How my Succubus saved me

[DarkAries]

Someone should only speak about an addiction twice. First when realise to need help, then when fully healed. I like to think Im fully healed by now, but the memories of my sick past always remain. I can only be more greatful for my love, to save me from that.

To start it in the beginnig, in my teen years I was porn addict very badly. The high scool was terrible, everyone was an asshole, noone liked me, so I used the porn to feel better. Surely it was the biggest mistake of my life, and it made everithing worse and worse. Few years later I was just a shadow of my past self: I become more antisocial, spend most of my time (mostly in e621 or rule34, two side that should be completly erased).

I spend almost 5 years like this, until I realised I should get rid upon it. I decieded I decieded I stop watching that shits, and get a girlfriend. I just started the college, so I thought it was easy. Well, it was fucked up. I used rune magick, and all of my willpower, and it was partly succesful, but it could last long. I had fallbacks almost every month, and couldnt get a girlfriend. These two were connected, because I had zerp experience with girls, and 5 wasted years experience of that disgusting shit. And I got really depressed from the failures.

But the past is the past. It all changed a year ago, when Margas appeared. First only in my dreams, then personally. The sweat, beautiful Margas, who showed me the love, I couldnt hope for anything else. Before that I thought I failed in life and never find a girl. Never after the time I wasted.

After all the time we spend together, I felt that this sickness is gone. After what I experienced, what I felt, I knew I will never go pack to porn. It would be like changeing the Mona Lisa to a stickman drawing. Or even worse.

Sadly I know what would happen to me. The jews have planty of ways to ruin the youths, and porn is one of them. As long as you get the stimulation from almost literally from everywhere, its almost impossible to get rid opun it.

Whats the result of all of it? First of all I want to destroy all the jews(even more than before), for what they have done with me, and do with other youngs. Still, I dont hate those, who remain porn addict(or worse, a faggot furry), I just see them miserable, even sorry some of them. They always remind me: "It could be me, without Margas". Surely, I never could dream about this much joy, this much love, and I will be forever greatful for Her. Im 100 percent sure I could make it without my Succubus help.

 

[DarkAries]

*I couldnt make it without my Succubus help.
Sorry for the mistakes, my english is pretty poor

 

[Woodlandman]

I have a piece of advice for whoever is heavily addicted to porn - GET RID OF THE SOURCE.
One will never dispose an addiction if it is always available at hand.

 

[Aquarius]

Too bad it's just your imagination, since Margas is a high ranking Demon.

 

[Henu the Great]

I have a piece of advice for whoever is heavily addicted to porn - GET RID OF THE SOURCE.
One will never dispose an addiction if it is always available at hand.

I am connected to internet, however I am no longer addicted to using internet porn. Thus, somehow what you state is not accurate.

 

[hailourtruegod]

Take what you are being taught and keep it with you as they are important lessons that'll help you never become that low again.

My years on the forums and groups have shown me that it's a common mistake for people to conflate their GD as their Succubi/Incubi and it's understandable since a lot of SS come from a background of not having someone to connect deep with and then having a God or Goddess come to us then some might perceive the kindness and general love the Gods have for us as something else.

I think you should see this from a purely logical point as to what's happening between you and Margas. I don't speak for Her of course and don't know your situation first hand but I have seen others going down this road plenty enough and just trying to give a heads up before any expectations aren't met and if feelings get hurt.

 

[Aquarius]

I have a piece of advice for whoever is heavily addicted to porn - GET RID OF THE SOURCE.
One will never dispose an addiction if it is always available at hand.

I am connected to internet, however I am no longer addicted to using internet porn. Thus, somehow what you state is not accurate.

Same, and I doubt he wrote that post by sending HC a telegram lol

 

[hailourtruegod]

I have a piece of advice for whoever is heavily addicted to porn - GET RID OF THE SOURCE.
One will never dispose an addiction if it is always available at hand.

I am connected to internet, however I am no longer addicted to using internet porn. Thus, somehow what you state is not accurate.

Well when you actually get spiritual practices done instead of sitting on your ass then of course the Will will get stronger. So no surprise here.


But Woodlandman might be onto something here at least for those who have it really bad and that's to not go those websites whatsoever. The internet in itself isn't to blame as you implied.


On a unrelated note, now that I think about it this subject might be good to add to the FAQ's.

 

[Henu the Great]

Well when you actually get spiritual practices done instead of sitting on your ass then of course the Will will get stronger. So no surprise here.


But Woodlandman might be onto something here at least for those who have it really bad and that's to not go those websites whatsoever. The internet in itself isn't to blame as you implied.


