Yes, I don't enjoy it, I don't feel anything doing it and at the beginning of day, I don't meditate. I do other stuff in first 2-3 hours of day, sometimes that is 5-6 hours and I decide to not meditate if I spent first 5-6 hours of day.
This can be changed by doing affirmations in a light trance. Instead of avoiding meditation, you could affirm before falling asleep, or after waking up relaxing in the bed, "I like meditation, I want to meditate, I enjoy meditation.", or something along these lines. This will be the first line to break the walls of the mind against mediation. Then, gradually, introducing other meditations such as aura cleaning, aura of protection, and void meditation into your routine along with these affirmations, all the while repeating them to further anchor the mind to these practices and their usefulness.
But I am afraid to see a nightmare so I always clean my aura quickly before going to bed.
If you would understand the implications of not wanting to advance on this Path, you could likewise be a little startled, perhaps even scared that the consequences are unfavorable to you as a human being by staying as a passive regarding this topic. It is not only is a duty to us but a virtuous thing to do to reach new heights as a human being and being a student of the Gods.
I use social media a lot, it is hard to wake up early and I really feel that social media harms me as a teenager.
Simple: Restrict the use of social media. By doing so, you will let your mind acclimatize towards more normal dopamine levels. This will help with meditation as your mind is not constantly bombarded with stimuli. Combining void meditation with this will bring great fruits. And yes, it will be difficult at the beginning. There is no question about that. However, that's beginnings in general, and by pushing through we see rewards.
I found Zevism at 2021, and I didn't understand how to meditate really.
So, I didn't do something until 2023. I understood how to meditate at 2023. I started 40 days program but never finished and trying to start again and again for this 2 years.
Still I am trying to finish 40 days program. I am wasting time for 4 years.
The silver lining here is that you struggle. If you would give up, then there is nothing to be done. But you have not given up, so there is much hope for you.
And could you explain how to feel energy? As I said, I only visualize and thats it. You are saying "You should feel, it is not about duration", even I don't really feel.
First, by calming the mind. This is a pre-requisite for meditation. Preferably a calm setting as well, especially in the beginning, as distractions are most likely going to ruin the practice. Then, by being relaxed and doing the meditations as instructed, you pry your mind and soul open bit by bit, which result in feeling energy, among other things. You can try props such as candles and various scents to set the stage for meditation, so to speak. Over time, the mind will be favorably conditioned towards meditation and so on.
I feel energy only at God Rituals, and the feeling in god rituals is only a powerful tingling on my hands.
Especially, when I dedicated my soul to zeus at 2023, I felt nothing. I only felt something in god rituals. That affects my faith because I generally don't feel something.
Yes, that is good. And many people do not necessarily feel much or anything at all during their dedication. All of this depends on the status of the individual during that time--not all are psychically open to begin with, or perhaps there are other factors that play into not feeling much. But this can be corrected by the meditations of ToZ.