Sundara said:
If the Gods themselves would deem a human worthy of a relationship why wouldn’t you deem other humans worthy of a relationship?
Because I'm not a God. It's as simple as that. If I could explain the answer to "why" , I don't think anyone will understand.
To be in a relationship with someone who is not a Spiritual Satanist, is like a gamble. You never know when you going to get hurt. Plus, it has no eternal purpose. But only provides satisfaction on various levels... Even that is not guaranteed.
It is very unstable and weak. I find myself being extremely scared of trusting a human female because I fall deeply in love and it's like, there is no other...it's like eternal for me. Just her and me. None else.
If a woman gets clingy, men love it but when a man gets clingy, women hate it. Facts. Plus Women's attention span is unforgivingly short.
The mind flaws of female and male are different from each other. At some levels some flaws are same or similar.
That requires manipulation to keep the person with you otherwise it's never guaranteed that they will be with you tomorrow or not. You cannot guarantee it.
But with SS partners, there is some hope. Things are positively different with SS partner but still there will be hardships and misunderstandings and also not to forget the enemy's efforts to ruin the relationship.
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I like to live alone but sometimes when I see a couple , you know I want to have someone too. But it's just a curiosity to feel that feeling/emotion.
Then with time it fades away.
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I think there is a need for someone I can stay eternally with.
But then isn't it important to have a family for various reasons...?
But I think if I have a Demoness Lover and if atleast I get some real experience with her to confirm it that I actually have someone, then I can free myself from these lack feelings, I would not desire to have family I think.
But few days ago, in the morning, I woke up, I was sleepy then I heard myself saying to me in my mind "Get married". It was not a voice but a thought. It seemed like it was not me saying it. If I remember it was In the center of the brain.
I know we hear astral voices right in the center of the brain or in the pineal gland I think no? I had one experience with astral hearing years ago. I had breathed in energy and same evening I heard a voice when I was very near to fall asleep.
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Yeah I know i don't think like that oh I'm in relationship with a Demoness.
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Sundara said:
You should also know that in actual relationships, they won’t always be able to be there with you. They won’t be there every single night to put you to bed, they won’t be there to make you dinner. Physically. They can provide many blessings beyond belief but you’d have to be able to actually see it. There is time apart spent and there is also a lot of attacks that happen. In real relationships advancement can happen pretty rapidly and there is more attention spent on each other, but it takes a lot of learning and years of figuring things out sometimes. It isn’t the easiest thing ever and there are a lot of things that can happen that won’t always make sense initially. There’s a lot of perseverance. When personal emotions get involved it’s also really important to understand yourself and understand them, and always maintain a huge level of respect even though it’s mutual. It really isn’t for the faint of heart and it really isn’t for everyone just yet, for the unwise it can look really pretty and shiny on paper. “Oh I’m in a relationship with a God that means I’m special and I don’t need to do anything or I can do less” isn’t a good thought process to have, it actually means more work. It’s not always an easy pill to swallow to try and grasp it all initially. For some people I think this would be a great situation. It really just depends.
Sundara said:
In some relationships with the Gods there are terms where they definitely don’t want you to just be with anybody, but there are others out there that would be beneficial to you or that you’d be beneficial for. They’re obviously much higher than us and they want us to advance through any relationship with them. It isn’t so black and white and other people aren’t just completely unworthy of you, especially down the line. I understand where you’re coming from and relationships with anyone indoctrinated can be difficult or detrimental to advancing in some cases. In some cases there are boundaries that shouldn’t be crossed especially early on, but it’s a mutual thing and you do make your own decisions.