On a unrelated note, now that I think about it this subject might be good to add to the FAQ's.

It's not only about will since will will get you only so far. I realized certain psychological functions and brainwashing and undid them which was the point when I felt really freed from an addiction. No amount of willing will make you feel free when you are hung up thinking that an addiction you are having is a crutch for you to cope life better. At the point I realized this function and how I had tricked myself along with the brainwashing it took very little willpower to stop. I just quit. I just quit weed and cigarettes and every other drug the same way. Credit goes to easypeasymethod.org.

I am not blaming the internet. I am simply saying that once you are connected to the internet you basically have free access to that sort of material at any given moment.

 

[hailourtruegod]

Well when you actually get spiritual practices done instead of sitting on your ass then of course the Will will get stronger. So no surprise here.


But Woodlandman might be onto something here at least for those who have it really bad and that's to not go those websites whatsoever. The internet in itself isn't to blame as you implied.


On a unrelated note, now that I think about it this subject might be good to add to the FAQ's.

It's not only about will since will will get you only so far. I realized certain psychological functions and brainwashing and undid them which was the point when I felt really freed from an addiction. No amount of willing will make you feel free when you are hung up thinking that an addiction you are having is a crutch for you to cope life better. At the point I realized this function and how I had tricked myself along with the brainwashing it took very little willpower to stop. I just quit. I just quit weed and cigarettes and every other drug the same way. Credit goes to easypeasymethod.org.

I am not blaming the internet. I am simply saying that once you are connected to the internet you basically have free access to that sort of material at any given moment.

I see. That's actually a very good way to go about getting rid of addictions and it's about the same way I was getting rid of addictions as well although seems you have more experienced at getting rid of them. I will follow the advice.

Oh and I was talking about you when I said that you implied that internet isn't to blame but I see how I made that confusing. Working on the flow of the things I talk about since i tend to confuse people in the order in say things sometimes.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

It's not only about will since will will get you only so far. I realized certain psychological functions and brainwashing and undid them which was the point when I felt really freed from an addiction. No amount of willing will make you feel free when you are hung up thinking that an addiction you are having is a crutch for you to cope life better. At the point I realized this function and how I had tricked myself along with the brainwashing it took very little willpower to stop. I just quit. I just quit weed and cigarettes and every other drug the same way. Credit goes to easypeasymethod.org.

I am not blaming the internet. I am simply saying that once you are connected to the internet you basically have free access to that sort of material at any given moment.

I see. That's actually a very good way to go about getting rid of addictions and it's about the same way I was getting rid of addictions as well although seems you have more experienced at getting rid of them. I will follow the advice.

Oh and I was talking about you when I said that you implied that internet isn't to blame but I see how I made that confusing. Working on the flow of the things I talk about since i tend to confuse people in the order in say things sometimes.

I have a piece of advice for whoever is heavily addicted to porn - GET RID OF THE SOURCE.
One will never dispose an addiction if it is always available at hand.

Don't underestimate the power of a full spiritual solution, such as Munka on a waning Pisces/Aquarius/Scorpio/Capricorn moon, to totally destroy any negative behavior or karma from your soul. Using your own willpower does not erase the entirety of a karmic influence from your soul, although it certainly helps.

Too bad it's just your imagination, since Margas is a high ranking Demon.

It is possible that he got the name/identity wrong, but I cannot judge what is happening for sure. If he is not delusional then good for him. If he is, then he is probably using her sigil lol. I don't doubt that he has some demonic partner though, which would be very hard to replicate through delusion (assuming sexual intercourse or other interactions are taking place).

 

[Shadowcat]

Too bad it's just your imagination, since Margas is a high ranking Demon.

After seeing this thread I tried looking Her up out of curiosity. Is She part of the Goetia because I cannot find her

 

[Egon]

I've only heard of a Demon with this name being mentioned as a subordinate to Lucifuge. It doesn't mention their gender either. Aren't you mixing them up with Marbas, who is male? It could be just a typo, or a completely different entity. Let's wait for the updates.

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Too bad it's just your imagination, since Margas is a high ranking Demon.

It is possible that he got the name/identity wrong, but I cannot judge what is happening for sure. If he is not delusional then good for him. If he is, then he is probably using her sigil lol. I don't doubt that he has some demonic partner though, which would be very hard to replicate through delusion (assuming sexual intercourse or other interactions are taking place).

