I posted before about being distracted and unable to meditate. I think I know what it is. I am heart broken. I met a guy a year ago where I work and we got together a few times before he moved to a new store then I moved to a new store. I didn't really think about him much then, I had a lot going on. Then out of the blue last March he sends me a text that he thinks about me all the time. So we start talking more, hanging out some, I ended up falling in love with him. We were together until August, for the best 4 months of my life. We talked about moving in together, picked names for a child, gave me a diamond (not an engagement ring a promise ring, since we don't believe in marriage) We are truly soul mates!!
In August, things got really stressful for me, working too much, what else. When I get really stressed I have night terrors, this one was that he broke up with me, it was so real. I thought he had. We talked and I found out it was a dream and explained things to him.
Then he just stopped talking to me. Then he started again a month later. Saying he missed me and everyone has issues. We discussed about taking it slow and rebuilding. A month later I noticed it didn't seem to be going in that direction. I asked flat out, do you want to get back together? Maybe later, but right now he has to much shit on his plate. We continue to talk. He is the one that turned me to Joyofsatan.org. Our conversations are begign, usually about Satan(Hail to My Father) Spiritual etc.. If I ask anything about his life i get silence or no answer.
I have asked for My Father's help. Do I need to let him go to get back on my track? I tell My Father over and over again, I love him so much.
Should I let go?
Hail Father Satan!!!!
Akia
In August, things got really stressful for me, working too much, what else. When I get really stressed I have night terrors, this one was that he broke up with me, it was so real. I thought he had. We talked and I found out it was a dream and explained things to him.
Then he just stopped talking to me. Then he started again a month later. Saying he missed me and everyone has issues. We discussed about taking it slow and rebuilding. A month later I noticed it didn't seem to be going in that direction. I asked flat out, do you want to get back together? Maybe later, but right now he has to much shit on his plate. We continue to talk. He is the one that turned me to Joyofsatan.org. Our conversations are begign, usually about Satan(Hail to My Father) Spiritual etc.. If I ask anything about his life i get silence or no answer.
I have asked for My Father's help. Do I need to let him go to get back on my track? I tell My Father over and over again, I love him so much.
Should I let go?
Hail Father Satan!!!!
Akia