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From: Melanie Hachey To: HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com Sent: Sunday, March 08, 2009 4:00 PM
Subject: Re: [HellsArmy666] Re: hey, new and thirsty for knowledge.
Hello,
I know, i just wanted to let you know how much i appreciate it. Being new, i'm not as experienced as others and don't always understand what i experience at times.And i don't mean just for this. I've had weird shit happen to me that i didn't understand, alot was scary. I just didn't wanna blurt the stuff out just like that because i didn't want people to think i was weird.
After reading certain things on the site though, now i understand more at least about the greys. But getting back to the subject, i was baptised when i was really young but never felt strongly for christianity, ever! My parents even took me to a priest... which i didn't see the point too. I'm sorry but i have no respect for christian priest at all. And i've learned first hand what was said on the site about keeping your mouth shut. I predicted the death of my cousin, and my parents seperation. I got bugged a whole lot after that. My family kept asking about what 'vibes' i got from this and that... in the end i was so fed up....
Wow, 1 year? You must have become quite close with Satan and the demons then, along with aquiring a good sence of who you really are, beliefs and learned quite alot. I have never summoned a demon either. Although a few days ago, i tried to get in contact with my demon guardian. I have for a few months been feeling like something was trying to contact me, but wasn't sure what. I think maybe it was him. See i can sence/ feel things but 99..9% of the time have no clue what it is. Which is frutrating.. . i tried the pendulumn thing, but that didn't go to well. so i just started reading up the names and such... and one name in particularly just wouldn't get out of my head. And whenever i say the name or think it i get a really nice warm feeling inside, so i don't know. I'm thinking he might be my guardian.
Well i have astraly projected a few times, only twice deliberatly one using the rolling out method the other shooting myself throught my third eye which hurt ( for some reason if your not really really relaxed you feel stuck in your back and it hurts really really bad...), and most times have met something. Just not sure what i would call the somethings. But my dreams have become really vivid, and yesterday... well this morning's one was... it creeped me out much. Well, when i was younger ( please don't laugh... ) i had these dreams, nightmares, i used to always dream that aliens were after me. They didn't do anything just stared at me with those big eyes. For years i was terrified, until i started killing them by strangling them. And would you believe after that, i started dreaming about them less and less until it stopped.
Yesterday, well this morning, i had a dream and the part that really stood out, i saw some in there, they looked a bit different though, they were taller, greyish-brown, there head wasn't big and they had these weird wings that kinda looked like butterflies. .. and the phrase i remember was " were nearly the same..." or something like that and he/she whatever gender was really close to this guy, he kinda looked all entranced or something. When i woke up i was like, " like hell! i don't think so!" I know it was just a dream but i didn't feel comfortable at all. Like i wasn't alone, like something(s) were watching me. So i asked them, if it was something they did because i wasn't sure of what was acceptable or not to ask, but if they could remove the negativity and odd feeling i felt and thanked them. Not to long after i started feeling better. I though maybe it ment i had some hidden issues i have to work throught or something. I never though someone could be trying to scare me...
Well my parents were, hum... can't really find the words for it. My mother has always though i was gifted or something, and my father always makes fun/ tries to prove that every religion is the same... so whatever, i like my earth parents but i don't believe there my real family. Which probably sounds weird...but its just how i feel.
Well my earth cousins actually are jehova witnesses and you know, they talk about sex and all this stuff. I didn't think they were supose to act that way. But when you think about it, i mean so many people say there this and don't act like it. It just seems a bit hypocritical, or however it goes. Luckilly, they know better then to try and force that stuff down my troat.
Heh heh, it did. Somethimes it just feels good to be able to talk to someone about stuff. In particular i mean this. It's new to me, ever since i started the exercises/ trying to contact my dg i feel so much more peaceful and oddly confident but i know i couldn't talk to anyone here about it... Even my best friend,... i know they wouldn't understand.. .
Thanks sister, to you as well. ^^
I hope i can learn much and be of at least some help to Father.
From: Allison Passino <chimera11@verizon. net
To: HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Sunday, March 8, 2009 10:49:00 AM
Subject: Re: [HellsArmy666] Re: hey, new and thirsty for knowledge.
You're mor than welcome! Always glad to help a fellow Satanist if I can. Yeah, I wish more people would look at the site like that...really, if one thinks about it, all the stuff on there makes so much sense! I'd never particularly felt one way or the other about the jews when I was without, but now I'm beginning to really not like them. Gee, wonder why? Lol. Well I've been a Satanist for a little over a year; though most of it I've just spent in researching and such. I didn't wanna try and summon a demon or whatever without knowing all I can about true magick and stuff. Besides, I just found it so fascinating, and there's always so much to learn! Speaking for myself, I unfortunately didn't have any dreams that were out of the ordinary or suipernatural; wish I would! But oh well. Lol. I'm adventurous that way; I wouldn't mind a bit. However, I've heard that some people do receive strange or unsettling dreams when they first come to Father...it really all depends. Everyone's different, you know. I wouldn't worry overmuch about it, Sister. Sometimes, the enemy seeks to frighten newbies away by giving them intense or disturbing dreams, and other times it's simply Father Satan or your guardian communicating with you. What happened in your dream, may I ask? I'm glad your GD and Father helped you; they're really good about that. Don't worry so much about offending them; Father in particular is really lenient. He knows you're new, he knows you're apt to make mistakes and such; he isn't gonna bite your head off for little things. He's patient and gentle, like a good father ought to be, unlike that stupid Adonai. Were you raised xian, by the way? I fortunately was not; my mom didn't push any kind of religion onto me, saying whatever one I chose in the end was up to me. She doesn't know I'm a Satanist yet, but when I do tell her in the end she'll accept it, 'cause she loves me and she knows I'm still her daughter and am a good person. She's a very open-minded woman. I thank Lord Satan every day that I wasn't raised Jehova's Witness! Bleh. Those people creep me the fuck out.. And they annoy me. Luckily they don't bother me much; only stopped by to talk to me once, and another time they shoved one of their filthy pamphlets under my door; I just tossed it in the trash once I realized what it was. Well, hope that helped. Take care, and may Father bless and keep thee! Hail Satan Enki!