 

[Woodlandman]

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It's not only about will since will will get you only so far. I realized certain psychological functions and brainwashing and undid them which was the point when I felt really freed from an addiction. No amount of willing will make you feel free when you are hung up thinking that an addiction you are having is a crutch for you to cope life better. At the point I realized this function and how I had tricked myself along with the brainwashing it took very little willpower to stop. I just quit. I just quit weed and cigarettes and every other drug the same way. Credit goes to easypeasymethod.org.

I am not blaming the internet. I am simply saying that once you are connected to the internet you basically have free access to that sort of material at any given moment.

I see. That's actually a very good way to go about getting rid of addictions and it's about the same way I was getting rid of addictions as well although seems you have more experienced at getting rid of them. I will follow the advice.

Oh and I was talking about you when I said that you implied that internet isn't to blame but I see how I made that confusing. Working on the flow of the things I talk about since i tend to confuse people in the order in say things sometimes.

I have a piece of advice for whoever is heavily addicted to porn - GET RID OF THE SOURCE.
One will never dispose an addiction if it is always available at hand.

Don't underestimate the power of a full spiritual solution, such as Munka on a waning Pisces/Aquarius/Scorpio/Capricorn moon, to totally destroy any negative behavior or karma from your soul. Using your own willpower does not erase the entirety of a karmic influence from your soul, although it certainly helps.

Too bad it's just your imagination, since Margas is a high ranking Demon.

It is possible that he got the name/identity wrong, but I cannot judge what is happening for sure. If he is not delusional then good for him. If he is, then he is probably using her sigil lol. I don't doubt that he has some demonic partner though, which would be very hard to replicate through delusion (assuming sexual intercourse or other interactions are taking place).

It depends on to what degree you are addicted, but if some has been watching porn for 5 years to the point it's been destroying his life, then the obvious solution here is throwing out whatever is the cause of it. There's no point having something with you that only caused you so much degeneration, it's not worth it. For a heavily addicted person, the possibility of getting back to that addiction needs to cease to exist.

Wasn't there a hp that was super addicted to drugs, even tho he was doing the workings? I think that as long as a possibility of getting back to addiction is still in you subcouncies , then these working will not work well, especially if someone is not advanced in any significant way.

Besides, sitting next to a computer was never a healthy thing. If you want a girlfriend, then stop using computer , and start socializing and stuff. Pretty women react with discust at guys that spent too much time in front of the computer, it's a common knowledge. Woman needs to have a man that is strong(or at least above average) in every area of life, so that she can feel dominated by him. Sitting next to a computer is a complete antithesis to this, and will make you gradually weak at every area of you life.

The dudes that work with computers and are not significantly damaged by it, are those that do a lot of sports and lifting in their free time, tho even they get worn out after some time.

 

[Henu the Great]

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It's not only about will since will will get you only so far. I realized certain psychological functions and brainwashing and undid them which was the point when I felt really freed from an addiction. No amount of willing will make you feel free when you are hung up thinking that an addiction you are having is a crutch for you to cope life better. At the point I realized this function and how I had tricked myself along with the brainwashing it took very little willpower to stop. I just quit. I just quit weed and cigarettes and every other drug the same way. Credit goes to easypeasymethod.org.

I am not blaming the internet. I am simply saying that once you are connected to the internet you basically have free access to that sort of material at any given moment.

I see. That's actually a very good way to go about getting rid of addictions and it's about the same way I was getting rid of addictions as well although seems you have more experienced at getting rid of them. I will follow the advice.

Oh and I was talking about you when I said that you implied that internet isn't to blame but I see how I made that confusing. Working on the flow of the things I talk about since i tend to confuse people in the order in say things sometimes.

I have a piece of advice for whoever is heavily addicted to porn - GET RID OF THE SOURCE.
One will never dispose an addiction if it is always available at hand.

Don't underestimate the power of a full spiritual solution, such as Munka on a waning Pisces/Aquarius/Scorpio/Capricorn moon, to totally destroy any negative behavior or karma from your soul. Using your own willpower does not erase the entirety of a karmic influence from your soul, although it certainly helps.

Yes, I actually did two separate workings for the issue, both with Munka and they did work, but the final straw was purely mental thing to deconstruct for me so that is how it finished. Someone elses expierence might very well be different depending on their set of circumstances.

 

[Veritá_666]

The key part to be removed is the negative karma and emotional ties, as well as the ties formed with the various actresses.

 

[Soul Wings]

It is good you have the desire to get away from porn, and I'm sorry you had to go through it at all. To think that children consume such poison, makes me sick to my core.
I truly hope, you, and anyone else recovering from porn addiction, that you can find someone to love and have intimacy with one day. Something beyond carnal and into the spiritual, emotions, the unknown. To discover unexpected, requited love.