worse and more plastic, this also in contrast to my progress.
Weed and smoking appealed to me to bring me back to a sense of lightness.
But this lightness was not that of meditation, but it was as if you were missing a part of your body or soul.
At the end of the day I would feel sick and it would make me go back with the progress.
When I was in this state my mind was foggy and I felt like meditating or doing something to advance, it was literally the highest thing I could aspire to, my hidden Sun.
The next day I felt hurt and felt my mind was inhibited, so I did the Valefor ritual to heal, and it had fantastic results.
I returned to feeling full and no longer feeling the painful chakras that bring you down (mainly 2nd and 3rd).
I had more relapses, periodically every 2-3 months, until I gave it up for good.
It was at night and I had just smoked, no illusory benefit, just inhibited mind and a bad smell.
After eating a larger amount of food, I found myself in bed with a strong piercing pain eating me from within (especially at the 3rd chakra), I could not breathe normally, I had to take small, calculated breaths to avoid feeling pain.
The feeling was very similar to when you are drunk and you have to vomit.
Everything sucked, and I decided to give up that poison for good.
I got up again, again thanks to rituals of the Gods, especially Valefor's ritual for healing, and I intensified or made more serious progress after the first JoS pdf came out.
Now I am in a much more optimal situation.
In my opinion the more advanced and sensitive you are the more you feel and suffer from these poisons.
Even if you are not sensitive and don't feel it, you are suffering deep damage.
From my experience there is much to learn.
Eliminate negative karmic seeds, completely cut off conscious and unconscious connections and influences with junkies, delinquents and damaged souls in general.
Always do aura cleansing and aura protection.
Keep your energies high with Yoga and chakra rotation.
And don't give in to low-level impulses driven by your lower self and remaining delusions (an example might be porn or drugs).
Or pay the consequences; the laws of the universe will show no mercy.
And never give up on life, you have the ability to overcome it.
If you persist and strike like a battering ram, sooner or later you will win.
You also see this in spiritual warfare, no matter how much resistance the enemy has, sooner or later he will fall.
You have to develop your own characteristics of "menos" and remain steadfast and convinced in your mission.
For liberation try the Munka mantra or a combination of Ansuz and Sowilo or even Uruz, for a Sun number, such as 36, 74, 100, 111, 130, 216, etc.
For cleansing use the mantra Surya, Vissudi or Raum (also good for purification qualities), for a Sun number.
Also for cleansing you can use Lydia's technique which is very effective.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=255935#p255935
Use the Ritual of Valefor for healing and also use the other rituals of the Gods for edification.
www.evilgoy.com
Yoga is also very pleasant and uplifting.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=295184
Get your ideas in order and organized, also keep in mind the "karmic chain" one event can activate another (e.g., porn causes you to be depressed, depression causes you to do drugs, and drugs causes you to use porn).
Negative karmic chains need to be eliminated.
This post I did a while back may come in handy:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=69854&hilit=Verit%C3%A0_666+Reminder+for+new+members
I hope my experiences and advice can help you and anyone else who has these or similar problems.
I would especially like to thank Valefor, Gods and my partner for supporting me and standing by me during these times, and also Joy of Satan for the knowledge provided.
For anyone who has similar problems and is willing to solve them, the Gods and the Joy of Satan community are always available to help and support.
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