Here's a sermon from hp Vovim Baghie that explains a lot
"There is a period for newly Dedicated Spiritual Satanists, where it feels as if there is a
constant struggle with Meditation and Magick. The effects of meditations are not felt
and visualization seems nearly impossible.
There is a very simple reason for this, and most figure this out for themselves after
they have persisted through the rough patch and stuck with their Meditations long
enough to actually feel their effects. However, there are many who simply give up
because of the initial struggle.
Firstly, struggle is a constant and a necessity, there is no such thing as “something for
nothing”. In order to gain we must give, it is that simple. In order to gain the positive
effects of Meditations we must give our time, effort and dedication in doing the
Meditations and applying them every day. – In other words, constantly!
Consistency IS the key to Meditation; it is the only barrier between failure and
success with regards to both Meditation and Magic. We are our own worst enemies
when it comes to initial Mediations.
Do not get that statement wrong, I am not referring to a “bad attitude” or a lack of
self confidence. – Granted, these play a major part in failure. However these are just
bi-products of the main, inner-reason behind the initial Struggles with Meditation
and Magick.
This main, inner-reason is the Higher Mind and the Physical Body. Both our Higher
Mind and our Physical Body work against us during the initial stages of Dedication,
to understand this, you have to understand what actually happens when we Meditate
and perform Magick or even Rituals.
When we are new to Spiritual Satanism, we either come from a suppressive religious
background or an atheistic background - [some come from backgrounds of magick,
but that is very rare, and also, the types of magical paths that are accepted by society
are simply xian off-shoots with hocus-pocus bullshit added to them]
With these suppressive backgrounds and the relentless enemy influence over the
many years and generations of Gentiles, True Meditation and True Magick are
completely cut-off from us. Our Higher mind becomes nearly dormant and our
physical body accepts the norm [the norm being, complete numbness to energy and
also, complete blindness to the Astral] – This is exactly what our enemies’ want and
have wanted from the start.
Now, after the Dedication, we get a jolt of the Astral, and we feel our Almighty Father
Satans’ presence. We also feel the relief of the weight of xianity being lifted from us.
It is at this point our Higher Mind is stirred form it’s slumber and our Physical body
gets its first real interaction with our Fathers’ energy. – And energy in general.
Then, we move onto the Opening of the Soul and the opening of our Chakra’s. It is at
this point where many give up or stagnate, because as I mentioned earlier, they
struggle with the Meditations, Visualization and, feeling the effects of Meditations.
But it is only natural that this will happen. Think of it in this way, when the body
encounters a foreign substance, [good or bad] the body shuts-off and attacks it.-
Destroying any potential threat that it can.
Keeping this in mind, Meditation and Magick are completely foreign to the Physical
body, so the Physical body reacts to this “new” thing it is experiencing. Firstly by
shutting off. - Which is why the effects of initial Meditations are not felt, most of the
time or even at all. The Body then tries to stop you from continuing in the fear that
this might be harmful by making things difficult.
For instance you get a stuffy nose or a tight chest when Meditating, or you cannot
relax when trying to get into a trance, no matter how hard you try. Small things like
that either distract or dissuaded you from Meditating in the Beginning.
[It is as if the Body has sent the immune system after Meditation in General]
Then we have the Higher Mind which has laid Dormant for many years, due to
militant suppression of anything Spiritual or Magical. - And specifically anything that
leads the way to Father Satan.
So just like the Physical Body, the Higher Mind shuts off and tries to protect us from
the foreign experience.
The ONLY way to combat this is to be consistent with Meditation and Magick. Simply
sitting for 30 Minutes every day and doing; one Chakra Opening exercise, the
Foundation Meditation and a set of breathing exercises. By applying Meditation and
Magick over a constant period, the Physical Body starts to feel the positive effects of
the Meditations and begins to embrace Meditation and Magick.
The Physical Body just needs time to adapt, remember the kikes have worked for
centuries to completely strip us Gentiles of any Occult Power or Knowledge. – So,
naturally, the Body will need time to adapt to such new and powerful experiences.
Similarly, the Higher Mind begins to activate, and starts to recover from its atrophy.
Again, consistency and daily application of Meditation and Magick both stimulates
and empowers the Higher Mind.
This is why it is fundamental to understand that this Path takes Time, far too many
Gentiles whom come to Father Satan and Spiritual Satanism expect “Godlike” results
within the period of a week or a Month. True Power of any kind comes only with time
and Wisdom. - Wisdom can only be gained through the constant Application of
knowledge; and knowledge can only be gained through the constant application of
oneself in learning all there is to learn.
Secondary to this, there is the issue of a lack of self-confidence and a lack of pride in
what we do. - Which of course the enemy has worked to instill in us all. Selfconfidence
is a major part of Meditation and Magick; you have to know and feel
beyond a shadow of a doubt that what you have just done - be it a meditation or a
ritual - is, will, and has worked completely!
No matter what you feel, no matter whether you didn’t visualize as good as you
wanted to, no matter whether you didn’t feel the effects as much as the last time you
did that specific meditation or magical working, it does not matter. Why? Because
you *DID* the Meditation, you *DID* the magical working. What reason do you have
to doubt your success?
Sometimes we only feel the effects of a specific meditation hours, even days after the
actual Meditation. Sometime Our Planets are aligned in a negative way and cause us
to feel less – astrally - and even make us feel that we have failed without even trying.
Sometimes you do not feel anything because you are passed that specific meditation
and you need to move up to new meditations. - And do not forget, sometimes the
enemy tries to manipulate our thinking and astral experiences to make us feel like we
have failed, or we are useless, when in-fact the meditation has worked perfectly, we
simply have nor felt it.
Again the only way passed this is to be consistent and dedicated when it comes to our
Meditations and Magical workings. There will come a point when your Astral flame
will burn so bright none of this will affect you; you will have complete and utter
confidence in yourself, your Meditations and your Magical workings. And the only
way to reach this point is? Yes, that is right, always be consistent.
This does not only apply to Meditation and Magick, this also applies to; Astral Vision,
Astral Communication, Trance, Visualization, Astral Projection and just about
anything in life.
Remember that anything new, will take time and practice to Master.
Now, after confronting the main inner-reason for our initial struggles, we also have
to understand and combat the outer-reasons. Remember, even after we find our
beloved Father Satan, we are still oppressed by not only society, but our own
families, our community and most of all, our many enemies.
They will all work in unison to deter us from our Father, whether through
intimidation or pathetic attempts at degradation. Simply build your Aura of
protection, keep your Aura and Chakra’s clean of negative energies and influences.
You are a Gentile, and a Son\Daughter of our Almighty and Beloved Father Satan,
You have HIS love and HIS Will on your Side. NEVER let anything persuade you
otherwise.
I am writing this to encourage patience with Meditation and Magick, and hopefully to
help all those who are newly Dedicated, to understand what is actually happening
and what they are going through.
I hope that this will help those who are newly Dedicated in applying themselves and
pushing themselves to ultimate success. Just remember that Father Satan and the
Gods are always with us and are always there to help us. If you feel you are Truly
Struggling, just connect with our beloved Father and ask for his Help."
Also, the 40 day meditation program is a good place to start.
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf
My response to you wasn't as detailed as it should have been because I didn't have time to write. I gave you a link but the information in there is not exactly what I wanted to tell you.So here: 
