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HP. Hoodedcobra666 said:
I see, thanks for the reply.
On what level of advencment one has to be to be able to regrow glands?
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I see, thanks for the reply.
On what level of advencment one has to be to be able to regrow glands?
This post struck me really hard. I remember how I was in the past(years ago) when I had advanced far, I remember myself looking back on previous selfs and thinking "Fuck, I sure have come a long way from there", I remember growing as a person and looking back on myself from a literal month and being amazed by the change in myself.
I am back on the path now and advancing again, I had gotten myself into some bad shit and destroyed my foundation, and everything crumbled, all of the things I had built crumbled the moment I destroyed my foundation.
I can see, for the past two or so years I have done nothing but be stuck in an endless loop, and part of that was because I was refusing to learn, I had been stuck with the idea that I was the same person I was before, the same me who had a solid foundation and a skyscraper, who was improving every single day and looked back every month and was shocked how much I had changed.
In fact, for the past two years I haven't had a single moment like that in the past, where I would look back and say, "fuck was that me?" and be shocked by my transformation. It was just today that I realized I need to stop trying to move forward as if I was the me of the past, the only thing this leads to is disappointment, because, honestly, I just don't have the knowledge, the willpower, or the mindpower to do the things I was able to do, yet it took me so long to grasp this simple concept.
Another thing I realized today is that Satan and his Gods have never left me. In fact, for a long time I had been so miserable, I had thought that Satan had left me. But, Satan and his Gods have never left me, in reality it was me who left them. I had deadvanced and haven't been able to notice them, and then, I would advance for some time and start to feel their presence, but I would stop meditating and then they would leave again.
I had thought that I had to prove myself, that I had to advance for the Gods to care and to notice me, really, I had thought that I had to do all these insane things at once to makeup for the time I wasted de-advancing, to make them love me again, to bring them back in my life, to get them to interact with me again.
But
They've always been here, this entire time, I had been trying so hard and burning myself out, I had destroyed my foundation and acted like it was stronger than ever, I had done so much out of false certainty, I thought I "knew" what was right and wrong but this was just false certainty. The gods didn't leave me, the gods didn't stop loving me, they didn't change, and they didn't abandon me, it was me who de-advanced and lost my ability to feel them, and me feeling Satans presence those times after I would meditate, that wasn't him "coming back" but instead it was me being open enough to actually feel what's always been there.
It was actually a post by the name of "Know what you are doing" which brought me out of this disillusion I've been in. Or rather, made me aware of the false certainty. In the post tandt mentions it's important to know what you are doing. So, when I was doing my morning meditations today, I sat down and thought about things, step by step, I anyalized exactly what I was doing and honestly, my meditations were completely different to how they've been for the past few years.
But I also realized something during this time. During this process of just doing simple meditations. I realized how much I didn't know, how much I had forgotten. Simple things like, how to actually program energy, the very basics of the basics, I had completely forgotten, and I had no idea how they worked, this shocked me and made me realize that.. Hey, I actually have no idea "what I'm doing" do I?
In How To Achieve Your Satanic Goals - New Year Gift the very first thing that you wrote was "1. Remember to study the JoS / Keep a Journal / Retain memory." and went on to explain the mind and how it's forgetful.
It was today which I discovered all of this, and, after creating a topic and posting it, I click the main page and what do I see? "Higher Levels Of Knowledge, Or More False Certainty?". So I click on it and it describes exactly what I've been facing and exactly what the solution is. In fact, I'd say it was everything combined which finally made me realise, well, I had realized what I need to do but it wasn't until fully reading this post that I truly realised.
I need to start from the beginning, to rebuild my foundation, to stop imposing such impossible expectations on myself. I broke my foundation years ago and have been acting as if it wasn't. My foundation went from one which could house a skyscraper to nothing, literally, nothing. Yet I have been trying to be a skypscraper when at the time, my foundation can't even support a house.
Hp Hooded Cobra, I wanted to thank you, for all of the time, all of the support, all of the effort, knowledge, and just everything, you have done for us here. It was in part thanks to you that I was able to find my way back. I probably would have been stuck in the same cycle as I've been for years if I didn't read this post.
I have finally found my way back, this entire time time I haven't realized that the one thing I needed to do was start over, instead of trying to be the skyscraper I was in the past all at once. From now on I'll start from the beginning again, as if I was brand new, learn the very basics and love every second of it, continue to advance at a pace which works for me, that's all I can do and that's exactly what I should do.
Thank you for all of your posts, you truly do as exactly as you said HP. You "walk people towards the next grade".
I'm honored to start all over again. This means, not only can I avoid making the same mistakes as I did in the past, but, I get to redescover everything that made me fall in love with Satanism in the past, I get to rediscover and find out and learn everything I did in the past, everything that made me the skyscraper I was, but this time, without all the mistakes I made, this time, I'll be an even better skyscraper with an even stronger foundation, and this time, I won't fall.
I'm excited man
So very fucking excited.
Hail Satan Forever!
