random_lurker
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so... um.. i dont want to sound rude or anything. i want to state this.but...
is there a way to figure out wich side am i supposed to be on? i feel like i getting signs from both side... (or just my imagination is vivid.)
i left Christianity at the age of 13 because love was too much for me. i dont like the too peaceful ideology. but because of this im also starting to doubt if Satanism is for me. how i found Satanism was - if memory serves- that i wanted to destroy someone with a curse... whatever. it might not matter.
i find Satanism... "calling" if that makes sence. but on the other hand, i allways find myself being surrounded with jews. and they are supportive... mostly.
so um.. is there a ritual to ask Satan if im supposed to be here... or maybe im one of the "jews" (well i dont have jewish bloodline as far as i know...) for the first time in my life, im doubtting myself, and it's freakin not pleasant. i could use some guidance i guess.
is there a way to figure out wich side am i supposed to be on? i feel like i getting signs from both side... (or just my imagination is vivid.)
i left Christianity at the age of 13 because love was too much for me. i dont like the too peaceful ideology. but because of this im also starting to doubt if Satanism is for me. how i found Satanism was - if memory serves- that i wanted to destroy someone with a curse... whatever. it might not matter.
i find Satanism... "calling" if that makes sence. but on the other hand, i allways find myself being surrounded with jews. and they are supportive... mostly.
so um.. is there a ritual to ask Satan if im supposed to be here... or maybe im one of the "jews" (well i dont have jewish bloodline as far as i know...) for the first time in my life, im doubtting myself, and it's freakin not pleasant. i could use some guidance i guess.