----- Original Message -----
From: Melanie Hachey To: HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com Sent: Sunday, March 08, 2009 3:43 AM
Subject: Re: [HellsArmy666] Re: hey, new and thirsty for knowledge.
Hi there,
Actually i got the shaved head thing from the demonic bible. When it said to do a ritual per night and such. I didn't mean to stereotype anyone or anything.
And i think your right about the energy thing. =)
If i might ask, how long have you been a satanist? I'm asking because i had a really really vivid dream this morning, which left me a little freacked. But to keep this short and go right to the point. I asked the demons and my guardian demon if they could remove any residue negative energy from it ( of course stating before that i was sorry if i offended them, and that i didn't mean to because i was new and didn't know eactly what i could ask or not...).
I started feeling calmer pretty quick. It felt like calming energy was being sent to my belly and i heard something. Well, not by my ears. It was like everything when quiet in my head, more then usual, and i heard what sounded like crowing- but it was high pitch... and a few really loud noises outside but i think that's the apartment, even though my guardian is known for being loud and a few unexplained things going off in the past days, that had my roomy freacking out might i add,i though it was him.
Do things like this happen alot at first? I'm just curious as to what to expect as i am new.
And yeah the site is really good, wish more people would look at it from an open point of view and see it for what it really is. When you think about all the negative programming that has come out of christianity and what it does to someone. I think the little bit of awkardness i feel is because of that, the whole we can't talk to gods and stuff. I know i felt drawn here for a reason. And i feel much more safe for some reason.
Thanks Allison, i wish the same to everyone who embarks on this path. =)
From: Allison Passino <chimera11@verizon. net
To: HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Sunday, March 8, 2009 12:18:05 AM
Subject: Re: [HellsArmy666] Re: hey, new and thirsty for knowledge.
Hi! Yeah, me too. Just keep at it; that's all I can tell ya. Lol. I believe they can hear our thoughts and feel the energy when we direct it to focus on the demon of our choice; we may not always hear their responses, but they do respond. Besides,those guys are hella busy! Lol. I read on the Jos that Thoth was the busiest of the demons; he's so popular. No, of course not! All that shaved head stuff is really kind of a stereotype anyway, or at least I'm pretty certain it is. I'm gonna eventually join the NSm myself, and there's nothing on their site says you gotta shave your head! Lol. Yeah, that Blacksun site is awesome! All kinds of good stuff on there; it's really quite fascinating. Good luck, my friend! Hail Satan!
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From: nexusrzing To: HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com Sent: Saturday, March 07, 2009 6:24 AM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: hey, new and thirsty for knowledge.
Hello Allison,
nice to meet you too! really? thanks for letting me know. that is a big reasurance for me! now i don't feel to bad. i though that i HAD to learn that within the first week/ or that something was wrong with me that i wasn't getting it. Because the breathing is going along great as well as me feeling really relaxed and almost numb but... even when i do the ladder, elevator, hell i've even tried going down stairs... it's like hit or miss. Somethimes it works other times not... but i have no intention of giving up, and now that i know it is normal, it's all good.
glad to be here! i really like the blacksun website, so much interesting stuff to read. I actually downloaded some things from the site here and have been reading those as well. You can tell so much when into it. Some people are really knowledgable. I just don't like the whole shaving head thing. Takes me forever to grow my hair. Is that really a nessesity i wonder?
well, i'm good at sensing/ feeling energy, i think that's the only thing i'm actually good at so i do feel the air thicken and lots of warm touches ( shoulders, arm, near me when im all nice in comfy in bed ) and such.
I see. I don't know why i worried about that. It should be obvious they wouldn't mind. Does this mean they can hear my thoughts and energy directed to them?
--- In HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com, "Allison Passino" <chimera11@. .. wrote:
Hi. Nice to meet you! Don't worry about the trance thing...I and many other newer Satanists have trouble with that. You just have to keep at it. You'll get there eventually. Welcome to the group! Oh, and don't worry about possibly being a bother; the demons and Father love to help us. You may not always know when they're near or be able to talk with them, but they never leave you. Hail Satan!
----- Original Message -----
From: nexusrzing
To: HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Friday, March 06, 2009 5:28 AM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] hey, new and thirsty for knowledge.
hello,
Firstly, if this ain't in the right spot, sorry. i didn't see any directories so i just posted this wherever...
I can't remember how or why i found this site a few days ago but ever since i did i couldn't stop thinking about it. I have been a a spiritual slump for awhile, and nothing seemed to feel right.
For some reason i felt drawn here, so i joined. I try to listen to my gut feelings as most i can since there usually right. Hoping to find useful information, and to learn. I'm tired of all the lies, the unanswered questions, i just want to find something that's real and give it my all. I wonder if that makes me sound selfish...
I started doing the training exercises, and am on my third day of week 1. I'm trying to learn as much as i can. I do the exercises 3 times a day. My body gets really relaxed fast now, and my body seems to be getting more comfortable with the breathing method. I have only reached the 'falling effect' twice though. So i'm a bit worried that maybe i'm not progressing as fast as i should...
Also, for the new ones (or those that remember when they were new), did you feel a bit awkward at first? Like you really want to contact/ talk to satan and the demons ( are some ways better then others btw? ) but are afraid that you would be a bother?
thanks
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