I am back on the path now and advancing again, I had gotten myself into some bad shit and destroyed my foundation, and everything crumbled, all of the things I had built crumbled the moment I destroyed my foundation.
I can see, for the past two or so years I have done nothing but be stuck in an endless loop, and part of that was because I was refusing to learn, I had been stuck with the idea that I was the same person I was before, the same me who had a solid foundation and a skyscraper, who was improving every single day and looked back every month and was shocked how much I had changed.
In fact, for the past two years I haven't had a single moment like that in the past, where I would look back and say, "fuck was that me?" and be shocked by my transformation. It was just today that I realized I need to stop trying to move forward as if I was the me of the past, the only thing this leads to is disappointment, because, honestly, I just don't have the knowledge, the willpower, or the mindpower to do the things I was able to do, yet it took me so long to grasp this simple concept.
Another thing I realized today is that Satan and his Gods have never left me. In fact, for a long time I had been so miserable, I had thought that Satan had left me. But, Satan and his Gods have never left me, in reality it was me who left them. I had deadvanced and haven't been able to notice them, and then, I would advance for some time and start to feel their presence, but I would stop meditating and then they would leave again.
I had thought that I had to prove myself, that I had to advance for the Gods to care and to notice me, really, I had thought that I had to do all these insane things at once to makeup for the time I wasted de-advancing, to make them love me again, to bring them back in my life, to get them to interact with me again.
But
They've always been here, this entire time, I had been trying so hard and burning myself out, I had destroyed my foundation and acted like it was stronger than ever, I had done so much out of false certainty, I thought I "knew" what was right and wrong but this was just false certainty. The gods didn't leave me, the gods didn't stop loving me, they didn't change, and they didn't abandon me, it was me who de-advanced and lost my ability to feel them, and me feeling Satans presence those times after I would meditate, that wasn't him "coming back" but instead it was me being open enough to actually feel what's always been there.
It was actually a post by the name of "Know what you are doing" which brought me out of this disillusion I've been in. Or rather, made me aware of the false certainty. In the post tandt mentions it's important to know what you are doing. So, when I was doing my morning meditations today, I sat down and thought about things, step by step, I anyalized exactly what I was doing and honestly, my meditations were completely different to how they've been for the past few years.
But I also realized something during this time. During this process of just doing simple meditations. I realized how much I didn't know, how much I had forgotten. Simple things like, how to actually program energy, the very basics of the basics, I had completely forgotten, and I had no idea how they worked, this shocked me and made me realize that.. Hey, I actually have no idea "what I'm doing" do I?
In How To Achieve Your Satanic Goals - New Year Gift the very first thing that you wrote was "1. Remember to study the JoS / Keep a Journal / Retain memory." and went on to explain the mind and how it's forgetful.
It was today which I discovered all of this, and, after creating a topic and posting it, I click the main page and what do I see? "Higher Levels Of Knowledge, Or More False Certainty?". So I click on it and it describes exactly what I've been facing and exactly what the solution is. In fact, I'd say it was everything combined which finally made me realise, well, I had realized what I need to do but it wasn't until fully reading this post that I truly realised.
I need to start from the beginning, to rebuild my foundation, to stop imposing such impossible expectations on myself. I broke my foundation years ago and have been acting as if it wasn't. My foundation went from one which could house a skyscraper to nothing, literally, nothing. Yet I have been trying to be a skypscraper when at the time, my foundation can't even support a house.
Hp Hooded Cobra, I wanted to thank you, for all of the time, all of the support, all of the effort, knowledge, and just everything, you have done for us here. It was in part thanks to you that I was able to find my way back. I probably would have been stuck in the same cycle as I've been for years if I didn't read this post.
I have finally found my way back, this entire time time I haven't realized that the one thing I needed to do was start over, instead of trying to be the skyscraper I was in the past all at once. From now on I'll start from the beginning again, as if I was brand new, learn the very basics and love every second of it, continue to advance at a pace which works for me, that's all I can do and that's exactly what I should do.
Thank you for all of your posts, you truly do as exactly as you said HP. You "walk people towards the next grade".
I'm honored to start all over again. This means, not only can I avoid making the same mistakes as I did in the past, but, I get to redescover everything that made me fall in love with Satanism in the past, I get to rediscover and find out and learn everything I did in the past, everything that made me the skyscraper I was, but this time, without all the mistakes I made, this time, I'll be an even better skyscraper with an even stronger foundation, and this time, I won't fall.
I'm excited man
So very fucking excited.Hail Satan Forever!
Artisan said:...
I'm excited man
Hail Satan Forever!
Glad to see all is going well for you. What you wrote also isn't really a reply, that's a gigatons of pure meaning and self understanding in this post.
HP. Hoodedcobra666 said:Artisan said:...
I'm excited man
Hail Satan Forever!
Glad to see all is going well for you. What you wrote also isn't really a reply, that's a gigatons of pure meaning and self understanding in this post.
I sent you an email in reply to this as the only response I could come up with contained some personal info. I really appreciate your time so I tried to keep the email short, however, it did end up a little long, I hope you can find some free time to read it when you have the chance.
Have an excellent day!
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